Bullied on April Fools' Day

And so...it's this very day where YOU 'bullied' me twice. Furthermore, it's April Fools' Day!!! =X

I had never expected that I will break down in front of you. Probably you are the first that I cried in front of...in less than a month's time being together?

Like I mentioned, there are too many similarities which happened...making me super afraid, making me cringed, making my eyes puffy for few days & making my face super ugly that I really look like your pet 'toot toot'!!!

Please do not say or do those things to me already...It hurts! It really really does...

But...oh well, everything happens for a good reason. This shows how much YOU really meant to me!!!

I Love YOU!!!

Lessons on Life

Was clearing my emails as my Inbox has been prompting full for so many days!!!

Uncle John sent me this & I thought it's good to blog it :)


Lessons on Life 生命的功

There was a man who had four sons.
He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly.
So he sent them each on a quest, in turn,
to go and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away.
有一個人，他有四個兒子。
他希望他的兒子能夠學會不要太快對事情下結論，
所以，他依次給他四個孩子一個問題，
要他們分別出去遠方看一顆桃子樹。

The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring,
the third in summer, and the youngest son in t he fall.
大兒子在冬天前往，二兒子在春天，
三兒子在夏天，小兒子則是在秋 天前往。

When they had all gone and come back,
he called them together to describe what they had seen.
The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted.
當他們都前去也都返家之後，
他把他們一起叫到跟前形容他們所看到的情景，
大兒子說那棵數很醜、枯槁、扭曲。

The second son said no it was covered with green buds
and full of promise.
二兒子則說，不是這樣子，
這棵樹被青青的嫩芽所覆蓋，充滿了盼望。

The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms
that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen.
三兒子不同意，他說樹上花朵綻放、充滿香氣，
看起來十分美麗，這美景事他從來不曾見到過的。

The last son disagreed with all of them;
he said it was ripe and drooping with fruit,
full of life and fulfillment.
小兒子不同意他們三人的說法。
他說樹上結滿了果子、累累下垂。
充滿了生命果子與豐收。

The man then ex plained to his sons that they were all right,
because they had each seen but only one season in the tree's life.
這個人就對他四個兒子說：你們都是正確的。
因為你們四個人是在這棵樹的四個不同季節前往，
並且只看到其中一個季節的風景。

He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person,
by only one season, and that the essence of who
they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from
that life can only be measured at the end,
when all the seasons are up.
他告訴兒子們不可用一個季節的風景來評斷一棵樹或是一個人，
關於構成一個人是怎樣的一個人的要件，還有一個人生命的
歡愉、喜樂、愛，只能在他生命的盡頭時候來做衡量。

If you give up when it's winter,
you will miss the promise of your spring,
the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your fall.
當你在冬天時候就放棄，
你就會錯過你生命春天的盼望、夏天的美麗、秋天的收成。

Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest.
不要讓一個季節的痛苦毀掉其他季節的喜樂。

Don't judge life by one difficult season.
Persevere through the difficult patches and better times
are sure to come some time or later.
不要因為一個痛苦的季節就對人生下結論，
持守忍耐度過這段艱難，美好的日子將在不久之後來到。

Simplicity

There is this family...whom sitz along Somerset MRT without fail every mon to sat. The father & son works together mending the broken sole of my heels, while the wife was making keychains outta the leftover leather piece.

As I sat along the busy lane where many Singaporeans rushed by to reach the MRT, lies the above scene. It's kinda heartwarming & reminded me of a song which I like (especially the chorus)...

张栋梁-其实幸福很简单

晚风吹地上有多美
蓝的视线忽然变得好轻微
你说这是三月的词汇
槐花香正随着夜色飞
很在乎月光多醒目
忘记有谁会在灯火澜珊处
千百回用尽力气去追
原来你早已用爱将我包围
以为最终幸福世上结局本最遥远
却在不经意之间它早已如此绚烂

其实幸福很简单就像你在我身边
静静看着你的脸也许了个心愿
温暖留在我心间
其实幸福很简单平安快乐到永远
轻轻靠着你的肩感受这温暖
不需要任何诺言
这就是快乐也是最平凡

每一刻都由你值得去挥霍
我不要你承诺你的所有
只要我们都记得
同一个幸福片段
其实幸福就是这么的简单

其实幸福很简单就像你在我身边
静静看着你的脸也许了个心愿
温暖留在我心间
其实幸福很简单平安快乐到永远
轻轻靠着你的肩感受这温暖
不需要任何诺言
这就是快乐也是最平凡

Similarities.

I'm afraid.

Everything happens for a good reason

I’m glad that I had waited and made the decision to move to this department when the opportunity came. Else I’ll probably be working overseas by now or somewhere else learning how to walk/climbing again.

Latest news was that ‘ladybird’ had resigned. My previous department will be passed back to another department whom is already exploring ‘offshoring’ of the work. My previous supervisor promised a promotion & opportunity to work overseas when I asked for a transfer last year... But after thinking through, I decided not to take up the offer. It's a loss in $$ actually, but somehow I gained back too!!

