I finally bought my Ipod!!! Okie la...I feel a little heartache cos its so ex but it will be a bday present for myself lo... Happy Happy!!!!

I still don't feel quite well yet...today went in & out of aircon buildings and the hot sun, I am almost fainting!!!!

I feel so frustrated!!! My fever had been up n down for the past 3 days!!! I had rest, sleeept and drank lotsa water but why am I not getting better!!!!!! I feel so terrible now... just got up from my sleep cos the weather is so damn hot!!! ARGH!!!!

Just drank the Zheng Ling Yang which my dad help me to buy; such a small cup and it cost $5!!! Expensive man....and it taste yucky!!!!

Please do not tell me what to do.... I will decide my own path; I listen to what my own heart says and that's a no. And it's not because I have stop trying...but I chose to believe in what I really want.

I was reading KT and one thread made me recall a funny but embarrasing scenario. It's about those mirrors where one side can be seen and the other side will only show your reflections.

I still recall that it was during CNY 06, when we went to vee's house... As we were waiting for her to open the gate. Peilin and me, unknowingly stood by the corridor, using the window as a mirror and started combing our hair and adjusting our clothings...

And it was only after few hours when we were about to leave her house to go to Tua pek gong's temple. Her brother walked out from the room and we were like.."eh...your brother at home ah???" Peilin & me started laughing and realised what blunder we made. Just imagine if i am a guy in the room, and suddenly 2 gals stood outside my window and start to comb their hair and adjust their clothings??

Heh. I hope he was doing something else and didn't see what we both did.

I've always thought that ear piercing using a needle is a punk thingy. But I witness such a ceremony last friday during Amutha's housewarming! According to the Indians, the ear piercing ceremony is a significant tradition of theirs...

Harini: Before the ceremony! The items on the floor are some fruits which are offerings to God, and presents from relatives and friends.

The priest making the marking on her ear....

The actual piercing. I guess Harini could felt the pain but she's a brave little girl, she held back all pain & tears.

Stupid leh... In town also got balrog!!! Suddenly everyone just went dead!!! Grrr!!!!

I just came back from Bangkok!!! As usual, I LOVE Bangkok!!!

Okie...details and pictures to be filled in when I'm free...

I do not understand why I have to come back to this place called 'home' anymore. Issit just a place for me to live and just to sleep in? Well... it does seems like it.

Since primary school days, I was placed at a day-care centre; a place where I go after my classes . During secondary school period, I come back to this place call home, being alone all day. This growing up process had moulded me to be very independant. But does it meant that, I do not need family love just because I am independent? Sadly to say, it does seems like it again.

I never recall a moment where I had relate about what had happened in my life to my family. Whatever I do, seems to revolve only around me, myself and I. Had they realise that during my school days I have gotten first in class or had won many competitions before? Had they also realise that during my work in Keppel, I had made almost half a million revenue for the company in just 3months? I seriously doubt so. And since whatever I do seems so insignificant; after some time, I don't even bother to tell them.

The routine had been the same for so many years; Once I stepped into the house, it would be bathe-> eat-> stay in the room and face my computer. The only ones I could talk to, are people on the internet.

Whenever I eat at Joseph's house, or attend friends' birthday celebrations. My heart cringed when I see their family being around.

I feel so sad... Really I do...Sometimes I just wish I had abit of their love & understanding...

Starting May, I will be doing shift work liao...Go in at 10.30am, and end at 8pm! Quite okie la...at least shiftwork will be rotated among my dept.

Yday went to listen to some shit. But I still believe in what one of my lecturer have taught me, "Identify -> Act On it -> Become!"

MTV ASIA just called me saying that I'm being shortlisted for the Voting contest they had. And if I win the contest, I will get a PAID trip to BKK!!!! WeeeeEEee!!!!! Imagine... BKK!!!! SHOPPING!!! AND the many many ARTISTE!!!!!!! *DRooLz*! Ok ok... I better don't get too excited... I'll probably feel quite sad if I am not the final winner...

I must admit...I din't study last weekend except for digging out my textbook & notes. One of the reason is that I'm lazy, and another is I'm having this terrible headache for 2 days!!! Ya ya...all excuses excuses.

I met up with an old fren last wed for dinner and one thing he reminded me....How many times did we set goals & dreams and din't achieve it cos we had been doing nothing. Sometimes, we already know what the problem is and also know what should be done...but too lazy or lack of motivation to START!!!

I'm having my second cup of coffee today...And since I'm so free at the moment, I better start writing down the things which I should I do tonight in order to prepare for my exam paper next Monday!!

Target set for today: Finish compiling all notes and to highlight the important points!!!

I'm quite free this morning as the system is down for maintenance again.

I MUST get a pair of earring today!!! Lost one of it during my dive in Redang, and I threw the other side on the way back. I better get another pair SOON before the earhole close, else I will have a hard time trying to poke it back...

Isn't it good, to have new things happening in ur life everyday? That's what made it special, isnt it?

Last thurs, while going to work, the bus broke down and we had to wait for the next one that comes along. Actually, I could already smell something burning even before I got on it. I was thinking, will it explode or not? Haha!

Today, 2 little kittens kept following me and a few people while waiting for the bus to arrive...Cute isn't it? But I din't want it to come near my leg!! Anyway, one malay guy later carried one of the kittens elsewhere...but it soon came running back!

Few days back, 'AO' suddenly called me up to ask where 'NO' is, as she owe him a few months of $$$. Sheesh. I thought their affair saga would have ended after 1 year plus, but seems like its not? She actually used his credit card to purchase her laptop???

GOSH!!! I hate to be in such situation...

