Patience is the key

A night of sadness/anger for many, a night of chaos for those sitting by the roadside, a night of love...

I probably had a little too long a nap awhile ago; I decided to read some stuffs; your writings, right from the start...but after reading a few posts...I wanted to write myself too.

I know I was gonna tell you sometime later this week, to put aside/throw this one item of hers, when I pass you something which I had gotten for you during my recent trip. (I didn't buy it for the sake of giving you something, but becos it's cute! =P)

Yes, I still remembered, the day we announced our relationship to the rest...on the bus...when you took out your own set of that items & was figuring who the owner and later recalled it was her.

This has made me cringed a little, even after few weeks, when you took them out; I admit...I stared to see if hers were still there. For I know, the both of you have broken up long time back, it just made me wondered why you are still keeping it.

Only 1 had seen me struggled over whether I should be telling you about this or not. And even gave ideas on how I should go about doing it. Not only do I have to decide on which crappy methods I should use, I had to deal with the one A.S. woman, whom indirectly because of her supposedly wrongdoings...has brought us together.

Yes, these had formed my frustrations over the past few days, which I would have never wrote/tell/mention on it.

But now, I tell myself, patience is the key...it’s silly & ridiculous having thoughts on why you had keep that item, thoughts on what that A.S. woman is trying to do... for I know I already have you.

And like what I have said, you already stood a position in my heart. That explains why the night before, when you told me those words which I really really hate hearing it from you, I still cried. Now, reading the whole sentence again, I realized I probably missed out on the real meaning of those words.

Despite the flashbacks on my past while we walk on the streets of boat quay, despite us spending lotsa time helping others with their ‘misfortune’...

You just make me feel like loving you more, cherish every little time we have for each other and I do wanna see that our relationship will go to the very end.

I Love You.

Also...

Thank GOD, for your patience on me, for telling me to suppress my anger and not to be bothered over such silly things & for bringing KC to me.


P.S.: I still don't like those words/that sentence...okie? So, please don’t say it! I also remembered you told me that, 'Men don't take hints, so please say out the next time'. But for your sake, I decided to not say out what is that one item in this post. The only clue would be that item/word was being mentioned twice =X

Be smart. But don’t be a smart alec.

Kiang jiu ho, mai gei kiang.

Stop faking it. Stop pretending that you know everything. Stop asking me to do this and that. Stop wasting my time, for you already wasted many peoples’ time. Stop destroying the bond between all of us.

You never fit in as you have sinned badly. Trust and friendship is gain through time & sincerity but you are no where there yet.

You better know your limits of what you can and can not do. I can’t be bothered if you are born Chinese, Ang Moh, Hindu, Japanese, Alienated or Bitchnated.

I'm not anal about this becos I DON'T REALLY LIKE YOU, but your actions made EVERYBODY NOT TO ACCEPT YOU.

Don’t even test my patience. You won’t wanna see the other side of me.

Let this be the first warning.

Too new? No substance?

What’s the point of calling me into a meeting when I can’t say anything? Worst, when I already gave the solution from the start, you had to shun me aside, yet use what I said to conclude the whole discussion? Also, didn’t you even realise that you had created a fool outta yourself by being so stubborn with the requirements? Didn’t they already explain on the product and settled on the case before? Please do your homework/remember what was being discussed in previous meetings. 3 Ka Queen, you really suck big time.

Nonetheless, I’m proud of myself. At least I know I’m still awake despite not having enough sleep. The discussion above used to be one of the products that I have the least confidence handling it of. I guess I have a long way to go in convincing my boss that I’m better. But do I really needa convince her on it? I know I don't need to, in my heart that is, and eventually she will find out.

Sleepy day!

Woke up at 5am to send my sis to the airport! She left for her poly attachment which will last for 2-3 months! Both of us cried a little this morning as this is the first time she goes away on her own. The other 2 classmates whom are going with her are of another race? Erh...I think she’s so gonna miss pork and probably would be lonely. But I'm sure gonna miss 'bullying' her as nobody will help to cover up for me when I go back late and nobody to help me throw the aircon water! HAH!

I couldn’t nap on the bus to work as well. The driver just keeps repeating the same message which nobody really bothers to listen except me. “Ding dong, please move to the back of the bus so as to...etc” The dumbest thing was, since the bus is already packed and nobody is alighting, why does the driver keeps stopping at every stop? Total waste of time!

Just walking around...

As I had an hour to kill before my sis & mom arrived for dinner. I suddenly wanted to write and walked to where 'Popular' bookstore realizing it being closed for renovation!

Tampines Mall had improved quite alot and since the last time I've been there was either just to watch movie or to get daily necessities, I didn't noticed a new wing/new shops!

There is this shop which caught my attention was Artbox; selling cheap stuffs imported from Korea, such as stationery, decorative stuffz and most importantly they have a wide range of writing pads which I could write on! They come in all sorts of designs, classy, cute, simple...whatever you name it, they have it! Well, except sexual ones of cos. Tsk tsk* The simple me definitely took those that has simple prints. For, I love simplicity. =)

Next, I went into 'Precious Thoughts' as they are having some opening sale! The vain side then took over me again. I've bought another mirror! Well, this time round is a mirror to be placed on my desk and the other is a pocket mirror which I had gotten in KL for my daily usage.

New purchase!


The 'evil stepmother' 1! Nice right?
(But I'm not evil one la) Hehe!



The two possible reason over this sudden craze for mirrors could be...
Firstly, I do not have a mirror in my room! I have to go to the living room to check on my hair, what I wore, whether the shoes are matching, etc...which can be kinda tiring & messy as sometimes I just can't make up my mind of what to wear out =X

Secondly, it could be because I'm dropping sizes! Yippee!! I've lost weight over the past few months from dieting and exercising! It just feels so good as I can now find clothes more easily than ordering from overseas. But that does not stop me from buying from sprees either. As I still find foreign designs (clothes & bags) more appealing! And maybe its becos I like to be different, unique, one of a kind, whatever you call it. At least, when you walk on the streets, it is unlikely that someone is wearing the same as you do. Following trend, or setting trend. You decide! =P

I think this motivates me more in losing weight...and yes...I was a T-shirt + Jeans person for quite awhile too! Cos I don't see the need to wear so nice when I'm working my ass off at work!!! Nvm about the past, should look forward!

What made me worried a little was that recent travel trips and double sessions per mealtime had made my weight constant! Oh no! This is not good as I needa cut down more! To at least get away from the 'overweight' range and to at least fit onto 1 of Darling's list of criteria...

Ahh no!!! Wrong mindset! It means getting healthier!!! I needa work harder! I know I can! Positive thinking is half the work done! I needa get back to the boring routine/diet again. Will proper write out the plan tmr as I needa sleep early today!!! There is still plenty of housework to do too!

P.S.: I think I will get another mirror/cupboard? As those mirror which I had bought are not of body size!!! =X

A reminder...

Woke up kinda early this morning & began reading threads on an old forum.

What really surprise me was that a C.E. wrote this... "Thou shall not do to others if you do not wan that to befall onto u..."

This is something which I had live upon & will continue to do so :)

Memories on Roti Prata...

Some prata conversation on TGOP made me recall on some past memories.

You have tried to drag me out for that prata outing which I did not go. It was kinda worrying when 3/4 of those whom went for the outing, got diarrhoea after that.

I went to the area few days after and found myself sms-ing you which you said that we should meet up but I just kept diverting the topic.

Later that night, I had a long chat with nana, lui & bubble and… (pls read Dec 15th 07’s post)

As I read through my past dec postings again, I realised that the feeling was already there but I was just too afraid to do anything about it.

