It's been awhile...

Suddenly recalled that I have this blog and started reading the posts and found those emotions I've blogged in the past... still kinda hurts me now...

So much has changed over the past 8 years and I am not even sure if I have fully healed.

Got my theological degree. Got in and out of church and currently looking another one now. Met new friends. Lost some. Still single and not sure whether I can trust or love again. Learn new things. Still riding my bike and loving it.

There are many other things that I want to do but I guess somehow God has better plans for me. And I shall be obedient.

As I think back 2008 and 2009, I can't help feeling silly to fall into a relationship that wasn't meant to be. I told many of my friends that I might be happier if I have not gone through those years.

Now that its 2016...the death of a relative, some friends and my beloved pet made me hope and pray that xman will not turn up dead as he will be turning 40 this year (he mentioned that if he did not succeed in anything, he will end his life turning 40). I never understood why he will have such thinking and always thought that I am able to change his thinking. Anyway, I will never know as we have lost contact with one another. I refused to do so and find that there isn't a point to contact one another as I cannot see past us being only friends. It just hurts too much.

Exams and papers to write...

i'm outta time!

i still have an estimation of 8000 more words to write for my three papers to submit by next week...

and exams is on Monday!!!

i'm panicking a little, but yet still need to push on! gambatte gambatte!!!

*Smiles*

There is this funny classmate of mine whom make me smile or rather giggle in class last Tuesday.
He's quite a nice person I would say. Very funny & comical.

All he did was to try getting me to eat some Willy Wonka sweets that he described  as the best in the world, having the face expression like an innocent child grinning. And while he passed me the sweet, I mentioned it was simply just normal / okay, but he insisted that I should continue eating it and the good stuff is in the middle. And so I did and realised it is quite nice after all.

His expression is priceless. And I know he came with a sincere intention to share something which he really like. In which, I have not felt such sincerity from any person for a very long time. 

RIP Longblack...

Longblack has just passed away at 11am today. 

Earlier this morning, she was lying on one side of body and she look very very weak.

I fed her with water and she was still okay except lying down.

Around 11am, she no longer have any heartbeat and has passed on.

I pray that she is with Papa God now, and in a way thanking that her pain did not prolonged.

RIP Longblack, I love you so much. 

You had been  such a joy in my family. 

You had been such a great momma.

Will always remember you.

It breaks my heart...

This is definitely not a good week.

Talk about work, I feel really $&975*^5%#^%#%#& about it.
But until God tells me so to leave, I need to hang on.

What really made my heart break was on my guinea pigs. It has been a emotional run up and down...

First of all, I have gotten the guinea pigs from my fren whom creative school have to shift out from Mount Sophia. And moving into their new premises, they cannot keep pets. Thus I adopted three from them (Longblack whom is the mom and two younger ones), and of cos requesting them to be of the same sex. And they live happily together ever since, until...

4th Oct: Every morning, Longblack usually runs out from her small little hut to greet me or awaits for me to feed. But this very day, she hid in the hut and did not move at all. I noticed she is not her usual self and is not eating.  :(

That very night I did their cage cleaning and found the other two keep humping Longblack. I decided to separate them first but realised the two keep chasing and humping each other. Thinking that one could be a male, I took out the "chaser" and the running stopped. Later putting Longblack in with the "non-chase". But later realising the other one keep disturbing her and she was squeaking for awhile. After much consideration and consultation, I've decided to separate them again. Leaving Longblack on her own, and the other two to chase each other for the night.

5th Oct: Longblack still not eating and not responding well. My dad ask if we should bring her to a vet. So after some research, I found a vet nearby my workplace and they open at 12pm and thus decided to head down. They only opened at 12.40pm and I met up with the vet whom explained quite a fair bit of things to me. And she also mentioned Longblack could be pregnant as she could feel two lumps on her. At this point of time, I was thinking how she could be pregnant?

If she's pregnant, does that means she will give birth to many? How would I be able to cope?
If she's not pregnant, then what are the two lumps on her body?

Nonetheless, I have to hand feed her with some herbivore supplement and Probiotics.

I brought her home at 2pm, and left for work again. And the whole afternoon trying to research...feeling excited yet nervous and also nervous yet excited.

By 6pm, I reached home. And I wanted to hand feed her again. But while carrying her to a tray, we realised there was some sac thingy in the cage. I immediately called and emailed my vet and realised she is giving birth now, and the sac looks like a prematured baby.  *heartpain 1*

And soon after, she gave birth to another sac where she licked a few times but later leave it *heartpain 2* and another one came. *heart pain 3*

In total, she had a miscarriage of 3 babies. And this breaks my heart!!!

In the first place, I didn't even know she was pregnant. And don't even know that the two others were males.

I think I failed as a owner.

Though I really feel sad, but I know the next few days is to help Longblack to regain her health.
I've got to hand feed her and pray that she will get well.