But thanks to a few friends' advises...I smsed her, " 'AO' is looking for you urgently, pls return his call.Settle ur problem with him. If u need help do let me know." And guess what, 'AO' replied me saying she called him and he will give her another week to settle her debts. And for 'NO', she say she left her handphone in office, hence no reply. But how would she have known that I sms her in which she could reply 'AO' that night?

I realised tat she have changed alot since she stepped into the insurance line. She no longer come out with us and now she tell lies to us. Sighz...

Just finishing watching "Assault on Precinct 13", starring Ethan Hawke & Laurence Fishburne!!! Nice show!!! Action pack!! And I think I will be having sniper dreams tonight again! HAHA!

Last night, I went to the Singapore Night Safari with my family, and it was boring as there's nothing much to see!!!! Anyway, I got the passes thru some balloting thingy from my company and treat this as a family gathering...and its been years since we all go out together!!!

An old friend chat up with me today and he had to remind me of what happened to James and me quite some time back.

Its kinda stupid la...I was with this guy for a short while before I found out that he was two-timing a friend of mine with me. Kinda a draggy situation then...

I just came back from my trip at Pulau Redang!!! Stayed at Redang Beach Resort, which I personally feel that this resort is fantastic for youngsters!!! Their rates are reasonable, with good food & services, ultra friendly staffs and there's beach party every night!!!!

I had a great time there despite a few minor things. Let's talk about the bad things first.
GEE!!! I HATE WHINERS!!!! Fiaking hell, I understand how painful it is to have blue black all over... but do you have to keep repeating and counting the number of orh chehs you have????? Also, stop whining about how the mosquitos keep biting you!!!!!!! Just apply the fiaking MOPIKO!!!!! For gdness sake also, I don't like people hogging my camera...especially taking pictures of their feet?!?!? The thing that makes me mad is that, she takes bad pictures!!! All the pictures she took of me, are all underexposed!!! Bad room mate...SHE SUX0R!!!!!!!!!!


The good things now...
The 6 dive sessions was fantastic though I was super disoriented, as I didn't dive for a long time... But I was glad to have Lawrence to guide me along... I managed to see quite a lot of marine lifes, like a black tip shark, marble ray, lionfish, stonefish, banded sea snake, triggerfish (dangerous), blue spotted stingray, crocodile fish, hump head parrot fish(they're huge), one small sea turtle, etc. Best of all, I saw dolphins on the way back!!! They were so graceful!!! I didn't manage to get a good picture...the pictures turn out them being like sharks!! HAHA!

I got to know some nice people too...like a few dive masters, the locals, and a tour guide from Malaysia... Not forgetting the super siao-on hokkien divers whom are debt collectors with tattoos all over!!!

Hmm... I would want to take this hobby seriously...but a few things are running on my mind now. First, my mom doesn't want me to go diving (she rather I buy a bike). Second, it's quite costly! The gears & the trips will cost quite a lot!!! But I really like to dive???I guess the only thing I can do is to spend less on clothes & food to save money, try to convince my mom, and to work on my skills...

Cheers to my next gonna devoted hobby!!!

Cute bo???

See liao wanna pinch leh! Hehehehe!!!

@ the new underwater map

My new pet turtle!

Sushi anyone? :P

Hiding in the bunk on the ship to victoria island. Kanna killed by balrog and had to pay another 20K for the trip back!!!

So happy I got the i-mode trial mobile. I managed to get this model: NEC 411i... Though there isn't much good reviews on this phone, but its so freaking cheap!!! So what the heck!!! Just get 1st la!!!

Anyway, the joke of the day seems to be that some of these handphones still have contents owned by the previous owners. As my supervisor came and tell us, the phone list of the one she gotten...was deleted! Inside the phone list reads....Qing ai de bao bei 1, 2 & 3!!! HAHAHA!

As one of my other colleague is not familiar with the phone...she got me to input the time & date for her. The same thing, the main wallpaper was a picture of 2 kids and as I wanted to remove the pictures for her, I found even juicier pictures within! EXPLICIT Pictures!!! ONe of which, was a guy was lying on bed spreading his legs!!! ARgh!!! *Seee no evil*!!!! HAHAHA!!!!

Almost all in our team got the phones and every one of us started to view in details of the contents of our phones. Another phone actually contains p0rn clips... .... But my phone seems clean! HAHA!

Super ultra joke of the day....and TGIF!!!!!!

I'm gonna be SUPER selective with those whom wanna add me on their msn. It's so FUCKING irritating, when an idiot keeps messaging you to re-intro, and to re-intro. If you can't remember what I said, then stop assuming!!! And my advise to those whom just wanna see my picture, is to GET A LIFE!!! I just simply HATE these morons!

What a funny morning!

i-Mode test handsets are up for grabs again and everybody is rushing to grab it, that they mislook the email by sending to ALL on the list! One joker even sent an email to all, stating the wrong email to reply to!!!
I hope I get the handphone this time round, as I am in need of a better one for my second line.

Just realized that one of my ex-colleague from Keppel is now my current colleague!
I saw her walking out from the ladies one day, and I messaged her on Friendster!

Who said ex-colleagues can't be friends?

I spent last Saturday afternoon at Shi Ning's house, eating junk food and chatting away with Fiona, Jason & Perlyn...It was a great gathering, despite her house being at Jurong East! Later in the evening, Perlyn, Fiona & hubby and me went to Woodlands to shop around and we watched the movie, "Big Momma".

In the past, I din't really know Perlyn...But on that day, we had dinner and seem to click along well! Oh ya, not forgetting, I found new KTV kakis!