So...Fate really plays a big part in one’s life isn’t it? =)

Empty vessels make the most noise!

My mood turned better after meeting Darling last night.

I was really in a foul mood even while walking to the building and almost witnessed an accident at the traffic light junction.

There could have been a bad collision if one of drivers didn’t brake on time and that I might have been affected as well cos I was just 1 or 2 meters away! That sorta woke me up from my frustrations at work and I told myself… I shouldn’t let it affect me. For work = money, what for bother even if those two bitches keep shouting? Just let them shout lo! Empty vessels make the most noise!

After seeing you & listening to the tracks that you were playing, I had calmed down and already not thinking of those bitches. =)

Cranky!

I’ve been feeling kinda cranky ever since I came back from holidays and it’s mainly because of the 2 bitches at work.

I simply have no idea why they had to shout at us (me n another one of my colleague). I see no good reason why they should start shouting around even if they feel stress or whatsoever. These affects my mood totally & made me thought if I had made the correct decision of not taking up the post which was being offered by my boss. :(

Back from Genting

I juz came back from Genting trip with friends and it was fun!!! But I miss YOU!!! Thought I could see you today but you are sick again :(

Just some random pictures which was taken!

Teddy bears from Lovely Lace~~~


Ah har! Ain't this interesting. Front and back of it! *Kinky*!


Fridge cum vending machine? You could really put coins in to earn some $$~!


Attitude!!! Totally showed mine angry attitude back in office!



Had also uploaded some people pics, but it's on my friendster =X

Men - Pornography & Womanizing

I just finished lunch with my female colleagues…and yeah all of them are married & two are pregnant now.

Our lunch talk today was about Men - Pornography & Womanizing. They talked about men watching pornography & on men seeking women on the net for sex.

As for pornography, I guess this is only natural for them to watch it, but to ogle over it...hmm... It all depends on how you look at it…in a way, the couple could learn/spice things up outta it? Anyway, I do have a supply of it from friends (they just send me, I did not ask for it), but I’ve got minimal time to watch it these days. Hah!

As for seeking woman on the net for sex...this kept me wondering why one would want to do so. Outta curiosity? Outta loneliness? Cheap thrill? I seriously have no idea...

This brought us to another topic on womanizing. To reiterate, I have zero tolerance on this and if my man did sleep with another/did something unfaithful to me, I will not allow any chance or forgive him at all, it’s a clean break or a divorce (that is after marriage of cos). But my colleagues said that I was wrong as I do not have any kids now. And women change especially when they have kids; it’s a different story!

But to me, with or without kids, I will still stand on what I said. Perhaps it’s just me…whom grew up quite independently & for what I have gone through, I will survive; I believe that there is simply no reason for one to go astray, even if there is some problems between the couple, the both should try to solve the problem before anything else could happen. Nevertheless, it will still be definite a ‘shift + del’.

I'm missing you...

I will probably be sleeping rather early recently so as to absorb more solar power in the morning =X

Even though my mind's packed with work, the decision to be made by Friday & also being a little frustrated over the highness's saga.

I'm missing you... :(

Back stabbed

I got stabbed hard on my back by Highness. Didn't know she was tat cunning to the extent of doing it while I was away.

Though her acting was good, but all saw/treat it as another show only. Now...many want to boycott her wedding in Sept & even mentioned to give an empty red packet.

I didn't have to say much to my colleagues; only showed them the log on what Highness had chatted with me the other day.

Anyway, I'm not afraid of your nonsensical complains which you had made up.

You'll get what you gave. May God Bless You.

Gloomy? Not so Gloomy Monday?

I think many are having their Monday Blues. As for me...I guess it’s a mixture of both?

1. Saw Mdm. Cheong at 2.60 shop in a very serious discussion on the phone, when I passed by her, I was then caught in to a work situation whereby her negligence might hit with some audit problems on my side.

2. I thought I was going to get a scolding today from my boss, but it turned out not like what I had expected & I’m glad my colleagues had explained/cleared the misunderstanding while I was away.

3. Manfu came to me and complained that he feels like leaving the company. The same reason like what I gave others as well which is to “find a job before leaving”. Well, if he does leave, I guess I will have one less noisy person in the company. Peace? Or less 1 talk-cocker person around? Hmm...

4. Came to know about the passing of TY, whom is one of our company’s head... Though I didn’t deal much with you at work in the past, your smile will always be remembered. Rip.

5. Bubble passed me some birthday cards yesterday for circulation to those sharing presents. This made me thought of a few things...Life is fragile. Please treasure it!

6. Met the daily cleaning auntie at the pantry and she asked why I was so tanned & mentioned I had slimmed down… Suddenly felt a little happy but one thing which did not made my mind rest was the health report which I received yesterday.

Well, everything is fine/normal except that my red blood cell count is more than normal range? And that results in iron deficiency and/or thalassemia trait. The terms sounded alien to me… but I guess I probably will go for another check to make sure everything is okie?

Cheers!
Hoping your day will be fine…

Busy week

Looks like this coming week is gonna be kinda busy for me as I needa complete my report before I go Genting!

On one hand, I know I should not have agreed to go cos of my busy work period. On the other hand, I think it would be really fun to travel all together!

All I can only hope is that there will be no emo sessions during the trip. :X

My body clock is screwed!

I keep waking up at 4plus in the morning for the past few days!!!

It feels good to be back in SG!!! Last 8 days had been enjoyable...though short...the time seemed so long! Being able to see you last night had finally quenched all my missing you days.

Dinner was great too! Let's go back there again...even if its not for the foie gras.
*tsk tsk* :)

I'm finally home!!!

Day 7 - 10th April 08: Woke up at 4am as I couldn't sleep...Partly because my body clock is a little messed up and I'm really missing lots! Though I know I will be seeing you in another day or so but I just kept thinking of you :(

I went for a walk at around 5plus in the morning and the sky was beginning to brighten up. I walked to the furthest end of the resort and found the perfect spot to see sunrise & I sat there thinking of you again.

My last trip to Pulau Redang & current trip in Kapalai seems to be the first time I'm missing someone so badly!

Suddenly I just felt so stupid over crying on the last incident. I know you will not hurt me like that guy did but I just suddenly felt so afraid. And this is a fear I must overcome! Sorry Darling, I really didn't doubt on you... it's just me and sorry if I had made you worried/frightened.

I still can't sleep after 8 plus and there's a thunder storm here again. The rain gotta stop, else my gears will still be wet and it's gonna be heavy! Argh!

We, finally left Kapalai at 1pm & I felt like tearing. I'm gonna miss this place alot. God knows, when I will be back here again? The smiley & helpful staffs, this lovely place, the dives....these will always be remembered.

As we bid each other goodbye(Jon, Ron & Seng are extending their stay) and when the staff came to the jetty area to say goodbye to us...the last 7 days began to flash back and made me smile.

Goodbye Kapalai - Sipadan, till we meet again!

Reached King's Hotel at about 4pm after having a power nap on the van to Tawau.
My roommate later left the hotel room for foot reflexology and I'm in the room writing this, doing my facial and listening to my ipod.

As we gonna celebrate Mary Jane's birthday, we went for seafood which the hotel staff had recommended.

In this little town, it wasn't that boring after all. We shopped and I'm so glad that we were greeted by Chinese! It's good as I do not need to converse so much to someone whom do not know how to speak English anymore...