If not for the move, I probably would not have met YOU :)

Singapore vs Lebanon

It's been years since I stepped into National Stadium...but I went there with KC to watch Singapore vs Lebanon's match today. quite a experience I would say...as I've never enjoyed much before being there & I think it has also been 2 years since I last wore a red top!!

Being the very 'smiley & not camera shy me', we finally got to take picz together (w/o hiding) even though I know YOU don't really like it. Thanks Darling!!! Luv ya!!! :MUACKS:

Argh!

It could probably be the weather; it really sucks to fall ill this week. My nose is still super block as I type...and it feels terrible as I have to rush for my report before my trip which I had waited for 5 mths?

On the other hand, I feel like staying in SG cos I know I'll be missing YOU! :(

Secret

And so the secret was being said/revealed yesterday...

I would have just kept it in me but I guess it ain't as easy har? *tsk tsk*

Even so if I had really told you the other day, it's kinda weird anyway...

So I hope this was a pleasant surprise for YOU =)

Woke up today in a mess...

*I think*

I always wake up on time, bathe, change, doll abit & leave house on the dot for work. Everything calculated to be almost exact...so I could catch a little more sleep =x

But today...was supposedly to wash my face, but I went to brush my teeth 1st...supposedly to comb my hair but I went to do other things…

Later I realised that’s because I’m thinking of YOU!!!

I never like someone this way before...and the things I do recently... *unbelievable* that it's me...which is so opposite from my principles =x

I think I’ve fallen...fallen in love with YOU! =)

*SMILE* sMile smile smile smile!!!

That's what I feel like doing now...

Suddenly felt a little wanting to tear yday, cos I thought on the times which we were being played by fate & tossed around for so long!

At least, I know I have YOU now! =)

Juno

watched Juno the other day & I kinda like the following quote...

"The best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with."

February has just passed

1. A new Rat year started quiet...

2. A month of new friends
Got to know a great bunch whom left me spending weekends and late nights with.
People whom know me well, will know that I usually don't spend my time with idiotic people :)

3. A month of emo times
Not too bad after all, I think it will end soon. Left me a little mentally exhausted, but too hell with all the nonsensical thingys.

4. YOU
I'm glad you have been blessed by friends in a way or another. At least, my wish did came true a little... And I seriously hope it will stay that way & the rest of my months will have YOU inside too :)

Pissed off!

Those 2 finally got on my nerves with their never-ending nonsensical, childish, wanna gain pity behaviors.

These had already wasted a lot of my time & many others' too.

Quality time should have been spent on other things, especially for you & me.

Sigh...

不知为何，心情突然很沉重。。。
不知如何，怎样把话说出口。。。

Emo?

xiaohan left for aussie last nite & the few of us went to sent her off.
i'm kinda having mixed feelings cos i barely know her for long but she was one of those whom i talk more in my current dept.

later i went for a round of spinning with aiwei & came to realised how vex she was(from working). being very 'me', i told her to think of work only as $$$ & to try find a passion in life.

why is feb such an emo period? even for me? i don quite understand.
maybe i tried thinking too much wanting to help others, that i forgot abt myself...

My gd fren - Man fu

Manfu caught me smiling on my way to my desk today & was saying that I look happier these days.

Whoever said that colleagues can't be friends? Heh! Manfu is one live example!!!

Initially, he's one of those goonz whom I really detest in the office...but somehow we became good pals whom not only complained about work but also share life experiences with each other.

An hour ago, he called me up to talk nonsense & asked why I kept using the quote "Everything happens for a good reason..." He also asked about the case which I once told him about... and later realized the reason on why I was smiling to myself this morning...he then encouraged me to be braver and with another quote again....and mention he will think of another suitable one for me soon....

"Love is not about finding someone perfect. ~ It's about loving an imperfect person perfectly..."

Sometimes I wonder...It's amazing that such thingys can come from a crappy person like him!!! =)

Hmm...

I needa apologies to K4 for misunderstanding him. I didn't know what he did was so wei da & had done so much damaging to his own repu.

Though he did hint/explained to me several times but everything seemed too real to believe.

I posted somewhere on my blog before..."By helping others, you help yourself..."
Guess at this point of time, it really did...


Yesterday was chaotic, and I sorta cried on my way back but I told myself...all this got to stop.

1. Yes, u earned my respect but I wanna let you know that...we were really wrong about them...the reason was really unexpected and shocking and it made me realised that a coin has two sides and we really need to know the whole situation before we can really judge them. Maybe visually to everybody, they really created chaos, but somehow the friendship between them both is priceless & it really changed my perspective.

2. I hate interpersonal conflicts. Those whom know me by now should know that I would always try to be on a neutral stand but when the conflicts are created with me inside. I do feel very helpless and I feel hurt when even friends doubt me this way. I’m always a believer that communication between both will eventually resolve any problems. (Except for the r/s between me n mom, I guess).

3. Manfu always reminded me, “Everything happens for a good reason...”
That’s why...please see point no. 1 and the following! Hah!!

And yes, AS’s golden words... “By helping others, you help yourself…”

Sorry, if I created anger in you & caused you to be hot headed. If not for the blunt questions I’ve asked...I wouldn’t have known... And probably you would have never known as well...