Cham la cham...Dunno if I can pass my probation? I did an error in January. In February, there are also 2 errors...What about March! OMG. I just started with my 'targets' this month. Must be more careful le... :( So sad!

I finished watching "Er Mo Zai Shen Bian (Devil beside you) yesterday...

In the show, I saw the pure & courageous Qi Yue, whom is always fighting for her own happiness. Though there is her mother who's marrying the father of her love one; his granny who believes in "meng dang hu dui"; and his many admirers...etc. But still she stood firmly that she could overcome this all...definitely also with the help of Meng.

It was at rather saddening when Meng decided to leave with his mother and to leave Qi Yue. They ended up making love to each other to mark a greater level to their relationship. But still he left...but came back one year later to reconcile with her. Though it was a happy ending but I didn't quite like the way it ended this way...

Well I felt stupid, as I was crying throughout watching the show as the show is really touching, and with lots of humor. Definitely a must watch for those Taiwan drama series fans.

This has also got me thinking... 是该让幸福来找你，还是该自己去找幸福？
Many tell me it’s the later. Well, I also know it's the later. But easier said then done isn't it?
I also don't have any targets now, 幸福 what ma? Please do not tell me to go search or whatsoever...I'm not like this!


Another thing, which I had been thinking... "TL" told me she saw my father a few times...and spoke to him. I don't really quite like this. Perhaps you can say I'm too sensitive or what, but I always felt that "TL" had a thing with "OJ". While I talked to my father over dinner last night, he asked me who she was also, and who was "OJ" and thought he was her son. I didn't really like it also when she asked my father to join us for badminton? WTF! Enough of this 2, but if they ever comes spoils anything. I will not give any forgiveness.

I'm so sleepy today...I haven't been able to sleep well for weeks!
Either it's those stupid sci-fi nitemares or having snipers in my dreams; else I just can't fall asleep. I hope I'm not having some sort of sleeping disorder!!!

Well, if I go to sleep around 12...probably I'll have not enough sleep the next day, as I have to get up at 5.50am. But if I go to sleep at 11, I'll wake up at 4 to 5am staring into blank space and can't fall back asleep! Then what time should I go to bed? 10.00pm?

What is wrong with me?!??!

It's so dumb that they have to do the system maintenance today and it will only end at 2pm. Since our work is mainly on this particular software, now we can 'officially idle' till the system is up.

I spent my whole afternoon yday watching 'Er Mo Zai Shen Bian (Devil beside you)'. The show's damn funny and very touching! I had chiong 11 out of 20 episodes; if I had started on Sat, probably I would have finished the whole series! But never mind, tonight's class is cancelled!!!

This is the main cast!

He Jun Xiang! The yandao & cool guy...*Drools*

Think for the next 2 months, I'll probably be playing Maple at home during weekends to save $$$! As for less shopping? I will try my best la... *Giggles*

End of March, I should be going Pulau Redang for diving. July, my ex-colleagues jio me go either HK or BKK. So many plans, yet no $$, how can!!! So I must save save save!!!

It's been a year. On Feb 26th 2005, I joined that 'particular company'. On Oct 14th, I no longer work with them. As I was running through my old picture album minutes ago, I can't helped it but wondered...What actually happened to made things turned this way?

A sense of disappointment & sadness suddenly runs in me...The group pictures seems heartwarming but the harsh reality had tore it apart.

I had my Staff Induction Programme today & I think this is a great effort from them as I get to know more about the company, see who are the department heads & to know what the various depts are doing.

Thruout the whole session, I was sniffing & coughing. Sighz.. being sick isn't a good feeling! I am about to finish my medicine, but still not getting betterl...I do not know whether I should go get more medicine as I feel super drowsy after taking it. How how how! Nose block!!

It's just another day in northpole. On one side of the office, the employees are freezing. And the other are switching on fans... GOSH!

Talk of the town now. NYP S3x clip!

Hmm… who is to blame? I feel that it’s the person whom uploads the clip!
Whether it’s caused by his/her hatred, lost hp or whatsoever. The two victims must be feeling damn malu now…

Not that having pre-marital sex is right and I shall not debate on this now. But both of them are just having their own kinky fun. Yet their privacy has been invaded this way. In any case, girls are always at the losing end. Quite saddening, isn’t it?

So I hope everybody will cut both of them some break. Remove the clip once gotten. You wouldn’t feel very good if this happens to you anyway.

Had some time to view the 8 Days, 800th Edition exhibition yday. Got Edwin to pose on this... Funny right? Hahaha!

I'm so happy!!! Got my results for the 2 papers I took last december and the scores are the best so far!!!

I was in a super low mood yesterday, thinking about the unhappiness of my fellow ex-colleagues. Yes, a few of them ‘kanna’ again from the tyrants.

1st of all, I’m really disappointed with one of the female tyrant. How can someone change so much? And yes, I wondered again, did money made turn her this way. Why does she have to be so mean, nasty & arrogant?

2ndly, I’m ashamed to have work with a boss whom almost beat up one of my ex-colleagues. I feel that no matter what, as a senior, you yourself should set an example to the others. What kind of leader are you, when you cant win the talk but want to beat people up?

Their suffering now makes me depress a little, as my friends are not happy.
I want to help them but I cant. Sometimes I also wished I had been more hardworking in my studies, so I can be a lawyer and help people fight for justice. But now, the only way is to give them lotsa moral supports…

My 1st Vday wishes in 2006 is from a guy whom gave me the 1st Vday musical card... Hah!

Last evening J's Dad brought me to TCM...Well my sprained leg since Chu3 have not recovered and still swollen! I must say I'm very amazed by his skills! Just a few twist & turn & cracking of neck, the pain is gone! Shen qi isnt it? Haha! TCM Bagus!!!