The whole town was filled with shops, cafes, hotels & many Karaoke lounge. Well, this isn't the same as Top One, but those cubicle types where you needa insert coins for each song. It certainly brought back memories of those old time KTV singing moments.

Seafood dinner was awesome & pretty cheap and they really had alot of varieties! Even the drinks! As there was a downpour again, we stayed at the area taking candid pictures & drinking...We proceeded to a cafe later on where we had Teh Tarik & celebrate Mary Jane's bday with a cake. She looks as if she was gonna teared or something...given for me...I probably would :X

Great Bunch of people!!! Even though I had only know some for them for only 8 days!
We'll meet again for diving...someday....somewhere...God bless all of you!!!

Cheers! Watching Man U vs Roma's match & Carlos Tevez juz headed a goal!

Happy... Gonna see you in a wink! MUacks!

Sipadan - Day 6

I bought the most expensive Japanese bread ever and used tampons for the very 1st time today. Gosh! Lucky we only did 2 dives today else the whole trip I will be followed by sharks? Which is good in a way… =x

I had expected the resort to sell such stuffs, but at such kinda price, you don’t have a choice do you?

I am getting really tanned from this trip & I love it! In fact, I always think that tanned people look cool and sporty than those fair ones! The only thing is I probably looked like a Thai now & dunno if Darling can still recognise me? Talking about being tanned…I’m really burnt now and it hurts so badly that even wearing bra is painful! So, don’t touch me! I’m in pain! I’ll slap whoever hits my back! HAHA!

Dive 1: My 70th Dive! And it feels good to be able to dive freely but I still have lots to learn! Lawrence asked if I would want to join in for Anilao, Philippines. He mentioned it would be enjoying it as it will be lotsa muck diving! But I guessed I needa plan abit first…such as the budget, etc.

Dive 2: Barracuda Point! My last dive for the trip and it probably be the last dive in Sipadan? =( I do not know when I will be coming back since I had already been here consecutively two years. I also had my nickname given by the group being as ‘the Barracuda Babe” & the ‘Force Fins spokesperson”.

Well, I chased after the school of Barracudas again today. Once I saw the Dive Master- George giving signals on the Barracudas, I charged over to see them form the mini swirling tornado before they decided to swim off. The force fins are real good too. Firstly, you could walk with it, weight is light, can fight currents (done that) and you can really go fast with it. Yippee!! So who wanna race with me now? Haha!!

My gears are up for a tanning session now...I hope they will be dried by tomorrow morning as we will be leaving to King’s Hotel in Tawau . I’ve never been there and I hope it’s not too boring!





It’s star gazing night and they are just too beautiful and you don’t get this kinda view in Singapore.

How I wish you are just beside now to see this…

Cheers! Two more days to seeing you…




Day 5 - 8th April 08: I concussed after 5 dives in a day & a few drinks after dinner with the rest and slept like a baby till the sun woke me up the next morning.

Updates on Day 5’s dive will be comes later!

Sipadan - Day 4

Happy 1 month & many more! Sorry, my Darling tat I am not in SG to be with you…and now that you are sick again? :( I promise I will make it up to you ok?

Great dives today…managed to squeeze in 5 dives today but after going through all 5 I’m very tired now...

Will update the dives when I come back to SG.

Needa sleep soon again as going for dawn dive again tmr morning. Please…no more 4 knots current too.

Cheers!

Please get well soon…

Sipadan - Day 3

Sorry, my Darling! For not replying on your messages & picking on your calls as my phone wasn’t with me since I landed! I am safe & sound here, even though I slipped and fell coming out from the bathtub and had a deep cut on my toe… Opps! Just a little gushing of blood outta it & a blue black on my knee, but I’m fine! :X

I woke up at 4 plus smelling the rain and went to bring in all our clothes from the balcony. As my bed was the closest to the balcony & I slept the opposite direction just to have a glimpse of the waters whenever I open my eyes…I could by then, around 5am see lotsa lighting flashing across the sky. It’s beautiful yet scarey at the same time thinking there could be a huge thunder storming coming…

Towards 6am, the windows from the other room were already flapping mad causing the slamming sound against the room structure.

Blessing in disguised.

Firstly, the wind was not blowing into the balcony direction, else my bed and I would have gotten wet!!!

Secondly, my bags were places near a platform in the corner of the room and not near any windows. As my two other roommates were still sleeping, I had to help by closing all windows, locking them tight before I transferred all their bags to a dry area.

Thirdly, Lucky for us, we were supposed to go for dawn dive at 5.30am but it was cancelled due to another group of divers who will be leaving today and that they only allow 20 divers for dawn dive per day! Better luck for the group whom missed it this morning!

By the time, I finished writing the above, the waters had calmed down & the sun was out! Yeah…the sun is up around 6am here, which caused me a fright on the first day as it was so bright, I thought my alarm did not sound and that I missed the first dive! Haha!


People always say… the sunshine comes after the rain? We’ve got the rainbow! Two of them! Breakfast is complete! Haha!

All 4 dives were fantastic as I experience various stuffz today.

First dive was at Barracuda Point – Sipadan, beautiful corals and marine life, fat sharks and huge turtles and a 2.5 knots current! I was panting hard fighting against it and managed to hide under a rock with a school of barracuda passing through! Terrific view!!!

I almost puke on the second dive at South point – Sipadan, but it was rather “fun” being caught in the ‘washing machine current”, all of us were swinging, back and forth and sideways!

Third dive was at Seaventure Oil Rig – Mabul… Macro, macro & more macro! I love it!!! This is one of my longest dives ever, almost an hour bottom time!

Forth dive was a sunset dive at Mandarin valley – Kapalai. Our main motive was to see ‘ porn show’…I meant mating mandarin fishes but the others were just going too fast! I was still at the area searching for the cuties but I noticed my dive maters were already too far from me! They were at least 10meters away? With my force fins, I better chiong to join them in case they think I’m lost! Nevertheless, I still spotted quite a few stuffz by myself and even showed it to them.

I’m beginning to love night dives but I needa purchase an underwater torch for myself. Thanks Ron, for loaning yours to me. Appreciate it!

I needa sleep pretty soon as tomorrow we have to wake up at 4am to go for dawn dive.

Cheers! To see the school of humphead parrotfish tomorrow!!!

Missing you even more today…

Sipadan - Day 2

Whenever I mentioned the word Sipadan, many would give me the ‘where is this place’ look.

Taken the following off a brochure: Sipadan is actually located Southern Asia Sabah, Malaysian Borneo, and five degrees north of the equator in the Sulawesi Sea (Celebes Sea). It is an oceanic island and was formed by living corals growing on top of an extinct undersea volcano, which rises 600m from the seabed.

The place I stay at is Kapalai Island, a sand bar sitting on top of the reef known as the Ligitan reefs, a very extensive stretch bordering the deep and vast Celebes sea. Sipadan - Kapalai dive resort is actually a water village style resort built above the water.

For the amount you pay for this place, there must be good stuffs, isn’t it? Given 3 boat dives to either Sipadan/Mabul/Kapalai each day & unlimited shore dives. The ‘garang’ me want to do as much dives as I can!

But time was rather rushed today, so I did only 4 dives…

The 1st dive, which was the checkout dive, was a little messed up? Can you just imagine 16 divers charging to the same area at the same time? It was rather chaotic as all of us are of different standards. Water visibility wasn’t that fantastic either as not only many hit the sandy bottom, which created sand storm and also the tides were coming in. And so I decided that I would probably go to the back of the group so I can see more & spend more times taking pictures.

