Aftermath.

And so the D&D ended with a Sony Bravia 46" LCD TV & not that it is of interest to me... Ahh! I was more glad that it was over!

I uploaded some pictures on my friendster if thats of any interest to you (more to come when my colleagues have sent me). And yeah pictures of me with colleagues dressing up as Heroes & Villains - as fictional it can be or simply just desires & fantasy of people wanting such supernatural powers. And no, I wasn't in any heroine outfit or whatsoever, just a simple dress for a simple me. =)

Now if you read the book of Ecclesiastes - King Solomon. The lesson in that chap teaches you whenever your thoughts become earthly and focus on things under the sun, you'll despair.

In simple, when you focus & live life on your desires, your life will be unfulfilled.

Okie okie I will stop here before anybody starts hitting my head.

Anyway, enjoy the pics! Go guess who is the majesty, queen & highness!

Annual D&D - Superheroes!

It's my Annual D&D Day and this year will be on Superheroes! Unfortunately this time round, it will be less exciting/fun as I cannot imagine my team wearing any superheroes outfit =X

I reckon most are going for the prizes & free food only. Did I mention that last year's first prize was a trip to Mauritius + a sum of $$$? Ahh!

Anyway, I hope I have abit of fun tonight despite all the loud shouting n stuffs.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Time & Chance Happen To Them All.

The other day there were many caterpillars hanging on the trees, and I wondered where did all the butterflies gone to. Today I saw a bunch of them circling around my feet playing with me.

The other day I was wondering when will I get to meet the daughter of my favorite president? Today she spoke to me and drove me home; A humble lady whom can cook very well indeed.

=)

I'm so touched.

Thank you, May, for your little belated birthday gift and card.

Thank you, My Lord, for blessing me with such a good friend. =)

Just keep praying...

I'll be fine with Lord Jesus.

Rainy Morning!

I did a very unglam thingy by wearing slippers to work today! It was raining heavily in the east and since there is so much construction going on near my neighborhood. I just can't resist wearing slippers!

This makes me recall those younger days when going to school with the almost painted white school shoes. And during raining days, most of us just wear slippers in order not to dirty them.

Do you remember your mom nagging at you to wash your shoes? To paint them after it drys up? Or you just simply just throw it in the washing machine? Well, I really do know of people whom does this! =P

Happy 4 Months!

Congrats on clinching the deal! God Bless!

Quiet Times...

I'm loving quietness & my daily conversations with God more n more each day. As that is the only time I feel peace & my mind is undisturbed. I long for the weekends to come faster so I can once again feel restored.

I feel a little sick of all the every day human indulgence over food, entertainment & entertaining of people aka socializing as all bad things will be shown else known.

And all these...had cast me far away - to be in my prayers.

Quality Time...

My bus ride was 70cents lesser today as there was a technical glitch on the easylink card reader. At first, I thought it was gonna be a free ride when we were told to just take a seat. Later the trip was sorta delayed as we stopped by somewhere for it to be fixed but this has given me sufficient time for a second reading of a book by Joseph Prince. Yeah yeah, why read it another time since I only finished reading last night? =X

Anyway, these has sparked me to open another little corner of mine which I call it my sanctuary. Don't bother asking me where it is ok? Tsk tsk* =)

Dan Ryan's Chicago Grill

I had dinner with Darling, Elle, Ashley & Roderick @ Dan Ryan's Chicago Grill last evening. This is another new place that I've gone to this year & I would say the next time if I were to order any steak, the best is to follow Darling's theory on having the most expensive steak on the menu as that's usually the best steak being served by the restaurant! And it seems this has always been the case as those I had ordered, doesn't taste as good as his! *pouts*

We had the New England Clam Chowder soup, Sauteed Mushrooms as sides and my main dish was the Rib Eye Steak and Darling had his Charred Striploin Steak! I think the word charred turn the rest of us off a little from ordering it, but his was the best among all!

Anyway, it was a great gathering of good food lovers but yet being afraid of gaining weight/fats. Cheers!

Bday Present

Dearest DArling gave me a PSP for my bday! Deep red in color but with no games yet! Muacks~!

Initially I didn't buy it myself becos of a few things:
1) I know I will get hook and it's not good as I can do many other things with the time spent on it.
2) I'm saving money.
3) Pastor Rony said, 'virtual games' are evil!!!