Vee left for Shanghai this morning...she will be going there for work! A few of us went to send her off this morning and I kinda cried when I hugged her goodbye...Well, after all she is still my bestest best friend since sec sch days!

Back in office in the afternoon and just did an application. Just passed by the photocopier area, and saw a guy photocopying lotsa of Toto tickets...Hah! Yeah its the 10 Million Toto Hongbao draw this friday... I wonder who will be the lucky winners for 2006 =)

Power site!

http://linda.youaremighty.com./

Hooray! 2nd Payout from ST! Pending to be processed....

I have also gotten my stuffs and it was a little disappointment as the set wasn't completed. It stopped at episode 9~~~ aiyo kanna bluff by Ivan...when i go over must smack his butt le...

Tonight I'm gonna be very busy, as not only do I have to do some last minute shopping but also cleaning up of my room... Can you imagine? In 2 days, its gonna be CNY! HAHA!

Anyway, I went for threading yday...erh...its like using thread to remove your facial hair? It was done by a nice lady name, Nanthini whom had done up Sima's(ex-colleague) wedding makeup...Well, the session was a littleeeee painful, I also dropped tears...but it costs me $15 and was really well done!

Best of all, I've gotten my 1st payout from ST!!! Another 2 more months, I will be in profit!! Hmm...should I compound my earnings again? Must do some calculations liao =)

Bwahahahaha so happy! Tonight must check the last disc...I hope its the completed set of Lost season 2!!! anyway b4 that i need to go little india...

I think I will frequently go Far East in future, as I got to know 2 shops which have clothes that I like! Gosh...only an hour and i spent $172 on 4 blouses...

I went to church last Saturday for the 1st time to witness Betty’s baptism ceremony. Guess what? She is my ex-colleague from Keppel and so happened his son Nicholas is also my ex-colleague! Coincidence isn’t it?

I think she was really very excited about the ceremony…from what she said; it’s a big step for her to be closer to God. Well, I don’t really understand…but I guess it is a big event for her…so just went lo…

On Sunday, brought my sis to JB together with Terence, Gina & Bryan. Very smooth journey I would say, as we were not caught in any jam and buses keep arriving at the right time!

Bought lotsa ‘supplies’ for my friends but I guess I am only excited to catch season 2 of Lost.
Formatted my pc as well, and I hope it will be fine now…

I just had some home made bread by my colleague, Grace...

Sweet of her isnt it? =)

I have to get this written out...

2005 had been a crazy year for me. Many had asked me what happened when my days with "that company" ended. But I would just wanna say now is…Things didn’t happened at the wrong time. It happened for a reason and it was just right for me!
(I think I have to thank WH, as indirectly he has got me out from Hell to Heaven!)

I strived hard while I was there, doing the best I could. Sacrificing also my own time, to finish almost all tasks given, I believe this is what I call responsibility, but I guess they took advantage of it. Though the departure was abit sudden and saddening, come to think of it, it isn’t so bad after all. I strike 4D next, which really helped during my 2 months of unemployment; I got back all the rest & sleep I needed and the concentration which I could put in the last few modules of my studies; I met and caught up with many of my friends, and playing badminton 3-4 times a week! Not forgetting my 2 trips overseas with friends and ex-colleagues! I got back my life!!!!

Recently, I received calls from ex-colleagues, now best of friends (who says colleagues can’t be friends?) about what had happened “there” now. The more I hear, the angrier I get but relieved, as I am not in shit dung anymore. The thought of working with some clowns and egoistic bosses really turns me off.

I wondered, did money turn some of them this way? Wagging their tail when the owner arrives…is this really loyalty or what? I seriously doubt so and for goodness sake, $$ can’t buy happiness! Many good staff came and left/leaving, don’t they realize the problem actually lies with them?? You want to have an open system but you only make yourself in a ‘win’ position and strike off all feedbacks from your subordinates. I shall not continue stating all…but GOSH! It’s a communist world there! Trying to be controller of all? Retribution will make you suffer & defeat on your own in future… Just wait and see.

Well, I really sympathizes my ex-colleagues for what they have to go through, and what I can do is to PRAY for them to be out of this soon.

Anyway, as planned, I have started out my new job in 2006. Big company, better pay & benefits, less work… what else can you ask for? Things are getting on well, and Life is definitely getting better & happier for me and I hope it will be the same for you too.
Cheers!

Finally got all my logins! Everything is up now and I did my 1st order today!

1st day of work - Met up with Hai Peng; she explained all employment terms & benefits.
Sara was on leave today and I spent most of today reading SOPs! Zzz...........

New Year! New Beginning! Starting work at Starhub tmr!!! =P

So troublesome!! I went SH for 3 interviews already but still I do not know whether I am selected? Gosh! Though they say most prob I will get the jobbie...and right now...they are trying to match with the salary I wanted...

Hopefully its gonna be a fruitful wait? Haha I seriously dunno....but the benefits & perks does excite me!

Exams are over & I need to pack my luggage soon as I'll be away from 17th to 26th Dec 05.
So happy as I will be going for 2 trips...One to Cameron Highlands with Jos & Family and another to KL with my ex-colleagues!

SH called today and I will be going for my 3rd interview this Wed with HR. Most prob I will get the job, but whether how much they paying me is another thing. I am in a minor dilemna...

Advantages of joining them:
1. Pay is/might be high
2. Lotsa benefits/perks
3. Big company

**4. Might be considering to continue my studies? Degree?

Disadvantages:
1. Job is stagnant.
2. Located in town area, though pay is higher, expenses will be higher...

So how how? I also dunno... 'Shun qi zhi ran' ba!