2nd dive was good too as it was almost effortless as all of us were just drifting with the flow of current! Nah…I still required lotsa strength in order to fight against the mild currents, wanting to take pics!!!

3rd dive was at Kapalai – mid reef & there were plenty to see…

4th dive was at Kapalai’s House reef, the Mandarin Valley… which I thought, was the best accomplishment so far! I went for a night dive with 4 other gal divers without my instructor! Well, I do keep in mind what Lawrence had taught me and really use the knowledge taught into good use (not that I don’t for my other dives..hehe!) But it’s different! I’ve got to make sure all of us stay within sight, make sure tat they are ok at all times and yet trying to spot stuffs in the dark! Not only that, all the safety stuffs got to come in, all the safety stuffs got to come in…such as beware of dangerous marine life, the duration in the waters, depth, etc. Dang, it's a good training to be a Dive Master isn't it? HAHA!

The funny thing was that I felt cold in the waters and wanted to sneeze. You people would have known that I’m famous for multiple sneezes and sneezing in the waters??? Challenging!!! But nah... I was holding it and using mind power not to sneeze.

P.S: Pictures & more information on the dives come later as I did not bring my camera cable & marine life identification book.

Cheers! We’ll head to dive at Sipadan Island tomorrow! Yippee!

Thinking of you…

Sipadan - Day 1

I guessed I have an opposite from Darling!! Probably it’s because I have more positive ions? Haha! I tend to write more & ideas just run freely in my mind when I am happy! Thus, on the plane…with my notepad packed in my bag, I am using up all puke bags found available near my seat!

Was watching various comedy clips such as Backkom, Mr Bean & Just for laughs. I’m feeling kinda sleeping as I only slept for two hours yday. The sad thingy was my green tea body scrub was being thrown! It’s my mistake as I did not check & remember on the requirements.

Feeling kinda full now as we had Wang Jiao for breakfast. The half boiled eggs are simply irresistible! Now, food is being served on the flight… Chicken noodles! I am feeling too full to eat but I just forced myself on the vege which I do need them for fibre. I love eating bread!! And on flights, I sometimes could requests for quite a lot. But now, I just want to cut down on my intake. Yes, to be healthier & someone with more confidence, to be able to spend more time with you…

Realized I should not be lazy as well & to start reading more news articles/books. For the very first time, I am reading on the soccer section hoping to at least learn a little more on Darling’s team. After reading, I think I should start by remembering players’ names & read up more on the rules of the game. The only time I watched soccer in the past was when I was betting. Well, I was working with all males; so generally, you need to somehow blend in… I won quite a lot though since I always have the luck! But now I have stopped betting; the $$ could be for better use ☺

Looks like we will be at Kapalai earlier than expected since the itinerary was to stay at Seafest Hotel – Semporna before we proceed to Kapalai the next day. We reached Kapalai dive resort around 4pm & pity it was too late for any dives today. Had a briefing session on the resort and a short intro among the group. It’s amazing how 14 individuals from various parts of the world can come to the same place diving together!!!

Our names on the board!



Un-geared and checked in to our room and was being welcomed by the beautiful sunset. There I was whipping out my camera capturing the moment. The only thingy lacking now is YOU being by my side...





We had dinner at 7pm and it was a mass intro session again.
My instructor, Lawrence never allowed us to drink but this trip we are all having rum & coke after dinner. Well, don’t worry…since I can type so much now. I’m not drunk.

Cheers! Will be resting early tonight for diving tomorrow.

Missing you…

I just wanna say...

Felt so much wanting to say the following to my DEAREST DARLING KC aka Sky aka 'muffin'(ya ya the girly nick) aka bak kwa... but juz don't wanna disturb him doing work.

Apologies that I'm unable to accompany you for the next 8 days!!

Please do take care of your health while I'm away...cough must eat pipagao...ulcer must use bonjela leh!!! DRink more water!!!

Don't tire yourself out working/thinking too hard. You needa get enough rest too!!! Oh ya, careful not to fall down the steps at ur office too.

I wished I did not planned this trip way in advanced since last year...I could have proper use the $$$ on many things for us instead.

Do concentrate on your work this following week & may everything flow smoothly.

Sheesh, no idea why I'm beginning to talk like this. But guess it's becos I'm already missing you even b4 I leave for my trip to become your 'toot toot' lookalike...

p.s.: *JEALOUS*!!! waH LAO...how can you go hArm0nica's home so many times but not mine???

Your concern...

Your concern posed to me yday, was something which I already had in mind.

I din't mention to you...But I prayed to God to watch over you and that you'll be able to get the biz deal while I was away diving in Redang.

I might have done some stepz wrongly, but it was based on what I've recalled learning many years ago...

I mentioned to you before on...I was almost baptized but due to certain life/death matterz which happened in my family, this move was being delayed.

Please have patience with me, cos I'm not really a reading/easily decipher words person. Furthermore, my brain needs sun to operate =X

But I still kept the bible in my private drawer which was given to me many years ago. And I do browze through it whenever I have time...

And it looks like we will not be free for any more outings on Fridayz & Sundayz. :)

Smiling. Friends.

It's Singapore Fashon Festival, their slogan is 'Say it with Fashion. Priceless'
But my slogan is...'Say it with a smile. Priceless!!!'

What Ichi said is right...but I wanna tweak it!!!
"Smile & the world smile with you... Cry & you'll cry alone..."

Thanks May, for accompanying me during lunch yday. Though I din't have much appetite to eat, but the few bites on the sandwich was good. You are one friend whom I gained thru SH, and I do appreciate your effort to learn while working under my supervision. A sincere, smiley & chirpy gal whom never fails to crack jokes while I was super stress... And THANKS for sharing with me on your business, I wish you all the best that you will do well in this industry!!! :)

As I wrote on TGOP forum...

Quote:
Friends to me are those whom stay true to you.
even the slightest fault you have, they will tell/let you know so you can kick the habit...
given the worst times, they will stay by you... and during happy times...all will haf a good time/laugh together...

i think the above aso relates to r/s ba...

i'm glad i have a bunch of good frens since sec sch...cos we really been thru lots.
tats why i try my very best to treat all those i know the same way too...hoping to gain more good frens...

Sounded very emo eh?? But hey... Cancerian are emo people!!!

Friendship is something which I do treasure alot.

I'm glad I see the quality in YOU too...especially when you helped Jay!!! You showed patience & guidance to him while others didn't. His problem is something which we really needa help him on...

do remember... "By helping others, you help yourself!!!" :)

Bullied on April Fools' Day

And so...it's this very day where YOU 'bullied' me twice. Furthermore, it's April Fools' Day!!! =X

I had never expected that I will break down in front of you. Probably you are the first that I cried in front of...in less than a month's time being together?

Like I mentioned, there are too many similarities which happened...making me super afraid, making me cringed, making my eyes puffy for few days & making my face super ugly that I really look like your pet 'toot toot'!!!

Please do not say or do those things to me already...It hurts! It really really does...

But...oh well, everything happens for a good reason. This shows how much YOU really meant to me!!!

I Love YOU!!!

Lessons on Life

Was clearing my emails as my Inbox has been prompting full for so many days!!!