To many, perhaps it's about gifts & celebration. But for so many years, all I ever wanted was to be with my love ones. And I feel deep joy that I am able to be with Darling this year and the PSP!! Yippee! Now is to get games~~~ Kekeke! =P

Though my bday is over, I am still getting questions from friends on what I want to eat, what present do I want for my bday. But seriously, we can meet to catch up on our lives but do not spend $$ on getting gifts okie? Like what I've mentioned...

The greatest gift I have received, is God's Love.
The greatest gift I have gotten for myself, is The Bible.

There is another gift which I have thought of receiving but never have I told anyone...

Perhaps I will get it myself when the time comes for me to be baptized. =)

8 Law of Habitual Thoughts

Went for Service this morning & Pastor Rony spoke on feelings & thoughts & said, "Your brain is a powerful tool". He then go about speaking on the 8 Law of Habitual Thoughts as listed below.

8 Law of Habitual Thoughts
1) You have the power to choose what to think regularly.
2) What you constantly think will become real & relevant to you.
3) Your habitual thoughts will becoming the driving force of your life.
4) You will eventually become what you habitually think.
5) You will eventually put your habitual thoughts into actions.
6) Your translated action repeated will eventually become a habit.
7) Your driving thoughts and habit will reinforce each other.
8) You can only change that pattern of living by first changing your thoughts.

How true & powerful these words are. Praise the Lord, for guiding me once again. =)

Happy 27th Birthday! =)

The greatest gift I have received, is God's Love.

The greatest gift I have gotten for myself, is The Bible.

My Idle Mode Starts

So I went to do a personality type quiz - http://www.ipersonic.com/test.html! And the results is kinda accurate for me...


Social Realist (SR)

Social Realists are popular persons full of energy. They are reliable, well organized and helpful. Traditional values are important to them. Founding a family also plays a central role in their life. Social Realists have a marked social streak. They are always ready to listen to the worries and problems of others and spare no effort when they are asked for help. With empathy and understanding, they can sense what other people need. Social Realists are always willing to highly regard the strong points of the other person and to excuse that person’s weaknesses. They are the most sociable of all personality types. Social contacts are very important to them.

Social Realists find it very difficult to cope with conflicts and criticism - harmony is their elixir of life. Acknowledgement and esteem are very important to this type. Differentiation on the other hand is not necessarily one of their strong points. At work and in partnerships, they are loyal, committed and always there when needed. They find it easy to make friends due to their open, warm manner and they have a large circle of friends.

In love, they are faithful and attentive and care for their partners with a great deal of imagination and sensitivity. Social Realists show their feelings openly and honestly. Should a relationship break up, they tend to blame themselves. That is why they find it very difficult to end a partnership even if it has not fulfilled their requirements for some time.

Social Realists are more conservative types. They have a set system of values and rules which is orientated to the prevailing traditions. They prefer clear, structured surroundings and work processes; they find too much change und unrest unpleasant. Their strong points are carefulness and reliability and not so much flexibility and spontaneity. Social Realists are open-minded towards anything new only to a limited extent. But, should one be looking for someone to fulfil a task reliably and exactly, they are the right persons.

Sleepless Night

Went for a double date last evening and watched the movie 'The Happening' directed by M. Night Shyamalan.

It was just a casual dinner meet up but later our partners joined us & we decided to go for movies.

I sorta recall why I do not like to use my brains after night falls as this will lead me to a sleepless night due to extended usage of the brain. Haha! It's similar to cycling, when you pedal hard and stop pedaling after awhile, the wheels will still run before you need to start again. I guess my brains work this way as well. =X

Just like babies & young kids..when they are over-excited into the night, they tend not to sleep. It's the same logic for me! Of cos, I would be a big baby for now. But yeah, it's still happening to me. =)

Now why do I keep talking about getting over-excited & on my brains, that's because of M. Night Shyamalan! I did not realized that this show was directed & written by him but I do remember telling myself in the past that his shows does leave you thinking & hyped up cos of the plot/scenes. And so it's around 10.30pm when we watched the movie with the gr0ss and terrifying scenes of people trying various ways of killing themselves.

The strange thing is that I was not even thinking of the show when I was in bed, but yeah, I had a sleepless night. =X

Big Thank You

I wanna say a Big Thank You to JL, SM, MM, JJ, LGF, ATN, XH & ED for your presence at dinner last night, the gift card, the cake and most importantly, all your thoughts. =)

Cannot say out yday cos I will cry one, especially when all of you sang the birthday song.