It pains me to see her suffer, it pains me to know that she lost her child x 3. :~~~(((
Mummy Longblack is emo... Owner Lindy is emo too.

Lord, I just commit all these emotions to you. Help Longblack regain her appetite and health. Help us to get over this loss. I pray peace and restoration over her, myself and my family members whom also helped me to take care of her. In the mighty name of Jesus, Amen.

*Mesmerized*

Had some free time hence must definitely write this!

I get mesmerized by :-
- good singing
- beautiful eyes

( I will add on to the list when I find other things that mesmerized me! Hahaha!)

Term Break - Weekend 2

It has been a long time since I have tasted really good steak. And did I ever mentioned before that 'The French Stall' is my favourite restaurant? Unfortunately, I have not gone there for a very long time and it still brings back memories which I do not know whether to feel happy or sad about it.

We celebrated Erwin's bday today at Flamin' Grills, a place where my friends wanted to introduced and we only get to eat it today and it was just FANTASTIC. And I rate it much better than Morton's The Steakhouse! Really!


The set meal is like a 4/5-course with a soup, salad, complements, main dish & drinks. We also ordered escargot and there were some dishes "on-the-house" especially for us. ALL of the dishes were very nicely presented and taste superdelicious!!!

Top: Traditional Caesar Salad. The orange round thingy is parmesan cheese. Gourmet Sausages.

Bottom: Mushroom Soup. (Their Beef with Barley is yummiest too). Bacon with Hawaiian Sauce?

Top: Classic Flav Mash. AU Angus Ribeye - Medium. Looks plain but the best steak I have eaten.
I asked for Caramelized Onion Sauce. But the owner had also given me Black Pepper & I like both!

Bottom: Escargot on Mushroom. Chocolate Meltz.

 *SLURPS* 

Rate: 5 ***** (5 Being Best)

Can I come back here for my birthday? =)

The musical side of me...

I'm learning the ukulele! Well, they started a beginner class at my workplace and the lesson is during lunch time. Thus I just wanted to join in the fun, learning how to play the ukulele. And I find it very portable, so I can probably bring it with me whenever I go for ministry/mission trips. =)

The Vow...

Just watched this movie and totally envying the love between the couple. In sickness and in health, the two of them did pull it through their marriage even though the woman did not regain her memory after an accident of their time & love for each other. Despite what they had gone through during the period of her recovery, they started to fall in love with each other again. True story.

Love...The only love I know now is from God and that He will bring a man whom loves Him and also love me for who I am. If I would to trust and believe someone just base on my own feelings, I would probably fail again. Similarly, as I see D in a relationship with a nice guy from church and now that she's getting married. I never give up hope that God completely heal me from those bad memories and bring the person to love me too.

I don't bear a grudge against xman, I guess he's just as broken as anybody out there without Christ in their life. But my prayer is that he come out from whatever misery which he thinks he is still in and focus his eyes back to God and live life being a special child of His.

What a quarter!

The first quarter of 2011 ended with exams and papers to complete thus it made me look forward to April where I'll have a term break.The first term had been tiring, yet fulfilling as I've learnt so much more on the Old Testament. I guess without going through this module, I probably would still leave OT aside.

By this time next week, I'll be in vietnam to support my pastor whom is preaching at a church for expats in Ho Chi Minh city. I'll be doing a song presentation with David on the piano with the song - Grace by Laura Story. And not forgetting that MC and I will be there with a few days on our own for some tour-about the city and shopping. Yippee!!!

There are a few things which I want to remember in this first quarter:

1) On the day when my exams ended, where I am looking forward to some sleep after mugging for exams. Someone's car alarm rang through the night and in my desperation for sleep. I googled and read this which made me laugh and later prayed that God would like do something to tell the car owner about his alarm. And miraculously, within the next few minutes, I heard the "ti ti". And the car alarm was off!!!

 

   

2) I have fully paid the instalment for my bike on 28th March 2012!!! By the grace of God, He has protected me and sent His ministering angels with me wherever I go. And I'm so grateful to Him, not because I don't get affected by public transport issue. But from the start I knew it was because of His timely appointment for me to serve Him and that He was the one whom had allowed me to have this asset. And this picture of the two keys meant that the shop doesn't own the bike anymore. =)

3) She's getting married. And like I've mentioned in my previous post. She has my blessings.
I'm so glad that people moved on with the help of Jesus Christ.

That's all for now. I'm living life in God's power and in His grace.

I know who holds tomorrow...

It’s amazing how God bring people through difficult times and I believe that in time to come. I will look back and start smiling.

Though it has been almost a year or two, I still find that knowing D was such a miracle moment! Despite having her on my hate-list once and thinking she was the cause of his pain (which I found out that is not true). Now, seeing her getting free from the past of her youth and blossoming in her current relationship... I realized that God is constantly drawing and building up two women through the nonsensical time, into times when we can be in the arms of His. And truly, she has my blessings.