Uncle John sent me this & I thought it's good to blog it :)


Lessons on Life 生命的功

There was a man who had four sons.
He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly.
So he sent them each on a quest, in turn,
to go and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away.
有一個人，他有四個兒子。
他希望他的兒子能夠學會不要太快對事情下結論，
所以，他依次給他四個孩子一個問題，
要他們分別出去遠方看一顆桃子樹。

The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring,
the third in summer, and the youngest son in t he fall.
大兒子在冬天前往，二兒子在春天，
三兒子在夏天，小兒子則是在秋 天前往。

When they had all gone and come back,
he called them together to describe what they had seen.
The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted.
當他們都前去也都返家之後，
他把他們一起叫到跟前形容他們所看到的情景，
大兒子說那棵數很醜、枯槁、扭曲。

The second son said no it was covered with green buds
and full of promise.
二兒子則說，不是這樣子，
這棵樹被青青的嫩芽所覆蓋，充滿了盼望。

The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms
that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen.
三兒子不同意，他說樹上花朵綻放、充滿香氣，
看起來十分美麗，這美景事他從來不曾見到過的。

The last son disagreed with all of them;
he said it was ripe and drooping with fruit,
full of life and fulfillment.
小兒子不同意他們三人的說法。
他說樹上結滿了果子、累累下垂。
充滿了生命果子與豐收。

The man then ex plained to his sons that they were all right,
because they had each seen but only one season in the tree's life.
這個人就對他四個兒子說：你們都是正確的。
因為你們四個人是在這棵樹的四個不同季節前往，
並且只看到其中一個季節的風景。

He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person,
by only one season, and that the essence of who
they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from
that life can only be measured at the end,
when all the seasons are up.
他告訴兒子們不可用一個季節的風景來評斷一棵樹或是一個人，
關於構成一個人是怎樣的一個人的要件，還有一個人生命的
歡愉、喜樂、愛，只能在他生命的盡頭時候來做衡量。

If you give up when it's winter,
you will miss the promise of your spring,
the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your fall.
當你在冬天時候就放棄，
你就會錯過你生命春天的盼望、夏天的美麗、秋天的收成。

Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest.
不要讓一個季節的痛苦毀掉其他季節的喜樂。

Don't judge life by one difficult season.
Persevere through the difficult patches and better times
are sure to come some time or later.
不要因為一個痛苦的季節就對人生下結論，
持守忍耐度過這段艱難，美好的日子將在不久之後來到。

Simplicity

There is this family...whom sitz along Somerset MRT without fail every mon to sat. The father & son works together mending the broken sole of my heels, while the wife was making keychains outta the leftover leather piece.

As I sat along the busy lane where many Singaporeans rushed by to reach the MRT, lies the above scene. It's kinda heartwarming & reminded me of a song which I like (especially the chorus)...

张栋梁-其实幸福很简单

晚风吹地上有多美
蓝的视线忽然变得好轻微
你说这是三月的词汇
槐花香正随着夜色飞
很在乎月光多醒目
忘记有谁会在灯火澜珊处
千百回用尽力气去追
原来你早已用爱将我包围
以为最终幸福世上结局本最遥远
却在不经意之间它早已如此绚烂

其实幸福很简单就像你在我身边
静静看着你的脸也许了个心愿
温暖留在我心间
其实幸福很简单平安快乐到永远
轻轻靠着你的肩感受这温暖
不需要任何诺言
这就是快乐也是最平凡

每一刻都由你值得去挥霍
我不要你承诺你的所有
只要我们都记得
同一个幸福片段
其实幸福就是这么的简单

其实幸福很简单就像你在我身边
静静看着你的脸也许了个心愿
温暖留在我心间
其实幸福很简单平安快乐到永远
轻轻靠着你的肩感受这温暖
不需要任何诺言
这就是快乐也是最平凡

Similarities.

I'm afraid.

Everything happens for a good reason

I’m glad that I had waited and made the decision to move to this department when the opportunity came. Else I’ll probably be working overseas by now or somewhere else learning how to walk/climbing again.

Latest news was that ‘ladybird’ had resigned. My previous department will be passed back to another department whom is already exploring ‘offshoring’ of the work. My previous supervisor promised a promotion & opportunity to work overseas when I asked for a transfer last year... But after thinking through, I decided not to take up the offer. It's a loss in $$ actually, but somehow I gained back too!!

If not for the move, I probably would not have met YOU :)

Singapore vs Lebanon

It's been years since I stepped into National Stadium...but I went there with KC to watch Singapore vs Lebanon's match today. quite a experience I would say...as I've never enjoyed much before being there & I think it has also been 2 years since I last wore a red top!!

Being the very 'smiley & not camera shy me', we finally got to take picz together (w/o hiding) even though I know YOU don't really like it. Thanks Darling!!! Luv ya!!! :MUACKS:

Argh!

It could probably be the weather; it really sucks to fall ill this week. My nose is still super block as I type...and it feels terrible as I have to rush for my report before my trip which I had waited for 5 mths?

On the other hand, I feel like staying in SG cos I know I'll be missing YOU! :(

Secret

And so the secret was being said/revealed yesterday...

I would have just kept it in me but I guess it ain't as easy har? *tsk tsk*

Even so if I had really told you the other day, it's kinda weird anyway...

So I hope this was a pleasant surprise for YOU =)

Woke up today in a mess...

*I think*

I always wake up on time, bathe, change, doll abit & leave house on the dot for work. Everything calculated to be almost exact...so I could catch a little more sleep =x

But today...was supposedly to wash my face, but I went to brush my teeth 1st...supposedly to comb my hair but I went to do other things…

Later I realised that’s because I’m thinking of YOU!!!

I never like someone this way before...and the things I do recently... *unbelievable* that it's me...which is so opposite from my principles =x

I think I’ve fallen...fallen in love with YOU! =)

*SMILE* sMile smile smile smile!!!

That's what I feel like doing now...

Suddenly felt a little wanting to tear yday, cos I thought on the times which we were being played by fate & tossed around for so long!

At least, I know I have YOU now! =)

Juno

watched Juno the other day & I kinda like the following quote...

"The best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with."

February has just passed

1. A new Rat year started quiet...

2. A month of new friends
Got to know a great bunch whom left me spending weekends and late nights with.
People whom know me well, will know that I usually don't spend my time with idiotic people :)

3. A month of emo times
Not too bad after all, I think it will end soon. Left me a little mentally exhausted, but too hell with all the nonsensical thingys.

4. YOU
I'm glad you have been blessed by friends in a way or another. At least, my wish did came true a little... And I seriously hope it will stay that way & the rest of my months will have YOU inside too :)

Pissed off!

Those 2 finally got on my nerves with their never-ending nonsensical, childish, wanna gain pity behaviors.

These had already wasted a lot of my time & many others' too.

Quality time should have been spent on other things, especially for you & me.

Sigh...

不知为何，心情突然很沉重。。。
不知如何，怎样把话说出口。。。

Emo?

xiaohan left for aussie last nite & the few of us went to sent her off.
i'm kinda having mixed feelings cos i barely know her for long but she was one of those whom i talk more in my current dept.

later i went for a round of spinning with aiwei & came to realised how vex she was(from working). being very 'me', i told her to think of work only as $$$ & to try find a passion in life.

why is feb such an emo period? even for me? i don quite understand.
maybe i tried thinking too much wanting to help others, that i forgot abt myself...

My gd fren - Man fu

Manfu caught me smiling on my way to my desk today & was saying that I look happier these days.

Whoever said that colleagues can't be friends? Heh! Manfu is one live example!!!

Initially, he's one of those goonz whom I really detest in the office...but somehow we became good pals whom not only complained about work but also share life experiences with each other.

An hour ago, he called me up to talk nonsense & asked why I kept using the quote "Everything happens for a good reason..." He also asked about the case which I once told him about... and later realized the reason on why I was smiling to myself this morning...he then encouraged me to be braver and with another quote again....and mention he will think of another suitable one for me soon....