Ya ya, Cancerian are emotional people but there is never a day when I felt being a one isn't good. =)

Lost & Found

I thought I have lost it, else I must have dump it during the cleaning of my room. But today, I found it back where I have left it! The original spot!

This seem odd as the last time I search for it, it wasn't there! Hah!

Given to me by Esther in 1994, I wondered what had kept me keeping it for 14 years.

It's a sign...The sign which I had been asking for. Thank You My Lord!

My work

If you had been a follower of my lousy writings since the start of this blog. You might have noticed that I previously treat this blog for me to vent my anger/whinings/complains in regards to work.

But for now, this has tone down quite a lot ever since I have transferred department as of late 2007.

Just some updates, I am still with SH but currently in the another dept where my busy period is only during 8th - 20th of the month. And during this period, I just needa complete my reports and the rest of the days I would somehow be on idling mode. The only bad thingy is that, I have to face the 'queen & highness' whom almost all dislike.

This was maybe a very late decision but a chance so slim which came by, just when I was on the verge of resigning. But now, I am really enjoying the 'less stress & responsibilities' with having more time & flexibility, which in return gave me the chance to know more friends and to be together with Darling. =)

Now I know that I would want to spend time to know and understanding him as much as I can. But recently, Darling had clinched various projects which have kept him very busy. I just wish that there could be something which I can do for him; but on IT/technical stuffs? I think I am an idiot on this. (Well, I know how to format my pc la, not like some whom totally have zero knowledge on it).

Anyway, just for sharing.

Life is an ECHO. What you send out, you get back.
What you give, you receive. When you bring out the best in others, you bring out the best in yourself.

The above quote is written on one of my client's email signature.

My say...

When you keep thinking/doing those things you cannot control, you'll miss out on the little things which you actually can do.

I need to address on my above sayings which I use very often recently. Cos I feel that this can be applied to many people out there. I hope that after you have read the following & its examples. You can learn & do something (hopefully for the better) on your decision making.

DO NOT THINK of the aftermath, cos that is that is something which you usually cannot control. Do think on your actions & words, what you do, what you say, will it hurt someone, will it make someone happier, what is the impact you want on them? What is the impact you want on yourself? Always remember what you say/do reflects on yourself & the people around you.

You asked if one day I get to know someone better than you are, will you choose to break up. My answer is no, unless you do not love me anymore and had given up on our relationship, else I will not let go. This is because the future is something I cannot control, right now, I want YOU. Anyway, please do not keep thinking on the ‘what if one day that someone better might come along’, but please do something about it so that, that one day will never ever come.

To all the criminals out there, I also do wish that all of you will think twice before doing any crime. Whether it is to rape/molest/robbery/murder/fly a plane into some buildings, have you ever thought of the consequences? Well, the very first thing would be you have your own conscience to answer. You know you will be punished, either being jailed, hanged or even death. You know your reputation is at stake since once you have criminal record it will be hard for you to find work anymore. You know you gonna hurt those whom really love you. Then do not do it, don’t let it happen, by not doing crimes, that’s something you can control then you don’t have to think of the aftermath!

As for C.E., I think it looks pretty obvious that I'm go against him all the time these days. To those whom do not know what had happened in the past, it would be that I am really against him or that I dislike him just like anybody does. BUT the main reason why I kept shooting him is because he is just an irritant without using his brains. What he says/do doesn't reflect that he is sincere in really wanting us back as friends. Seriously, If you really want us to accept you back, you better stop whining and do something about it. Reflect on yourself, kid.

As for BQT: Darling use to always say he has some liking for me thus being so emotional. But I do not want to know whether he likes me or not. I am already attached, and the thingy which he can control is his emotions. Same goes for those other people whom are very nice to me. I really appreciate it but I already found someone whom I really like. And if you really want happiness for me, please give me your blessings instead.

As for JL: I know I’m so gonna lose this friend if I don’t do anything about it. She was frustrated with me for lying and not listening to her. I don’t blame her, the fault lies in me cos I lied to her and because I never did tell her on what I want, what I believe and what was ‘the very important thingy’ which I need to do, she wouldn’t know my intentions. But I’m glad, she is willing to give me time to solve my own things. And I wanna say a big thank you to you.