In my previous post, I wrote “Serving God is the best way I could express how thankful I am to Him...” And I am honored to be serving Him in the worship ministry - primarily as a worship leader and keyboardist. At the start of this year, I enrolled to get a Degree in Theology and though the studies may be taxing but each day I am learning so much more about Jesus Christ than yesterday.

I do not know what the future may be like, but I know that I can put all my trust and my life in His hands.

Love this ukulele version:

Thankful...

Serving God is the best way I could express how thankful I am to Him...

People may not agree with me spending most of my time in church or doing things related to His Kingdom. But deep down in my heart, I am reminded that He is the one whom have pulled me up from the dumps. His goodness transcends all things that had already happened in my life and His goodness still continues to pour down on me!

This evening, I am so thankful that I can stay home after the CNY reunion dinner and having a quiet reading time in my room (cos everybody is watching tv outside) and sipping my cuppa tea...

Thank You Lord, for the Divine Exchange at the Cross.

30th Birthday (Very late post)

I celebrated my 30th birthday this year with my bestest pal from church. The food at Astons Prime Centrepoint was a total disappointment but the company is definitely a blessing from God!!!  And I thank you all for being such an encouragement and joy in my life! =)

The whole group picture!!!

very delicious cake from cedele!

squueze her!!!

cheers everybody!!! May God bless you too!

Sweet messages!

Such a sweet thought from the family. :)

Great purchases!

Time really flies and my bike turns 1 on May 8th. This transport of my own has definitely convenient me and I have the luxury of not squeezing or having that kinda long traveling time anymore. Though the weather can turn real hot if I am riding in the afternoon, but during cooler days. It is simply enjoyable. I thank God whom is always protecting me during my rides.




Today, I bought a new pair of running shoes from New Balance. And it took quite a while to find a pair which is suitable for my feet. I am thankful that I went to the right place at Novena Square and the lady whom have assisted me is helpful and patient even though I asked to try a few pairs for comparison. She even explained to me what are the differences between the few pairs before I made a decision. Thumbs up for such good service. For such good pair of shoes, the only way to qualify its goodness is to use it...thus I better utilize this pair of shoes by exercising more.

Cruising...

I just came back from a cruise trip to KL with my sister. In a way, I've accompanied her for this trip to celebrate her birthday on Apr 30th.

I've booked the trip with my friend with a relatively cheaper price whom is a regular. Apparently I found out she has been going almost every other weekend to gamble. And each night, her hubby and her will stay up the whole night to gamble. And in the morning she would call us up for breakfast. It seems that they have frequent the ship so often, that they are very "well known"!!!

Geez. So this is how many Singaporeans spent their time during weekends going for such holidays. No wonder the govt agreed to have casinos x 3 to be built in SG.

If I would to rate my TW trip and this cruise trip, I would certainly choose TW as it can be quite boring on board. And other than gambling, you can only eat and sleep and watch movie. Ultimate boredom.

Only one thing which can tempt me: the coconut milk shake which is at Port Klang canteen.

Hot weather...

I realized I can't do without air-conditioner and it had to break down in such hot weather!!! My sis and I have decided to get a new one but the installation can only be done on May 13th? Argh!

Earlier this month I was in Taipei where the temperature was between 14deg - 22deg. I simply enjoyed that kinda weather!!!

Anyway, my beloved dad is so cute and loving, that he left this note for me last evening. *Bliss*

Enriching April!!!

Here comes April and this month will be an part enjoying & an enriching month.

I'm flying to Taiwan this afternoon and I'll be shopping and eating with Madeleine! And so I start April off with a holiday trip...YiPpee!!!

Disciple Group starts this month too. And I'm excited that we are able to learn and grow spiritually together with other in Christ. Well, you can say it's like a cell group but it's mainly focusing on discipling and not just another care/support/eating group. And we call ourselves "Trail Blazers".

I pray that all of you may have an enriching month! =)

Lovely!!!

I'm loving what I see on the calendar for this month - March!

Bright & Sunny with lotsa of smiles. I pray that in this month, everybody will be so filled with joy in their hearts!!! =)

Aiyoh...

What would you have done if you saw someone shoplifting? I posted this on facebook and the answers are just absurd.

Today when I was buying some groceries, I saw a middle-aged woman put an item from the shelf into her bag. When she saw me, she quickly tugged her bag under her armpit and walked away.

I did look around to see if anybody was around but unfortunately, everybody was just busy with whatever they are doing. By the time, I had turned my head, the woman was no longer in sight.

Somehow, I felt...oh man, I should have stopped her. But what could I do? Probably could have walked up to her and asked her to put the item back onto the shelf, or asked her to pay for the item. It may seem awkward but I do feel that is the right thing to do.

What would you have done then?