"Love is not about finding someone perfect. ~ It's about loving an imperfect person perfectly..."

Sometimes I wonder...It's amazing that such thingys can come from a crappy person like him!!! =)

Hmm...

I needa apologies to K4 for misunderstanding him. I didn't know what he did was so wei da & had done so much damaging to his own repu.

Though he did hint/explained to me several times but everything seemed too real to believe.

I posted somewhere on my blog before..."By helping others, you help yourself..."
Guess at this point of time, it really did...


Yesterday was chaotic, and I sorta cried on my way back but I told myself...all this got to stop.

1. Yes, u earned my respect but I wanna let you know that...we were really wrong about them...the reason was really unexpected and shocking and it made me realised that a coin has two sides and we really need to know the whole situation before we can really judge them. Maybe visually to everybody, they really created chaos, but somehow the friendship between them both is priceless & it really changed my perspective.

2. I hate interpersonal conflicts. Those whom know me by now should know that I would always try to be on a neutral stand but when the conflicts are created with me inside. I do feel very helpless and I feel hurt when even friends doubt me this way. I’m always a believer that communication between both will eventually resolve any problems. (Except for the r/s between me n mom, I guess).

3. Manfu always reminded me, “Everything happens for a good reason...”
That’s why...please see point no. 1 and the following! Hah!!

And yes, AS’s golden words... “By helping others, you help yourself…”

Sorry, if I created anger in you & caused you to be hot headed. If not for the blunt questions I’ve asked...I wouldn’t have known... And probably you would have never known as well...

I just ran through my blog and realised there had been too many incidents resulting me wanting to give up. I tried many times reaching out to you...but to me, it always seems like I never did. And yes, I did felt weak when you pushed me away again n again. But I just kept trying...Or rather, things just happen, and I believe it's for a good reason.

Perhaps, there is already a star out there shining at us & I do hope I’m not the only one trying to reach it. :)

Complicated

why things end up so complicated?
i hate complicated things...why can't it be as simple as possible???

probably i need some proper rest??? i had not been thinking right for the past few weeks, haf i?

saying is easy, doing is hard. seeing is believing, there's no need for you to lie.

everything wasn't right yday...

- JC keeps coming over to nag on her staff (I need to concentrate on my work la...)
- The big stack of papers on my desk
- The mean arse whom keeps coming over to ask for info (though he was very polite yday)
- Him: pushing me away
- Messed up dinner

I never expect all the above to happen except the last one which was supposed to be a good gathering but ended sour.

I guess I really couldn't understand why their r/s turned tat bad since either of them didn't want to tell me what happened. All good intentions later turn into bad intentions especially when a group of us left for somewhere else. I knew it was weird and wasn't right to do so, but I still left...

feeling very remorse and sad...despite my apologies...i didn't get any response *sigh*

It's Valentines Day!

many girls would have gone gaga over the flowers they received, but definitely not me!! cos i was never a flower lover, probably i never can appreciate such 'expensive & yet wither easily' stuffz!

while walking to my bus stop today, i thought of the things which i previously received. though i still kept some of the things in my cupboard... i shall not say/dig it out today to feel emo on. the one item which kept refreshing my memory was a popup musical card.

我盼望你能对我笑，而不是把我推开！

dunno why i cried...while i was on the bus today...

somehow i jus wanna be in my nutshell; being who i am now & juz let me be in a place where i can hide n feel a little happier with the merry gatherings.

i've juz got home...had dinner/movie/bowling/supper with a bunch of frens. the alien cj7 is so freaking cute! every sound tat came from it, makes me giggle. but stephen chow really got to work on the story line! it has been a great day...but...it's been a longgggggg time since i stay out so late...

when i was at MS juz now, i recalled how charsiew and me started dating which eventually led to my darkest period of time.

i asked myself again, can i really forgive myself being so stupid then? can i trust again?

time and time again, some guys have passed me by... but i guess...its really...有缘无份！！！either that...It would probably be...that I kept my emotions to myself due to certain reasons...

i recalled...val once told me to never stop trying...if i never try, i will never know... i know this is very foolish of me... but to me...its like....why bother to ask? since i already know the outcome???

nvm abt the above...it doesn't matter... cos i'm never in sight... :(

Chu2 morning, I've no idea why I woke up so early...

Probably it'z becoz I was too tired from yday's visiting session & I went to bed at 12!!!

Hmm...its the same CNY again, when relatives start to bombard you with nonsensical questions. This year, all wished me to get married soon... I was thinking to myself...with who???

I know I'm picking up again; washed off the past & becoming a happier person. I also need to burn off the fatchunks on me as well.

Knowing all these..somehow...I still cannot pick myself up to trust someone again.

Perhaps I'm just scared...scared that I'll fall again...

just did my PA for 2007 & i scored pretty good marks! Suddenly i wondered...what would have happen if I did not ask for the transfer...

For sure...I will still be as busy as ever & probably being sent to IMH already.

Im so much more happier in this dept; at least I have so much more time for myself now...and i needa gym more often than the past...like 3-4 times a week...which i had been quite consistent for the past few mths. :)

Gambatte, Lindy!!!

dang. think i needa train my patience as well.

i hate it when i'm discussing things & tat person just change topic to talk to others! it's so rude rude rude!

Never in sight...sighz!

looks like my 1st wish for 08 didn't come true eh? :(
but nvm...its only january, hope that things will turn out as per my wishes on 1st jan.

i think i really need to attend some anger management course or some tolerance course...else...i really don't understand why she is such a difficult person to live with.

well...today is not me whom quarrel with her already...but my sis instead. finally my sis tasted some of my anger previously har???

it puzzles me; i can communicate quite well with my dad...but why not her?? argh!

i know it isn't very good or filial...wanting to leave the house! but why must she always push me to the verge of doing so??? sighz.

Feel very depressed over the recent few incidents that I don't feel like talking to anybody. Is there some kind of magic that can cast me far far away? =(

Bus 518's timing is getting quite erratic these days; I have to wait 30mins for the bus??? WTH!!!

I decided to take the MRT instead but I realized...it's like surfing!!! Most of the time, the whole train is packed and I had to stand somewhere without any handle bars, balancing myself & try not to fall!!!

love the shoes but its torturing me!!!! argh!!!
looks like i needa banish it to the cold palace already :(

Spent my last day of 2007 with my bestest friends! A rooftop bbq & countdown session.
Picture to come later cos I really need some sleep now.

My first wish for the 2008 is for your well-being; I wish you will find a purpose in life soon than dwelling in the past. I want you to see how beautiful life can be. I really want you to find happiness.

Spend my 2007 last wkend with JE! Cut hair, shopping, talk nonsense...

I realised I did/had alot of '1st time' thingys for the past 2 mths. Went to tis so n so place for the 1st time, ate the so n so food for the 1st time. Met up with so n so for the 1st time, etc.

I really did spent too much time on work for the past few years har? And neglecting or avoiding alot of things!

But 2008 will be different. I will make things better; tats one of my resolution.

Let's all gambatte!!! =)

it's gonna be 2008 & i have set some resolutions!
1. to clear out whatever has been bothering me.
2. clock up to 80 - 100 dives
3. control my temper better
4. be nicer to my family

other than the above, i was thinking if 2008 will have 'you' involved.
i really wonder...


but i do believe 2008 will be a good year for me! :)

Carebear!!!

Did a quiz...and tats my results. hmm...quite true eh!