Similarly for myself, I know I’m so gonna lose this relationship if I keep thinking negatively on it. And if I don’t do something, I will lose someone whom is important to me. So heck care the right time right place when I need to talk to you, even if you have to put me in a tank full of pigeons, I still will talk to you and do something about it, cos this relationship is what I really want. (Yeah I am afraid & hate pigeons).

Oh ya, I have taken about an hour and only eaten half of my breakfast to write the above. If I don't start work now, I'm so gonna mess up my work and I won't be able to go back on time to have dinner with you!~

So yea, I need to do work now already. Hah! Whoever read this, please do take some time to think over the above. There are so many examples which I can quote. But I hope you get the gist of what I want to say. Many might say why think so much? All of us are given only one brain, if we don’t make use of this powerful tool, who else will?

BUT THEN AGAIN, please do not think/do of those things which you cannot control, cos you'll miss out on the little things which you actually can do. =)

Greetings from Seoul

Was chatting with Tony today while he is working in Seoul and myself in SG office. Hah! We catch up a little on each other's life and he talked on his relationship/marriage of 15 years. As usual, I like to ask what the one thing that makes relationship works; he said ‘compromise with other’.

Today I learnt another thingy & found another June baby.

He says:
By trying hard … effort = 100%, returns 50%, sometimes dun try - returns 40%... ROE is higher without trying! So let nature take its course. You will start to learn when you are my age.

Happy Birthday in advance to you. June babies rocks! =)

Simplicity & Happiness

If only life is not so complicated, how nice would that be? That’s what people usually say, but I think it’s more on how simple you want your life to be!

I was watching ‘The Hospital’ aka 白色巨塔 and realized you actually have to watch Taiwan dramas with a very open mind and to be positive. There are so many scenarios in the show which I can relate to myself, but if I really do so, then my life would just be as sad as the show.

Simple & Happy. That’s how I want my life to be – nothing too thick in my wallet, nothing too fanciful in my wardrobe and definitely not with a high profile status. The only thing I want is to be happy the way I am and my love ones to share my happiness and to stay as happy as I do. And that’s what I’ll pray for Darling everyday too. =)

Summary of June

(Huh? Right in the middle of the month? Hah!)

Time past so fast, and it's been almost a week since we came back. I'm soOooo missing the times spent in TP, that I had not recover from the moods since I came back to work. Seriously, I didn't felt like coming back to SG especially on the last few days! And for my work tis week, it's just totally unproductive! Looks like I probably needa buck up a little & this weekend's mornings will be spent in office to do work! =(

Time past so fast, and it's been a month since I did my Epilasik. Everything is okie for now, except my vision not being sharp enough. The only thingy was I wasted some $$$ on purchasing few bottles of eyedrops which I don't need anymore. And the next consultation will be on the 20th of June where my eyesight will be assessed again.

The following two weeks will also be slightly busy for me, as my friends are already bugging me out for some catch up session & yeah, it's my month! June babies rox! I can't help hoping the day will come faster, budden again, if that day comes sooner, it means my age is increasing! Ahh! How contradicting life can be.

Anyway, Darling had been very busy with work, hopefully things will run smoothly for him and we will be able to spend time together during then & aso fulfilling the bet we had made with each other. The 666 bet. =)

Some of the food we ate

Don't drool ah!! =P

Basically their food taste similar to ours in SG but I would say they are very creative in serving out their food. The ingredients are just normal stuffs but they can come out with lotsa designs/patterns/methods in order to attract our attention!


Hong Shao Niu Rou Mian! Only NT69, but taste only soso~~



Their prata! Chong You Bing!!! Very nice especially with egg, bacon & cheese!~~~


Yummy pastry with chilled chocolate fillings! Sweet!~~


Guan Cai Ban! A deep fried thick toast, cut in the middle with a mixture of everything~~!



Ru Rou Fan, Kangkong, Fishball Soup & Fried Oyster!


Some Beef Rice Thingy~~


San Xiong Mei's MAngo ICE @ XMD!!! Darling likes it with lotsa brown sugar syrup!!!!


Guess wats inside? EscargO!!! We had 3 portions of this ah~~~


Roasted Chicken!~



Ding Tai Fung! We both agreed that SG's better!

Sorry to JL

I didn't realized that becos of 1 lie, I had to use more to cover it. But why wouldn't you tell me or talk to me about it??? I kept apologizing to you for the wrong things and in return, making you more angry! If you don't tell me directly, how would I have know what wrong I have done?