Two more days to my last exam paper for 2005.... But I have not started studying! Hahaha!
No lah...just kidding...I just sorted out my notes and intensive 'memorizing' session will start in awhile!

I look forward to my Msia trip from 17th to 26th Dec =)

I was at ECP chalet last friday with the 'badminton gang' . Had some sort of a potluck session that night...

Guess wat? We had to borrow lousy mahjong set at the chalet for $30 per day! Gosh...The rent for two days is equivalent to getting a good set of mahjong tiles! Not forgetting, the table sux big time too!

It was rather boring in a way as there wasn't much to do as most of them are on low budget... So we could only play mahjong and take a stroll at the dirty beach. And in the morning...when most of them are still asleep... I had to play mahjong with the kids! Haha! Dun play play! They are actually quite good...

His bowl...



Caught in the act! Scarey right? Twice I have to eat such big bowl of maggi mee cooked by this goonz goonz.

Bored to death! Nothing to watch on tv... No Maple to play as the server is down again! Haha complain complain...I should be studying now for friday's paper...

I cleaned up the house today again...vacumn, mop, scrub toilet... very hardworking! ! Haha...but I realised that there are too many clothes in the house! And most are not mine!!! O my god!

Argh server down till 4pm!!! How can!!! I just got new wand! Haha!
I better stop playing for awhile and do some work...

*Evil grins*

This is madnezz.!I slept at 4am plus just now becos of playing maplestory...
My back aches...it must be the stupid chair? Hahaha

I must get my cover letter done. Needa send out some resumes soon.
Probably will do my notes later... Hehe :P

How can you do this to me!!! Hahahaha! I woke up so early to play Maplestory...and the server is down!! Oh my...Now I can't sleep back...wanna do what leh? Harry potter dvd again?

Sianz sianz sianz....

Time is ticking. Its exams period soon again!

Stress or wat? I shouldnt be. As I'm not working for now! More likely being too nua already...
October 2005 had been rather enjoyable...Badminton, ktv, movies, book travel trips...etcZ!

And crazy to say, I am hooked on to this game name "Maplestory" for the last few days!
Okie, parents went out! I needa go refresh my memory on the Harry Porter's dvds which I had borrowed from Nancy! :)

The start of a new week...I woke up to wash toilet ah! Hahaha :)

Now trying to update my resume; I have alot of lobangs but I duno if i should go apply? But what the heck, just apply 1st la...

Now I'm unemployed, it's time to get this blog up & running again! Can you imagine how busy I was? It was really hell for the past 8 months, but I'm glad that I am outta it now...

Today siao siao!! Played badminton for almost 11 hours!! It was really great fun having to change 'blows' with others! Hahaha :)

Oh well, Lee Zhu made us some glutinous rice for lunch today...

Sometimes I really wish life was so simple, just be a housewife, cook, look after kids & play badminton or do other things I like, as and when I feel like it!

Nonetheless, good saturday spent!

Auntie visited...so I'm in a super bad mood today! ARGH!!!
Fed up with work & my sister! *Angry* Furious* Pek chek*!!!

Ah...this was suppose to be animated

Feeling very sleepy now...thinking of going back to sleep but I just had my breakfast? Lor mee from blk 139 market, not bad la...I only like the fish but the gravy isn't to my liking

I went to chinatown last night with my usual gang, and later went cosy bay to chill out...
Vee & I are very excited about our shopping trip to Thai next month and we are already preparing the list of 'what to buys'!! Think next 2 months will be eating grass liao as I have lotsa things to buy...kekeke! *WOMEN*! ;P

Finally, my parents & sister have gone out... Now the house is peaceful & quiet & I can start pigging already!!! I was playing mahjong last night with some friends I knew from ClubSna... Not bad la! Quite a bubbly bunch! We ate non-stop as Eugenia, the lady host, fed us with lotsa yummies!!!! Ahhh....SINFUL!HAhahaha! Oh well, who cares! Eat first then burn it out later! :)

Freaking demoralize today!!! I had failed my driving again...I moved off in wrong gear while on slope and I dint realised! Sighz... Duno why I was so gan chiong !

Worst of all, I still had to go back to office to do my report and kanna all the nonsense from those idiots. ARGH!!!! I better go to sleep!!!!! *sobs*

I had been a little busy or rather lazy to write stuffs in my blog lately. Maybe its becos of the preparation of my exams and competition for the past 2 months.

Exams was okie... But I'm crossing my fingers that I will pass all the 4 papers taken.

As for my badminton competition...Hmm...even though I had won in the women singles & doubles section, I came back with a sprain ankle. How's that?

Oh well, now that this 2 major 'events' are over. I hope I can catch some good sleep...

Yeah!! My badminton 'training' starts again. All thanks to my friend, whom will not be working since his semester is starting soon in Dec.

Right now, there's no 1 in office and I can do my "multi-tasking". I'm voting for Yan Zi for the upcoming MTV Asia Awards 2005 and at the same time doing my notes for HRD which needs to be completed before 5.30PM!!! Okie la, enough crapping. I need to get back to my notes...

Jack Jack! Cute bo?

Argh! I wanna go watch movie!!! Hopefully they are still showing the movies which I wanna watch? Exams the next 2 weeks, though I have gotten almost all notes out. But I abit gan chiong I won't be able to finish? MUst jia you study hard liaoz! Once finish, playtime will be coming soon! Endure endure!!!

To improve performance, you first need to know where you are now.
Second, you need to identify where you want to be, your expectations.
Third, you need to identify action steps to get you there.
Fourth, you need to hold yourself responsible for your follow up actions and your progress.