	Tenderheart Bear You are thinker, organizer, peacekeeper, and leader all in one. You have a power to command attention and people listen to you. However, you are often so concerned about not hurting others' feelings that you don't tell them what they need to hear and this gets you both into trouble. But you always have loyal friends to help you out.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

AS shared stories with us at 'Happenings' today as my dept's HOD.
He mentioned, "By helping others, you help yourself..."

I should make this as one of my resolution for 2008 too!

i love chocolates!!! hahaha chocolate overd0se tis xmas!
i'll marry the guy whom gimme chocolates!!! heh.

Was at Sasa's place for a xmas potluck party with the rest of my colleagues last evening. The food was terrific!!! (pics up later)

after dinner, half the group was playing wii and the other half was playing boardgames. it has been very longgggg since i last played any boardgames and it was fun!!! we played pictionary!~ haha! most of the time i was the one describing and drawing; vy and marc were the ones doing the guessing.

Back from BB's chalet!

I miss someone!! Dunno if tat someone missed me? LOL. *stupid me*
BUT suan le la...after much consideration...i think i shouldn't pursue on...and it wasn't meant to be...so I'm in the giving up and forgetting stage.
(struggling feeling i noe, but i will try to do it.)

Anyway, was at aloha changi for bbq cum mahjong session...it was supposed to be for SH's ppl but most din't make it except me; so i ended up with all bb's sec schmates.

the barbeque session wasn't very good cos of the rain...our food were either not cooked or already drenched by the rain.

mahjong session was good though...bb's frens were quite a funny bunch. but towards 5-6am...i was already zombied. haha!!

okie, i better go zzz now as i have another party later :)

merry xmas!!!

Enjoying the holiday...

I went for facial/pedicure & I love my new nail color :)

Nothing much today....i went mahjong-ing with dada, louis & jenn. This is my first time playing with them and it was rather fun! Phew! They are quite fast players but I like it! Today's luck was not too bad; I won a little to cover my transport...Hehe!

after thinking...i decided not to reach out to whatever i was trying to reach.
tats to save myself from some hard facts which will lead to painful situations.

ever been in a situation when u are inching out to reach something... but something dropped on your hand...so u retract back again?

i guess i am feeling that recently...and i simply do not know what to do.

love the xmas tree which was made out of teddy bears. can be found at conrad :)

was 'practicing' this new song by Fish Leong, "给未来的自己". kinda love this song...especially the lyrics!

but...i doubt i can be so strong & courageous like the way the song is...

was at woodlands for dinner today at botak jones. i ordered cajun chicken but it was too spicy & huge portion for me(kenna sabo-ed by lui)!



after dinner, we went tigerlady's hse to give her a surprise with her xmas pressies before we head to thomson for prata??? no way!! i'm like too full so i just order drinks. *almost puke in the van*

had a long and good chat with nana, lui & bubble. and what they had said, kept me thinking... was i really isolating myself cos of the past? or what? sighz*

tired tired. completed most of my work but there are still several things to be check with LX2 BUT she has gone for dinner & yet to come back after an hour. i'm almost drained out but i guess i still have to stay and learn things from her. dang. im not really a night cat leh. im solar powered & there's no sunlight to absorb energy from in the night! argh!

The Golden Compass~~

Marc sent me a link to the following...

I’m solitary, clever, fickle, flexible and assertive. Haha!!


Looks quite cool, probably i will go watch the show tis wkend.

Crazy over stars~

Recently I'm so crazy over stars; I bought lotsa accessories with stars designs!
Few pairs of earrings & a pendant from Agnes B...

Now, I think I might want a star tattoo as well!

Unfortunately, Singapore is not a good place for stars glazing...but when i go for my dive trips to Msia...the night sparkles! ting ting! Haha!

this weekend was boring. i had to go back office but both days were wasted trips cos the info wasn't generated yet.

this means the next few days will be very busy for me as i need to finish my reports by 13th! :(

wasn't tat bad after all as i had my colleagues, friends & my sis to accompany me today.
i had breakfast at Kiliney Kopitiam with YH & Sasa.

















lunch with Man fu & Golden May @ waraku...

I preferred the teriyaki chicken while the sashimi & sushi was soso only...

Man fu also gave me a very gd advise: It doesn't matter what had happened but things happen for a GOOD reason. Who knows, whatever comes next might be better? Oh well, how true...but...aiyah...nvm.

















Dinner was at subway with my sis as we went for a show after tat.

















my b0ss gave me a pair of tix to "Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium"
Colorful, magical, inspiring. The moral of the show is...
1) It doesn't how old you are, as long you have really lived your life. (Doubt somebody can understand this)
2) Believe in yourself & Do not give up, you'll never know what magical things you can create.

It’s gonna be a tiring day as I dint have a good night sleep…it was simply too cold and I was like shivering throughout…and crying a little cos I was too angry.

Yesterday was supposed to be happy but it landed up quite bad towards the evening.

Happy as there was a company event and it was very entertaining & yes I bought donuts again!

BAD as I sorta slipped and sprained my ankle last night and I had to pretend nothing happen; bearing the pain while having dinner + a little shopping with my old fren.

I also came to know about why my old fren broke up his ex after 4 to 5 yrs; apparently it was because the girl had been two-timing him!

Be it whether it’s the guy or gal whom is at fault. I think the above had been very common which added on to my general / bad perception about relationships.

Attached? Married? So what? Still can break off, still can divorce.

Yes for sure…I’m not saying that you can’t have friends of the opposite sex when you are attached or married but there is always a line which you should not cross!!! That’s how both can maintain the friendship!!! But once you are over that line, I’m sure ‘accidents’ happen.

Of cos I’m proud & frank to say, I’m a good self-controller or whatever u call it. As long as someone has gf or married, I will always keep a distance. There are things which friends can do…and what lovers can do. I KNOW THE DIFFERENCE VERY CLEARLY.

Anyway, after getting home, my old fren and I decided to go into IRC to see how dead the channel was like after 12 yrs. It ended up about 5 of us, the pioneers of the channel talking nonsense in the channel and talking about the funny past.

What actually pissed me off was someone from forum whom know me and old fren...had played a joke too far. I don’t really understand why he had to pull my name in…to play in this sarcastic post of his. Maybe he’s trying to tell/prove to others that he’s not the most scandalous person? I still find that sometimes some jokes can be forgiven and some cannot. But watever it is...he had gone beyond my tolerance level.

Maybe I sounded serious and worked up…
I do not know what I am feeling now…Am I angry? Or am I just disappointed with what he said? I dunno… but nvm…just forget it.

Sometimes…things happen for a GOOD reason.

bought donutz from donut factory again today!
yummy yum yum~~~ they are the "in thing" now in Singapore and everybody's talking about it!!!











i wasn't able to buy assorted flavors cos the waiting time is 30minz for the new batch of donutz to be out!

but not too bad...5 outta 6 of peanut dark chocolatez! and they taste good =)~~

i was looking at my wanted list (see right)...and i have gotten all of the items...new pc, camera & divecom! Yippee!!

it's time to think of new 'want' things for 2008 =P


its xmas spirits everywhere...i was at paragon and suddenly i heard men singing & playing music! i looked up and that's what i saw...and their carol-ing are good!really made me feel abit of xmassie mood...

wow. I was talking a fren on msn about some jap show...and he says the description seems like it's animal + human incest show! but but but..the picture looks damn cute...so probably i might just watch it ;)

1st time ever,today, a guy whom doesn't know/like diving...talked to me about diving things and also discussed about some sea creatures...*SWEET* unlike others whom just asked...how much i spend on diving, whom i go with, got hanky panky or not. *DUH*

i love diving...cos its so beautiful underwater...and i see things which i don't see on land(of cos la).

oh well.........words cannot describe. u have to experience it for yourself :)

Almost 11 mths since I last blogged.. maybe I should start blogging again?