I just ran through my blog and realised there had been too many incidents resulting me wanting to give up. I tried many times reaching out to you...but to me, it always seems like I never did. And yes, I did felt weak when you pushed me away again n again. But I just kept trying...Or rather, things just happen, and I believe it's for a good reason.

Perhaps, there is already a star out there shining at us & I do hope I’m not the only one trying to reach it. :)

Complicated

why things end up so complicated?
i hate complicated things...why can't it be as simple as possible???

probably i need some proper rest??? i had not been thinking right for the past few weeks, haf i?

saying is easy, doing is hard. seeing is believing, there's no need for you to lie.

everything wasn't right yday...

- JC keeps coming over to nag on her staff (I need to concentrate on my work la...)
- The big stack of papers on my desk
- The mean arse whom keeps coming over to ask for info (though he was very polite yday)
- Him: pushing me away
- Messed up dinner

I never expect all the above to happen except the last one which was supposed to be a good gathering but ended sour.

I guess I really couldn't understand why their r/s turned tat bad since either of them didn't want to tell me what happened. All good intentions later turn into bad intentions especially when a group of us left for somewhere else. I knew it was weird and wasn't right to do so, but I still left...

feeling very remorse and sad...despite my apologies...i didn't get any response *sigh*

It's Valentines Day!

many girls would have gone gaga over the flowers they received, but definitely not me!! cos i was never a flower lover, probably i never can appreciate such 'expensive & yet wither easily' stuffz!

while walking to my bus stop today, i thought of the things which i previously received. though i still kept some of the things in my cupboard... i shall not say/dig it out today to feel emo on. the one item which kept refreshing my memory was a popup musical card.

我盼望你能对我笑，而不是把我推开！

dunno why i cried...while i was on the bus today...

somehow i jus wanna be in my nutshell; being who i am now & juz let me be in a place where i can hide n feel a little happier with the merry gatherings.

i've juz got home...had dinner/movie/bowling/supper with a bunch of frens. the alien cj7 is so freaking cute! every sound tat came from it, makes me giggle. but stephen chow really got to work on the story line! it has been a great day...but...it's been a longgggggg time since i stay out so late...

when i was at MS juz now, i recalled how charsiew and me started dating which eventually led to my darkest period of time.

i asked myself again, can i really forgive myself being so stupid then? can i trust again?

time and time again, some guys have passed me by... but i guess...its really...有缘无份！！！either that...It would probably be...that I kept my emotions to myself due to certain reasons...

i recalled...val once told me to never stop trying...if i never try, i will never know... i know this is very foolish of me... but to me...its like....why bother to ask? since i already know the outcome???

nvm abt the above...it doesn't matter... cos i'm never in sight... :(

Chu2 morning, I've no idea why I woke up so early...

Probably it'z becoz I was too tired from yday's visiting session & I went to bed at 12!!!

Hmm...its the same CNY again, when relatives start to bombard you with nonsensical questions. This year, all wished me to get married soon... I was thinking to myself...with who???

I know I'm picking up again; washed off the past & becoming a happier person. I also need to burn off the fatchunks on me as well.

Knowing all these..somehow...I still cannot pick myself up to trust someone again.

Perhaps I'm just scared...scared that I'll fall again...

just did my PA for 2007 & i scored pretty good marks! Suddenly i wondered...what would have happen if I did not ask for the transfer...

For sure...I will still be as busy as ever & probably being sent to IMH already.

Im so much more happier in this dept; at least I have so much more time for myself now...and i needa gym more often than the past...like 3-4 times a week...which i had been quite consistent for the past few mths. :)

Gambatte, Lindy!!!

dang. think i needa train my patience as well.

i hate it when i'm discussing things & tat person just change topic to talk to others! it's so rude rude rude!

Never in sight...sighz!

looks like my 1st wish for 08 didn't come true eh? :(
but nvm...its only january, hope that things will turn out as per my wishes on 1st jan.

i think i really need to attend some anger management course or some tolerance course...else...i really don't understand why she is such a difficult person to live with.

well...today is not me whom quarrel with her already...but my sis instead. finally my sis tasted some of my anger previously har???

it puzzles me; i can communicate quite well with my dad...but why not her?? argh!

i know it isn't very good or filial...wanting to leave the house! but why must she always push me to the verge of doing so??? sighz.

Feel very depressed over the recent few incidents that I don't feel like talking to anybody. Is there some kind of magic that can cast me far far away? =(

Bus 518's timing is getting quite erratic these days; I have to wait 30mins for the bus??? WTH!!!

I decided to take the MRT instead but I realized...it's like surfing!!! Most of the time, the whole train is packed and I had to stand somewhere without any handle bars, balancing myself & try not to fall!!!

love the shoes but its torturing me!!!! argh!!!
looks like i needa banish it to the cold palace already :(

Spent my last day of 2007 with my bestest friends! A rooftop bbq & countdown session.
Picture to come later cos I really need some sleep now.

My first wish for the 2008 is for your well-being; I wish you will find a purpose in life soon than dwelling in the past. I want you to see how beautiful life can be. I really want you to find happiness.