Sad sad...I feel damn moody as well. I do not know whether its because my auntie came visiting or of the things which happened around me...

I kanna smacked by Gong Toot today during games. I feel damn angry but SW took revenge for me also... Dunno why I was so unlucky too! I have booked the court which our damn client was juz beside us having their inter-dept games too. Already damn sick of work and now after work also have see them...Lagi sianz!

HOw worst can it get?! As people are celebrating their long weekend, I will be studying for my exams which will be in 2 weeks time.

Argh! I'm damn tired. I go sleep now...Hoping that tomorrow will be a better!

It's too true to believe that the following was received from my daily horoscope...

Today's planetary energies

These last three weeks were rather good for your equilibrium, LINDA. It was a question of becoming a bit more involved in life than is usual for you and showing what you are capable of. Likely you had a mix of successes and setbacks, but on the whole improvements have been steady. You may have noticed that this or that about yourself needed improvement, but isn't that the same for everyone?

Anyway, I was out studying with Peilin and I went for the blood donation at the cc today. Oh yeah! I also bought my badminton shoes! Woohoo!!! Hope it will give me better support when I play? Hehe :)

Aiyo..sianz liao! Aviva Opens finals is on 20th & 21st Nov?! Argh! Exams will be round the corner then! Should I go...should I? *Scratch head*

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My exams are coming in a month’s time and I had to do 2 main papers and 2 sub-papers. I think I am already feeling the pressure and tension in me as I really have a lot to cover.Furthermore I will also be having a badminton tournament right exactly on the day which I will be having my last paper for the year.

Ahhh…stress stress! Though I already started preparing my notes, but still it seems not sufficient? Oh well, I will try my best definitely to get high scores and to clear my sub-papers.

I seriously do not know what and how to describe my feelings at the moment. I’m neither sad, nor disappointed, not angry, nor frustrated. But I know I had been put to a big test this week. And that is having to face multiple failures.

Firstly, I did not get through for my driving test. I’ve gotten 22 points with one immediate failure as I "Failed to give way to the traffic on the right". I also did not anticipate that there will be a heavy traffic. Being too complacent, my best move, which is parallel parking, became my worst mistake as I hit two poles. GOSH!

Secondly, I did not get through for 2 of my subjects. And yes, I had been expecting it. I did not allocate my time well, thus having insufficient preparation for my exams. Worst of all, my mind was not focus; I wasn't even concentrating…

I guess the only thing to do now, is not to blame myself or feel regretful for all the failures I had caused. But to think on how I can improve and do better in future. Having to already identify the problem, now is to have ‘corrective actions’ and also ‘ preventive actions’.

Well, I already did some ‘preventive actions’ for this semester. That is to go regularly for class, switch off my mobile, etc. But, is that enough? The answer is NO! I have to start my preparation for exams ASAP! Never make the same mistake twice!!! The thing now is making the effort to start!

Remember. Identify -> Act on it -> Become! The ability to beat the odds lies within you…

I feel very nervous at the moment...
I had a paper cut at work today and it still hurts a little...
I could not keep the thought off my mind during my bus ride home...
Worst, I saw a black cat while walking to my block...
I guess I will still be thinking about it later when I am in bed...

ARGH!!!

I have to kick off this feeling...
Just be confidence...
Remember what was learnt...
Stay focus & concentrate...

And what's making me have all such emotions? I'm having my driving test tomorrow!

Woohoo! Later got badminton practise and TGIF!!!
I LOveeEEeee the weekends, but I guess I need to stay home on Sat to do my projects? Aiyah...Nevermind la! Enjoy later :P

I think I'm falling for someone...
Gosh? ERh...heh! No time la! Work + studies + badminton = tire me out already...
Sleep sleep...I'm thinking too much!

I went for my company's inter-departmental badminton games today. Sheesh! Donno what I was doing sia!!!

Though the win over Carol in singles , Chin and Marya in mixed doubles juz now...I had made quite alot of mistakes!!! My serving was like shit!!! Simply no power and I kept serving to the wrong side of the court!!! Argh I need more practise!!! I need more concentration & mental power!!!

Enuff of grunting!!!! I definitely need more practise and fortunately there's a session with my colleagues on wednesday and probably join Tze Yong on sunday? Hmm....I really hope he don't mind?? :x

This is a little stressful....But I will do my best for the coming games as I hope to help my department score some points? NOnetheless, I should not pout over this anymore...

Practise....practise...practise!

My manager finally initiated a discussion, and last Thursday, I had a ‘state my views’ session with him. Yes, no doubt severe damage to this working relationship had already been done. But I took this discussion seriously and hoping that after voicing out, there will be some peace & justice done. Unfortunately, the feedback I got on the next day was, he still thinks he’s right, the almighty and everybody should obey him. I told myself, “I had expected this situation to either get better or get really worst. Since it was the later and nothing could be done on my part to resolve this issue, I will tolerate; find a job and leave in a month’s time.

After lunch, something happened which really made me blew my top.

Every month end, one of my tasks was to gather all timecards, pass to him for approval & to keep a copy for filing & record purposes. But that day, he had sealed all the timecards before I could do so. Knowing that the envelope contains the timecards, I opened it and what I saw was 2 posts it notes.

1) Please ensure that you subtract 1-day pay from her salary as she took unpaid leave.
2) Linda Yong is NOT entitled to any overtime unless authorize by Mr. Ang or me. Please do not pay her overtime.
3) There were markings on my timecard on 2 days, one at 08:01hrs and another at 08:03hrs.

Yes, I was late, I took unpaid leave, and I am not entitled to any overtime pay. By doing what he did, what is he trying to do or prove? Putting his personal grudges towards me? As a supervisor, does that means he has the right to abuse his authority, come late for work, leave the office for personal reasons during work, taking office supplies for his own use, etc.?