As usual, I had been very busy with work...

Aiyo...I 'saved' my mom from a fish bone today!

She was talking to me while eating then a fish bone got stuck at her throat. In the end, I had to use 2 fingers down her throat to reach the bone and try to pull it out.

Kinda panicky ah...cos she was rather hot tempered at 1st when i couldn't see it with a torchlight shining down her throat. Tats why have to use my fingers to feel it...

Thank God, I manage to pull the fish bone out. My sis was almost crying out. Talking about that, my sis hate eating fish cos she got choke by a bone before...

I spent my Xmas this year watching 'Bleach'! This anime is just so addictive!!!

Guess my plan for the new computer must be delayed as yday I went to sim lim square to check out...the things I want, is way over my budget. I still have to cater for the payment of my premium and also for my bangkok trip...

Sighz...one more month to wait till I get my next pay!

I attended a company event this morning where my co. donated a big amount to a center to help those terminally ill children. Elizabeth, the little girl whom I'm suppose to give her a x'mas present wasn't around but I had a short chat with her mom. I guess its quite tough on the girl & her parents to have gone through all these and I really hope she will get well soon. Next, i need to think on how I can contribute further...hope that this will make a difference in their life and also mine.

Anyway, my head is spinning now cos I have not been sleeping well lately. But thanks to Fiona for listening to my work woes. I feel abit better and know what to do next...

When people have troubles, they'll come find me. When I have feel troubled, sometimes I don't really know who to talk to. One thing is I don't wanna trouble other people... Another is... I guess I can solve it myself...

Feel very low morale today.

Don't understand why my mom always buy things for my sis. My home pc is spoilt, yet I have to wait till 31 Dec when I get my bonus. Not tat I want her to buy one for me, but I don't understand why she had to say ." pc spoilt? its becos i used it and i spoilt it myself..." But if its for my sis, it will be a different case...

Today they went out shopping, and all I said was..."wah buy new shoes for her". And she have to say, "then wat u want me to do? or u want me to die 1st?"

Suddenly I just felt so angry... I simply can't recall her buying a pair of shoes for me since I was in secondary school??? I still had to buy the simplest one, those with an elastic strap and wear till there are holes???

Sighs... I hope 31 dec will come fast. My pc is dying...I donno how I can survive without my pc, youtube & blogging. And also, i should have gone back to Perlyn's chalet today...

i should feel very relax after my exams...but why do i feel so vex??

Exam is over. But i did badly for it....*Sighz* Now, I'll juz pray that the rubbish i wrote can get me a pass!

Went for a crop session yday and it was fun! Hmm..its where a group of people gather to do their scrapbooking together! There were also the tombolo challenge, where we need to get certain items from the chosen person and use them on our layout. Kinda stress ah...cos we have to complete it in an hour? Haha!

I'm pretty much hooked on to this , youtube and hoping that the diving season opens soon...

Oh ya...youtube had taught me, if u want good stuffs, you got to be patience and wait!!! Haha!

Today is the last day of class!!!! YippeEee!!

Went Kbox @ Hougang with Jessica today... Don't play play okie!!! There were only 2 of us but we still had a long list of songs to sing after 4 hours!!! Din't even go for any toilet break!! And after the session, we really rush out to the ladies...and I think I almost got myself into a little trouble...Hehe!

What happened was....as we were looking around for toilet paper to wipe the dirty seats...I juz got a quick glance and thought I saw a guy at the ladies...I still asked, "are we in the correct toilet?" and Jessica replied yes and gimme a weird tilted eyebrow look. It was until I walk to the other cubicles and realise the 'guy' I saw was actually a butch!!! Might had been so embarrassing but I really didn't meant to offend her. But she should be glad isn't it? If she wanted to act butch, and I recognized her as a guy? OH Well... I enjoyed my day anyway!

And yes, I finished the piece of work for Lena! It's ready to be sent out!!! *Happy*

Thanks to Shanice, I'm so hooked to scrapbooking now!!!

I managed to locate a few stores which I can get my materials and I also did a few pieces over last weekend!

Hmm...I have placed another section on the sidebar, listing down those which I intend to do. The next on the list is for Lena, whom I wish to cheer her up. And then it would be for Jason's baby girl who came to earth on 28th Oct 2006. Hehe!! =P

Went to Kelong at Lim Chu Kang area last saturday...

It was quite fun but the weather was quite terrible with lotsa haze and no wind...

I spent much time feeding fish as I can't stand the smell & bloody sight when they were killing the fishes and digging out mussels.


Not forgetting the entertainer of the day, the house dog name, 'Aiyoyo' whom is very enthu to jump into waters just to fetching the slipper and ball which we throw into the waters.

As 'Aiyoyo' is already quite old, it has some difficulties in getting up on the high platforms; Joseph had to carry him up instead.













Uncle trying to show us how he walk on those wooden platforms...

I had cravings for pasta since last nite(*Thanks to someone*) that I went to have it for lunch today.

During my way home, this cow bedsheet really caught my eye & I bought it. However, I just realised, why are there prints of 2 cows?? The female one in wedding veil?? Isn't this for a single bed, why having such prints then?

*Confused*

I will be home doing my graduation project for the next few days...

Look at the mess I made on my kitchen table today!! Haha!~

I had no choice...the desk in my room is too small...

Wat a terrible start today. I had to endure some guy's B.O. for almost half of my bus ride to work!!! It was so bad that I almost puke!!!

I din't meant to be rude...but he held his hands so high up on the bar that all those that were near him had to sit or face another direction or cover their nose(I'm one of them).

For gdness sake...consult the doctor or use the deodorant!!!!!

Busy busy....8 more days till I submit my graduation project!!!

I feel so happy today!!! Finally I had bought a halter neck black dress to wear for Crissie's wedding dinner, together with heels that is silverish purple.

Cos I'm erm................................"so blessed";"busty", that is what the shop owner & one of her customer mentioned just now. You do not know how troublesome it is , to have gone through so many shops and tried so many dresses that does not fit!!!

But Thank God, I found you...Pat!!! =)

Work & studies are like draining me out quite badly!I felt very stressed yday and almost on the verge of giving up.

Just keep swimming...just keep swimming...just keep swimming...!!!??
I think that I just need more strength to keep going on...and that has to come from within? Myself? I dunno.

I recalled of a phrase which I had kept trying to input into the brains of a few of my friends. And that is to... "DO things which you can haf the control, and that's how you can stay being objective!"

I started writing down all the things which had been bothering me...stating down each and every item on what is hindering me from doing the things which I wanted to do or suppose to do. Somehow or rather, it din't turn out as bad as I had expected; There are solutions to the problems I'm having.

So I guess, I'm okie now...I would just need to go according to what I had planned out to do in order to solve the problem and to achieve certain things.

Wish that I may get little more strength, yeah?? Thanks alot, in advance =)

It's been a while since I last blogged cos I had been busy(dunno doing what)!!!

There are so many things to do and yet I just can't get started!!!!! Looks like time is also running out...Maybe I should 'Bi Guan Xiu Lian'...so that I can finish the following:-

Complete my course by 2006!
- One more module to go
- Graduation project to be SUBMITTED by 18th October 2006

Taken at close range with my mobile. Very blur!

These are my hamsters! Cute ma? Hehehe!!