Spend my 2007 last wkend with JE! Cut hair, shopping, talk nonsense...

I realised I did/had alot of '1st time' thingys for the past 2 mths. Went to tis so n so place for the 1st time, ate the so n so food for the 1st time. Met up with so n so for the 1st time, etc.

I really did spent too much time on work for the past few years har? And neglecting or avoiding alot of things!

But 2008 will be different. I will make things better; tats one of my resolution.

Let's all gambatte!!! =)

it's gonna be 2008 & i have set some resolutions!
1. to clear out whatever has been bothering me.
2. clock up to 80 - 100 dives
3. control my temper better
4. be nicer to my family

other than the above, i was thinking if 2008 will have 'you' involved.
i really wonder...


but i do believe 2008 will be a good year for me! :)

Carebear!!!

Did a quiz...and tats my results. hmm...quite true eh!

	Tenderheart Bear You are thinker, organizer, peacekeeper, and leader all in one. You have a power to command attention and people listen to you. However, you are often so concerned about not hurting others' feelings that you don't tell them what they need to hear and this gets you both into trouble. But you always have loyal friends to help you out.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

AS shared stories with us at 'Happenings' today as my dept's HOD.
He mentioned, "By helping others, you help yourself..."

I should make this as one of my resolution for 2008 too!

i love chocolates!!! hahaha chocolate overd0se tis xmas!
i'll marry the guy whom gimme chocolates!!! heh.

Was at Sasa's place for a xmas potluck party with the rest of my colleagues last evening. The food was terrific!!! (pics up later)

after dinner, half the group was playing wii and the other half was playing boardgames. it has been very longgggg since i last played any boardgames and it was fun!!! we played pictionary!~ haha! most of the time i was the one describing and drawing; vy and marc were the ones doing the guessing.

Back from BB's chalet!

I miss someone!! Dunno if tat someone missed me? LOL. *stupid me*
BUT suan le la...after much consideration...i think i shouldn't pursue on...and it wasn't meant to be...so I'm in the giving up and forgetting stage.
(struggling feeling i noe, but i will try to do it.)

Anyway, was at aloha changi for bbq cum mahjong session...it was supposed to be for SH's ppl but most din't make it except me; so i ended up with all bb's sec schmates.

the barbeque session wasn't very good cos of the rain...our food were either not cooked or already drenched by the rain.

mahjong session was good though...bb's frens were quite a funny bunch. but towards 5-6am...i was already zombied. haha!!

okie, i better go zzz now as i have another party later :)

merry xmas!!!

Enjoying the holiday...

I went for facial/pedicure & I love my new nail color :)

Nothing much today....i went mahjong-ing with dada, louis & jenn. This is my first time playing with them and it was rather fun! Phew! They are quite fast players but I like it! Today's luck was not too bad; I won a little to cover my transport...Hehe!

after thinking...i decided not to reach out to whatever i was trying to reach.
tats to save myself from some hard facts which will lead to painful situations.

ever been in a situation when u are inching out to reach something... but something dropped on your hand...so u retract back again?

i guess i am feeling that recently...and i simply do not know what to do.

love the xmas tree which was made out of teddy bears. can be found at conrad :)

was 'practicing' this new song by Fish Leong, "给未来的自己". kinda love this song...especially the lyrics!

but...i doubt i can be so strong & courageous like the way the song is...

was at woodlands for dinner today at botak jones. i ordered cajun chicken but it was too spicy & huge portion for me(kenna sabo-ed by lui)!



after dinner, we went tigerlady's hse to give her a surprise with her xmas pressies before we head to thomson for prata??? no way!! i'm like too full so i just order drinks. *almost puke in the van*

had a long and good chat with nana, lui & bubble. and what they had said, kept me thinking... was i really isolating myself cos of the past? or what? sighz*

tired tired. completed most of my work but there are still several things to be check with LX2 BUT she has gone for dinner & yet to come back after an hour. i'm almost drained out but i guess i still have to stay and learn things from her. dang. im not really a night cat leh. im solar powered & there's no sunlight to absorb energy from in the night! argh!

The Golden Compass~~

Marc sent me a link to the following...

I’m solitary, clever, fickle, flexible and assertive. Haha!!


Looks quite cool, probably i will go watch the show tis wkend.

Crazy over stars~

Recently I'm so crazy over stars; I bought lotsa accessories with stars designs!
Few pairs of earrings & a pendant from Agnes B...

Now, I think I might want a star tattoo as well!

Unfortunately, Singapore is not a good place for stars glazing...but when i go for my dive trips to Msia...the night sparkles! ting ting! Haha!

this weekend was boring. i had to go back office but both days were wasted trips cos the info wasn't generated yet.

this means the next few days will be very busy for me as i need to finish my reports by 13th! :(

wasn't tat bad after all as i had my colleagues, friends & my sis to accompany me today.
i had breakfast at Kiliney Kopitiam with YH & Sasa.

















lunch with Man fu & Golden May @ waraku...

I preferred the teriyaki chicken while the sashimi & sushi was soso only...