This whole situation, I would say I am at the most losing side. To think that during the ‘state my views’ session, my manager had already emphasize, “ He’s more than a colleague”. He also mentioned that Adrian was a good supervisor in the sense that he could ‘get his job done’ and minimize incidents as compared to the previous supervisor. But does that mean he’s really a good supervisor? Well, for the knowledge and skills portion, he might be the best candidate. As for human relations, what is the explanation of the high turnover rate then? Not only that, why are many new technicians whom have joined the company, are now actively looking for alternatives routes?

Gee. Unfortunately, the reality is that unfair. That’s why, one has to make him or herself so marketable that wherever one may go, he/she will get employed.

I told myself this…

“Linda….Linda…think positively. Would you rather work with such a boss in such organization?
Many things might not be right and fair to you. You have a choice, and that choice is to learn more skills, make yourself so marketable that wherever you go, you will be employed.

I'm very sleepy and very tired from battling with morons at work.

I'm utterly disappointed with my manager, especially in his way of 'managing situations'.Yes, to him, perhaps that's the only thingy he could do. But to me? I feel that I have lost all confidence in working with such a boss.

I am sure that he knows abt the existence of the conflict, yet he chose to keep quiet and stay on one side of the court?

And why did i say so? First of all, it was obvious that my sup is finding fault n making things difficult for me. He had been calling frequently over and to check on what I was doing. But one thingy, my manager did not foresee was though I was listening to my mp3player while doing work, I had adjusted the sound to a low volume. I could hear so clearly, each and every single fiaking word they had said.

Well, I did thought over whether I should be the one intiating the 'discussion' over this issue. But the big question mark appears when I thought of how he bring this issue to my sup?As a friend or as a manager?

Aiyah....................F*CK IT! Why bother? I seriously doubt there will be any improvement!

Gosh! I just break a record? Hahaha! Lowest handphone bill ever for the past 2 years of $83+!
See! I can do it! Now its to keep below the free 300 sms per month and I'll save even more!

Im looking forward for tomorrow as I will be going to JB again with my friends! This time round, we will be going to a mango plantation and I heard that they are very sweet and yet damn cheap! Woohoo!!! I love fruits!!! Hopefully I'll get plenty?!
Gotta sleep now! Hehehehee!

Though I slept quite abit last weekend, but last night, I just could not fall asleep cos of the warm weather & when I got up to surf the net a little... I had stomach upset and I even vomitted!! The cool day weather today is just great for zzz-ing under the blanky!!! Hehehe! I'm waiting for my hair to dry then I'll head for bed!

I hope tomorrow is gonna be great at work? Nah...it's always boring & crappy! GRrr!!! I'm looking forward for class though! Hmm...was wondering should I get a recorder? I can't catch up with what my lecturer says & aiyo think my writing is quite turtle... Maybe this weekend I will go source for 1 & hopefully it will benefit me by remembering the points better :P

Glad that I stick with my own choice to place the bet and today, for the first time, I won!
Though not really alot, but I will be bringing my family for a steamboat dinner tomorrow. As for the rest of the $$, I would need to return the loan for my school fees to my mom...

Quite happy today also as I finally watched Alien vs Predators. The storyline is quite predictable but overall not bad la... For the next few weeks, there are some movies which I hope would be worth to watch?

Did a little bit of shopping today and visited the library for some books too.
Oh ya!!! I managed to sleep during the afternoon which I had been lacking of for this entire week!!!! Hahaha!!

Enough for today... I'm gona play pinball!!! =P

I had been feeling damn frustrated over the past few days becoz of work. And I spent my friday night pouring my sorrow & anger...

Dinner was at california pizza; with nice food, ambience & of cos the good company of two friends whom previously were my ex-colleagues .

Many stuffs was said and there are a few points I would want to keep in mind is that...

Dont ever put human emotions over work. A company is set up basically to earn money, their bottom line is only the 'Profit & Loss'. In good times, yeah perhaps you will gain something in terms of monetary or watsoever. But during bad times; being loyal, responsible & caring isnt gonna earn you anything!! If you gonna be so emotional/compassionate; my as well work for free to help him 'do better for the business'?

Always think and put yourself first in thoughts before others. This is the only way to survive.

Also...Try out different things while you can. If you do not try, you'll never know...

As what my lecturer said, "Something must happen to make you do something...". And today, after listening to PM Lee Hsien Loong's speech at the National Day Rally 04 ,he 'triggered' me to have a few more items on my 'changes list'.

Here it goes...
Instead of complaining & whine that I have nothing much to do at work(which is true)!
I guess the solution is to plan my time well and by utilizing free time to read more and keeping a lookout for opportunities. Other people might be slacking and simply cant be bothered in what they do, but that doesn't mean I should be the same! I, myself, should be the one whom is responsible for my own future, in terms of work/studies/family!

Also...there is an importance to understand the difference between problems and dilemmas.
Problems are things/issues/matters which can be solved. As for dilemmas....why should we even spend time looking for a solution since the issue is already 'classified' as a dilemma? Instead, we should change our attitudes by being adaptive to the situation. As the saying goes, "Change yourself to suit the environment, not change the environment suit you!

I find that today is another wasted day at work...

Okie....the thing is, I have to do a report every Monday and it will be presented to the client the day after.The usual practise is that, every 2pm, I will need to get data from my supervisor...
For this week, he happened to be on vacation leave; No choice, I have to get the data from my client which I tried calling since 2pm till 5 minutes before my offwork timing, but still, she seems to be either in a meeting; on the phone; etc.