Man fu also gave me a very gd advise: It doesn't matter what had happened but things happen for a GOOD reason. Who knows, whatever comes next might be better? Oh well, how true...but...aiyah...nvm.

















Dinner was at subway with my sis as we went for a show after tat.

















my b0ss gave me a pair of tix to "Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium"
Colorful, magical, inspiring. The moral of the show is...
1) It doesn't how old you are, as long you have really lived your life. (Doubt somebody can understand this)
2) Believe in yourself & Do not give up, you'll never know what magical things you can create.

It’s gonna be a tiring day as I dint have a good night sleep…it was simply too cold and I was like shivering throughout…and crying a little cos I was too angry.

Yesterday was supposed to be happy but it landed up quite bad towards the evening.

Happy as there was a company event and it was very entertaining & yes I bought donuts again!

BAD as I sorta slipped and sprained my ankle last night and I had to pretend nothing happen; bearing the pain while having dinner + a little shopping with my old fren.

I also came to know about why my old fren broke up his ex after 4 to 5 yrs; apparently it was because the girl had been two-timing him!

Be it whether it’s the guy or gal whom is at fault. I think the above had been very common which added on to my general / bad perception about relationships.

Attached? Married? So what? Still can break off, still can divorce.

Yes for sure…I’m not saying that you can’t have friends of the opposite sex when you are attached or married but there is always a line which you should not cross!!! That’s how both can maintain the friendship!!! But once you are over that line, I’m sure ‘accidents’ happen.

Of cos I’m proud & frank to say, I’m a good self-controller or whatever u call it. As long as someone has gf or married, I will always keep a distance. There are things which friends can do…and what lovers can do. I KNOW THE DIFFERENCE VERY CLEARLY.

Anyway, after getting home, my old fren and I decided to go into IRC to see how dead the channel was like after 12 yrs. It ended up about 5 of us, the pioneers of the channel talking nonsense in the channel and talking about the funny past.

What actually pissed me off was someone from forum whom know me and old fren...had played a joke too far. I don’t really understand why he had to pull my name in…to play in this sarcastic post of his. Maybe he’s trying to tell/prove to others that he’s not the most scandalous person? I still find that sometimes some jokes can be forgiven and some cannot. But watever it is...he had gone beyond my tolerance level.

Maybe I sounded serious and worked up…
I do not know what I am feeling now…Am I angry? Or am I just disappointed with what he said? I dunno… but nvm…just forget it.

Sometimes…things happen for a GOOD reason.

bought donutz from donut factory again today!
yummy yum yum~~~ they are the "in thing" now in Singapore and everybody's talking about it!!!











i wasn't able to buy assorted flavors cos the waiting time is 30minz for the new batch of donutz to be out!

but not too bad...5 outta 6 of peanut dark chocolatez! and they taste good =)~~

i was looking at my wanted list (see right)...and i have gotten all of the items...new pc, camera & divecom! Yippee!!

it's time to think of new 'want' things for 2008 =P


its xmas spirits everywhere...i was at paragon and suddenly i heard men singing & playing music! i looked up and that's what i saw...and their carol-ing are good!really made me feel abit of xmassie mood...

wow. I was talking a fren on msn about some jap show...and he says the description seems like it's animal + human incest show! but but but..the picture looks damn cute...so probably i might just watch it ;)

1st time ever,today, a guy whom doesn't know/like diving...talked to me about diving things and also discussed about some sea creatures...*SWEET* unlike others whom just asked...how much i spend on diving, whom i go with, got hanky panky or not. *DUH*

i love diving...cos its so beautiful underwater...and i see things which i don't see on land(of cos la).

oh well.........words cannot describe. u have to experience it for yourself :)

Almost 11 mths since I last blogged.. maybe I should start blogging again?

As usual, I had been very busy with work...

Aiyo...I 'saved' my mom from a fish bone today!

She was talking to me while eating then a fish bone got stuck at her throat. In the end, I had to use 2 fingers down her throat to reach the bone and try to pull it out.

Kinda panicky ah...cos she was rather hot tempered at 1st when i couldn't see it with a torchlight shining down her throat. Tats why have to use my fingers to feel it...

Thank God, I manage to pull the fish bone out. My sis was almost crying out. Talking about that, my sis hate eating fish cos she got choke by a bone before...

I spent my Xmas this year watching 'Bleach'! This anime is just so addictive!!!

Guess my plan for the new computer must be delayed as yday I went to sim lim square to check out...the things I want, is way over my budget. I still have to cater for the payment of my premium and also for my bangkok trip...

Sighz...one more month to wait till I get my next pay!

I attended a company event this morning where my co. donated a big amount to a center to help those terminally ill children. Elizabeth, the little girl whom I'm suppose to give her a x'mas present wasn't around but I had a short chat with her mom. I guess its quite tough on the girl & her parents to have gone through all these and I really hope she will get well soon. Next, i need to think on how I can contribute further...hope that this will make a difference in their life and also mine.

Anyway, my head is spinning now cos I have not been sleeping well lately. But thanks to Fiona for listening to my work woes. I feel abit better and know what to do next...

When people have troubles, they'll come find me. When I have feel troubled, sometimes I don't really know who to talk to. One thing is I don't wanna trouble other people... Another is... I guess I can solve it myself...

Feel very low morale today.

Don't understand why my mom always buy things for my sis. My home pc is spoilt, yet I have to wait till 31 Dec when I get my bonus. Not tat I want her to buy one for me, but I don't understand why she had to say ." pc spoilt? its becos i used it and i spoilt it myself..." But if its for my sis, it will be a different case...

Today they went out shopping, and all I said was..."wah buy new shoes for her". And she have to say, "then wat u want me to do? or u want me to die 1st?"

Suddenly I just felt so angry... I simply can't recall her buying a pair of shoes for me since I was in secondary school??? I still had to buy the simplest one, those with an elastic strap and wear till there are holes???

Sighs... I hope 31 dec will come fast. My pc is dying...I donno how I can survive without my pc, youtube & blogging. And also, i should have gone back to Perlyn's chalet today...

i should feel very relax after my exams...but why do i feel so vex??

Exam is over. But i did badly for it....*Sighz* Now, I'll juz pray that the rubbish i wrote can get me a pass!

Went for a crop session yday and it was fun! Hmm..its where a group of people gather to do their scrapbooking together! There were also the tombolo challenge, where we need to get certain items from the chosen person and use them on our layout. Kinda stress ah...cos we have to complete it in an hour? Haha!

I'm pretty much hooked on to this , youtube and hoping that the diving season opens soon...

Oh ya...youtube had taught me, if u want good stuffs, you got to be patience and wait!!! Haha!

Today is the last day of class!!!! YippeEee!!

Went Kbox @ Hougang with Jessica today... Don't play play okie!!! There were only 2 of us but we still had a long list of songs to sing after 4 hours!!! Din't even go for any toilet break!! And after the session, we really rush out to the ladies...and I think I almost got myself into a little trouble...Hehe!

What happened was....as we were looking around for toilet paper to wipe the dirty seats...I juz got a quick glance and thought I saw a guy at the ladies...I still asked, "are we in the correct toilet?" and Jessica replied yes and gimme a weird tilted eyebrow look. It was until I walk to the other cubicles and realise the 'guy' I saw was actually a butch!!! Might had been so embarrassing but I really didn't meant to offend her. But she should be glad isn't it? If she wanted to act butch, and I recognized her as a guy? OH Well... I enjoyed my day anyway!

And yes, I finished the piece of work for Lena! It's ready to be sent out!!! *Happy*

Thanks to Shanice, I'm so hooked to scrapbooking now!!!

I managed to locate a few stores which I can get my materials and I also did a few pieces over last weekend!

Hmm...I have placed another section on the sidebar, listing down those which I intend to do. The next on the list is for Lena, whom I wish to cheer her up. And then it would be for Jason's baby girl who came to earth on 28th Oct 2006. Hehe!! =P

Went to Kelong at Lim Chu Kang area last saturday...

It was quite fun but the weather was quite terrible with lotsa haze and no wind...

I spent much time feeding fish as I can't stand the smell & bloody sight when they were killing the fishes and digging out mussels.


Not forgetting the entertainer of the day, the house dog name, 'Aiyoyo' whom is very enthu to jump into waters just to fetching the slipper and ball which we throw into the waters.

As 'Aiyoyo' is already quite old, it has some difficulties in getting up on the high platforms; Joseph had to carry him up instead.













Uncle trying to show us how he walk on those wooden platforms...

I had cravings for pasta since last nite(*Thanks to someone*) that I went to have it for lunch today.

During my way home, this cow bedsheet really caught my eye & I bought it. However, I just realised, why are there prints of 2 cows?? The female one in wedding veil?? Isn't this for a single bed, why having such prints then?

*Confused*

I will be home doing my graduation project for the next few days...

Look at the mess I made on my kitchen table today!! Haha!~

I had no choice...the desk in my room is too small...

Wat a terrible start today. I had to endure some guy's B.O. for almost half of my bus ride to work!!! It was so bad that I almost puke!!!

I din't meant to be rude...but he held his hands so high up on the bar that all those that were near him had to sit or face another direction or cover their nose(I'm one of them).

For gdness sake...consult the doctor or use the deodorant!!!!!

Busy busy....8 more days till I submit my graduation project!!!

I feel so happy today!!! Finally I had bought a halter neck black dress to wear for Crissie's wedding dinner, together with heels that is silverish purple.

Cos I'm erm................................"so blessed";"busty", that is what the shop owner & one of her customer mentioned just now. You do not know how troublesome it is , to have gone through so many shops and tried so many dresses that does not fit!!!

But Thank God, I found you...Pat!!! =)

Work & studies are like draining me out quite badly!I felt very stressed yday and almost on the verge of giving up.

Just keep swimming...just keep swimming...just keep swimming...!!!??
I think that I just need more strength to keep going on...and that has to come from within? Myself? I dunno.

I recalled of a phrase which I had kept trying to input into the brains of a few of my friends. And that is to... "DO things which you can haf the control, and that's how you can stay being objective!"

I started writing down all the things which had been bothering me...stating down each and every item on what is hindering me from doing the things which I wanted to do or suppose to do. Somehow or rather, it din't turn out as bad as I had expected; There are solutions to the problems I'm having.