I just have a gut feeling, she's gonna complain to my supervisor, who will in turn, come kaopei to me...Also, she will also start calling me tomorrow, wanting to get the report.

Kinda f up process....But what can I do? Now I'm pondering whether I should talk to my supervisor to get the data to be sent directly instead of going around the world before it reaches me....

I spent my day playing pinball in office. How "wonderful" that can be? Hurhur....

I've got abit of resting to do now.I was on the phone till like 2am this morning? Kinda feeling damn slack now.....perhaps its the weather! HAhaa!

Hmm...got to plan my shopping trip tomorrow already. Need to find some blouse approapriate for dinner next week! Wish myself luck!

It's one of those days, when staying at home is such an enjoyable thingy; Definitely better than being out with people and seeing them practising the "jian fu yin fu jian (sword)".

I've cleared some of my stuffs, and got everything ready for tomorrow so I will not miss the damn bus? Haha...I guess I will be in high spirits as long as I'm away from work. Just cant stand the sight of a certain people; It's like talking to them...really make me gross me out and feel so disgusted.

Aiya! Dont talk about morons already!!!! Have better things to do; enjoying my day at home, chatting, listening to my fav mp3, play games, dvds,etc! Hehehehe!

Can't believe it. One of my friend is having an affair with....my sup*******?! *Faints*
I thought I was the only one who kinda suspected it....But from other made known information, the whole thingy turned out to be real!!!!!

It's abit saddening and disappointing though...Neither any of us can understand why would she do that? But still, hey, tats her life. If she gonna ruin it by doing all such thingys, it's none of our business isnt it?

As for the guy, he's just another sex driven sick bastard!! Why will I have said that? Seriously speaking, I had always looked up to my previous bosses; Definitely not this time...As for his character wise, there's isnt a need to talk about it already. Work wise, he's far from being a good leader.

I'm lazing at home...nono running to the toilet every few hours.
I'm having serious indigestion problem and felt damn bloated since yday...

I felt kinda sad though, thinking why some couples get together and break off cos of their differences and why they can't just base their love on the the magic relationship word "compromise".

I kinda read an email a few minutes ago...
It's about a lady committing suicide....though its only a few secs before she fell to the ground after jumping off; She saw people on the different floors, having different worries & problems. And thought her own problem was nothing as compared to theirs....

I was then thinking...
Perhaps life isnt that bad despite all the shitty things I recently experience.
Every single person has their own worries/problems/etc.
It is how you handle it...and sum down to a point...
How you live your life is all about the choices you make for yourself.

Sometimes I wonder,"Why do we need to study"?

Felt the struggle and frustration in me recently; I can't go out. Not say I can't la...But felt that I had to stay home to mug for my exams.

My phone kept ringing, eveybody starts calling me out. There are lotsa events during this month of August, and I missed the fireworks festival!!!

Sighz...Guess I should have understood it was gonna be like this, since I sign up for the course. But for what? Cos of Interest? Better future? To gain more knowledge?
Yes yes...To gain something, something has to be sacriface. As for me, "To gain knowledge, I lost freedom".

But is that only freedom lost? No! Knowledge is for us to keep forever.
I hope I'll put this sentence always in my mind...

As for today, I have to try finishing 2 questions. Tonight, I still have a wedding dinner to attend and will be seeing my ex-colleagues! Hope I have fun? And yes, hope that I can see some miserable NDP fireworks from fort canning?

I feel so fed up coming home these days. Yday I had a room full of sand; Today I have a kitchen with bones and eaten grape stems on the floor waiting to be cleared.

I don't come home late for nothing. I can't understand why they can't clear up before going to bed. So instead of coming home to do my school stuffs, I have to clear the stuffs for them? Furthermore, they will scream at the sight of seeing a cockroach or lizard, and yet they are leaving all such things around? ARGH!!

I hate guys whom don’t have initiative. Let’s see what I can add here by tonight.

I kinda felt weird after listening to what my fellow male colleagues had said during lunchtime. As usual, they were talking about girls, niteclubs and their sex life/encounters. Most or rather all of them already have gf and some even married but they are still having their own 'fun' outside at a regular basis??

Working in an all male environment sure gave me an ‘understanding of men's thoughts??
Yes I try not to generalize that all guys are bad just because I know such kind of guys, but when one told me, “Linda, you got to get use to it, as 90% of men talk ,think and behave like us”, I started wondering again…

So what about the rest of the 10%? Taken or had already turned gay? Hmm...tough eh?

Finally, some free time of my own! I’ve just came back after watching the movie ‘Troy’. The story wasn’t too bad, but somehow I do not understand it a little; Battle war, brothership and love? Anyway, I was quite pissed off while watching the movie… Some malay pigs were shaking the chair, talking continuously throughout the whole movie! Don’t they know what’s basic courtesy? This really makes my blood boil, as this isn’t the 1st time that we’ve got so disturbed while watching a movie at the cinema… What has the world become???

Today seems very fulfilling for me. Maybe it's becos of the gym session? Hehe! I've just sign up with this gym at changi-simei opened by NTUC. The people are very friendly to each other... I guess they might be already regulars at that gym, which made the bond among themselves!

Work was fine today... I had some minor problems with the reports here and there, but eventually got it fixed! What really matters was, I had to walk around several times, just to get a few supporting documents. It seems that everybody is avoiding the tank farm, which is the office area I am working at now. Well, its not becos me, but most of my colleague hate to go to the tank farm cos of this so-called person they nicknamed as 'kachua'; which means cockroach. I have yet to find out more about this roach. But he sure is 'william hung' lookalike!

Tats all for today! Hehe!