So I guess, I'm okie now...I would just need to go according to what I had planned out to do in order to solve the problem and to achieve certain things.

Wish that I may get little more strength, yeah?? Thanks alot, in advance =)

It's been a while since I last blogged cos I had been busy(dunno doing what)!!!

There are so many things to do and yet I just can't get started!!!!! Looks like time is also running out...Maybe I should 'Bi Guan Xiu Lian'...so that I can finish the following:-

Complete my course by 2006!
- One more module to go
- Graduation project to be SUBMITTED by 18th October 2006

Taken at close range with my mobile. Very blur!

These are my hamsters! Cute ma? Hehehe!!

Siao siao pom pipi. I got 'nominated' or rather I would say, being 'arrowed' to join some committee in my company to organise events for 'Customer Service Week'...

Good explosure I must say...but I guess it's gonna be lotsa things to be done.

I've changed the song! Now it's Fan wei Qi's 'I Think I...'

This song is from the Korean Drama ' Fullhouse', starring Rain & Song Hui Qiao...

I'm feeling vexed today...but I do not know what I am vex about...

Probably I'm just tired...cos I had been working for the past 7 days as I went back during the wkends to do OT...

Ahh....just gotten a sad news today.

Lang Tengah Trip - Cancelled due to Malaysia School Holidays - all fully booked.

No diving next weekend!!!!! Oh my!!! How to survive!!! HAhahahaha!

**It's only 2 weeks and I miss diving already**

I have gotten my stitches for my extraction of wisdom tooth removed today. Now I needa use a syringe to clear off any food particles which might be left on the wound after my meals. I did a few times in the office today. As most of the time, the handicapped toilet is in used... I had to do it at the common toilet...which invited lotsa stares at what I was doing!!!

I had my last wisdom tooth extraction today...so I'm not wise anymore. *Just kidding*

It was suppose to be only a checkup today but the dentist said it could be done today so I just go ahead with it.

The injection is always the most scarey part...cos its so freaking painful!!! I grabbed on to the handle of the chair so hard... I was almost gonna break it! During the extraction, your mouth feel ultra numbed and you just can't stop your drool from flowing. Hehe.

Though this is the last one I had extracted, but I don't recall the last 3 to be that painful? Probably this particular tooth was still partially under the gums hence some cutting and stitching needs to be done.

My face hurts so badly after the anaesthetic wore off this morning. But thanks to Peilin's advise to use an icepack over my face. I managed to soothe the pain down.


Look how disgusting it is!!!

I just came back from another trip at Pulau Aur.

This place is more like a training ground. There ain't much to see as there were too many divers during the weekend. The accomodation wasn't as fantastic as Pulau Redang but the dive at Rayner's rock was one of the most challenging dive I have done so far; we went as deep as 30meters. And towards a corner of the site, the currents was so strong that we couldn't even move though we were finning like mad!!! Also, Michael, Jia Jun & I came upclose and personal with a Titan Triggerfish(less than 0.5 metres away). As we look at it, face to face, we din't dare to make much movements, just praying it will go away instead of turning to attack us. Oh well, the triggerfish has always been the most feared fish for divers!!

Hmm...I really have to go get the full body length wetsuit. *Gosh* Every trip of mine, I'm suffering all over with cuts & bruises. And guess what happened on the last day? I've got a bad tap situation!!! The whole tap just came off when I was bathing and I couldn't fix it back...I had to shout out for help to my room mates who couldn't fix it either till Dani came over. Sheesh! It was a real funny situation as the whole toilet was almost flooded and I had to wrap myself in towel till he fixed it.

I'm looking forward for my next dive trip(to be planned)...

I've got this from Fiona thru email and its so funny!!!

Title: Why kids cannot be left alone!!!!

Politics politics... Why do the skivers earn much more then the ones doing more things??

I was kinda frustrated when AC bullied the temps by pushing all responsibilities to them. Instead of helping out during 'free hours', he sleeps in the office instead. Being the only male in the department, he really don't feel embarassed at all? GOsh. No wonder ppl call him a faggot.

Wheeee!!!! Dive trip at Redang on 6th-10th July 06 was fun fun fun!!!

Practically the last few days were to eat, sleep, dive & relax!!!
Those who came for this trip were Lawrence (My instructor), Susan (His wife), Samantha (His daughter), Daniel (The Musician), Dani (The Magician- but he has to change his tricks already, as I seen them before!!!), Chai Jun (The Tea man), Wee Ling (StarHubber) and Johan (Our photographer)!!!

To be continued, when I upload pictures...

I had forgotten to set my alarm last night, and I woke up at 6.44am today.

I got up immediately to get change and to get outta from my house. And you should have seen my face of desperation to quickly board onto a cab. Lotsa (&^%(*&F language starts to fly around as each moron snatched a cab from me. At 7.15, I managed to get on a cab and had a terrific conversation with the cab uncle...

Yeah, today's my 25th birthday and I enjoyed myself very much!

Emily is such a dear...always full of surprises and yes, a very good ex-colleague of mine, back in sh1trum days....She came to my house today and left a present at the doorknob. My sis, who was inside the room, thought there is some karang guni man or thief, as she heard the ruffling of plastic bag at the corridor... The most funny thing is, when I opened the present, It was a box of Neutrogena Deep Hydrating mask. I was thinking...oh my my complexion must be so bad that she had to give me this. BUt later I look at the box, 5 sheets only....why so heavy??? I opened the box and found a cute ducky photo frame!!!

Oh ya, did I mention anywhere that Im so so so afraid of pigeons??? I will like scream if they are around me(cos of some bad experiences I had in the past). On my way to the mrt today, a pigeon was approaching my path...I was almost gonna scream and run liao but the fat silly pigeon walked so fast...it slipped!!!!! Can u imagine???It was so funny that I laugh my way to the station!!!

It's only 26th June and I'm getting broke...Yet I have still have so many plans the following few weekends!!! How to survive??? I think I needa start on my spend $100 a month challenge again!!!

On my way to work this morning, I was thinking whether to tell my sister that I'm going diving. Well, I had kept this secret from my family as my mom is totally against it. I did wanna tell her about it...but I never can find a good time to let her know. Argh...I dunno la...see how ba!!!

I'm down on really bad luck this week. I spent last night doing mods but I went to delete the whole folder this morning!!! Sighz...

Val, pls don't be angry with me...I din't do it on purpose~~~ :crysss:

Sad sad sad!!!!

My supervisor had forgotten to approve my claims for June!!! And now the submission date is over so $$$ will only come in during July's pay!!!

Last nite, I felt a little upset over the following.

1. Some guy say I'm a wanna-be princess cos I don't feel like sending him my pic.
2. Some guy say I'm unfrenly & anti-social cos I dont feel like meeting him.

My say... How sociable or frenly do you want me to be? Especially with people whom I do not know??? :sweat: I am not those type of person whom goes around giving every tom dick & harry hugs n kisses! And for those whom know me...they know how mad I can be, especially with my friends...and tats for the obvious reasons...cos I already know them!!!

I love my Ipod!!!It's my best companion now!!!

I'm a sucker for good quality music & sound and my Ipod simply fits the bill!!!

Vivienne is such a dear!!!

Vivienne says:
Lord I pray that may you have mercy on lindy health. Lord it is certainly a painful tng to be down with sickness... worse... for a 4 days and not recovered. Lord I truly know you have a reason for every problem thus lord I pray that you show your grace and mercy to Linda may you heal her now... so that after today's sleep she will recover by tomorrow
She will not feel tired or lazy but she will be energized and able to jump and do outdoors games again...
Lord I pray that you continue to watch over her life and her work may it not affect the impression that she has given to her supervisor... allow her to be the head and not the tail among her colleagues...
Lord have your will in her life... let her know... you have never departed from her... I pray for it's in the name of your almighty name... AMEN... :)
You shall be healed...

Lindy says:
AMEN!!

I finally bought my Ipod!!! Okie la...I feel a little heartache cos its so ex but it will be a bday present for myself lo... Happy Happy!!!!

I still don't feel quite well yet...today went in & out of aircon buildings and the hot sun, I am almost fainting!!!!

I feel so frustrated!!! My fever had been up n down for the past 3 days!!! I had rest, sleeept and drank lotsa water but why am I not getting better!!!!!! I feel so terrible now... just got up from my sleep cos the weather is so damn hot!!! ARGH!!!!

Just drank the Zheng Ling Yang which my dad help me to buy; such a small cup and it cost $5!!! Expensive man....and it taste yucky!!!!

Please do not tell me what to do.... I will decide my own path; I listen to what my own heart says and that's a no. And it's not because I have stop trying...but I chose to believe in what I really want.

I was reading KT and one thread made me recall a funny but embarrasing scenario. It's about those mirrors where one side can be seen and the other side will only show your reflections.

I still recall that it was during CNY 06, when we went to vee's house... As we were waiting for her to open the gate. Peilin and me, unknowingly stood by the corridor, using the window as a mirror and started combing our hair and adjusting our clothings...

And it was only after few hours when we were about to leave her house to go to Tua pek gong's temple. Her brother walked out from the room and we were like.."eh...your brother at home ah???" Peilin & me started laughing and realised what blunder we made. Just imagine if i am a guy in the room, and suddenly 2 gals stood outside my window and start to comb their hair and adjust their clothings??

Heh. I hope he was doing something else and didn't see what we both did.

I've always thought that ear piercing using a needle is a punk thingy. But I witness such a ceremony last friday during Amutha's housewarming! According to the Indians, the ear piercing ceremony is a significant tradition of theirs...

Harini: Before the ceremony! The items on the floor are some fruits which are offerings to God, and presents from relatives and friends.

The priest making the marking on her ear....

The actual piercing. I guess Harini could felt the pain but she's a brave little girl, she held back all pain & tears.

Stupid leh... In town also got balrog!!! Suddenly everyone just went dead!!! Grrr!!!!

I just came back from Bangkok!!! As usual, I LOVE Bangkok!!!

Okie...details and pictures to be filled in when I'm free...