For this, I'm really sorry, I should not have lied to you or to any friends at all. This is something which I have done wrong and I shall not say or tell you not to be angry with me again. But I would still seek forgiveness from you cos I do really treasure this friendship & I promise not to lie about anything again.

I know you are also frustrated that I kept asking where all of you are going but in the end, its either I come very late else I don't show up at all. But please do know that I really wanna join you people but there's something more important which I had to do. Something was wrong and I need to get it solve first. And in order to solve this, I need time.

I know that friendship is never a transaction, but can I bet on our friendship by buying time from you?


Sorry to all.
I didn't listen cos I still believe in what I am doing. I appreciate all your concerns but this is what I want & wouldn't let go.

And one thing which I have to disagree with you all is, "What counts in making a R/S is not so much how compatible you are, but how you deal with incompatibility."

Please believe in me and what I do. You know I could just be frustrated over why you guys are doubting over what I do, but I won't. I hope this is something which you all can learn about me and on friendship.


Sorry to me.
I have not taken care of myself. And to love someone, I have to love myself first.

I had been complaining or rather upset that we don't communicate and I feel helpless trying to know who you are. But I came to realised, there was so much to learn about the both of us when we are together. Every single person has their own way of communicating, and this is something which I have to learn & understand on.

I'm back in SG!

For some reasons, I know I have made some friends to be angry with me or rather upset with me for not telling where I have really went for the past one week AND for not listening to what had been advised/said to me.

What I can only only say is that I have my reasons for not telling AND please let me have this 50% chance cos its really important & meant alot to me!!! Cos if I don't try, I will never know...And I don't want things to be just faded through time. Call this being persistent, or call me stubborn. I just hope that you will/can understand...

I know what I want & I will fight for it

Try = 50% Win & 50% Lose.
Not Trying = 100% Lose.

This 50% is important to me, so I want to take this chance. Even if everything fails, I know I have tried...

Positive & Negative

Do you feel that that you will think more positively when you talk/be with someone positive than a negative person?

Personally, I would say yes, I tend to think more positively when I talk/be with someone positive. But even if I talk/be with someone negative, I will try to learn from that someone to become positive & hopefully he/she will feel my positive ions as well. Even though, sometimes after talking to that person you will get the same answers as what you already have thought of. Perhaps I just want to be sure of what I am doing.

I met up with TWL for dinner yday at Down Town East and based on the fact that I do not wan to eat instant noodles consecutively for two weekends.

This place has changed so much with many new facilities which probably tempt many people to visit the place since its opening. But how long would it last? I wondered...

TWL & I talked on things which made me learn, but I hope I would have the chance to put them in good use. We also talked on the perspective of people, on how they can differ between various people.

I needed some quiet time & landed in such a crowded place... But I would say that I had a good chat with TWL & felt so much better in a way or another.

Dang. I wanted so much to sing too but they didn't allow any one person singing today which I can understand that the 1 charge of mine, they probably can get 5 charges to a room.

Women does stupid things for love

Recently, the heavily debated topic in TGOP is on 'Abortion or Adoption', this came after one of our forum mates got pregnant and the guy being not responsible, leaving her to decide on what to do.

After thinking through, I would say that I belong to the pro-choice category & agree that she should do abortion.

Quoted from my Darling, "pro-choice does not mean pro-abortion. Perhaps it is a stand that tend to favor the abortion decision but where the parents feel they are ready despite the unplanned nature, where they do want the child, then I fully support their decision to keep it."

In her situation now, a young pretty doctor to be, a family whom favors the ever so slacking son, and with a mentality from asking on "why the jerk is still doing this to her". I really think that she should do abortion instead of adoption. Anyway, this is a decision she has to make and I hope it's not another stupid thing women does for love.

I have to admit that I'm also one of those women & one example would be from the second decision I've made on May 14th. I wouldn't say its a a stupid thing that I did for love, but I'm sure many scold me if they knew. You may ask if this is a choice of mine or just a gamble? I can't really answer you. But I do wish it wouldn't turn out to be the latter...

It’s the usual must go ‘Happenings’

‘Happenings’ is an event which my entire department have to attend every month and the HOD will talk on sales update of the various sector or would I just say, in simple, it’s a communication session.

Today, she talked about ‘Overcoming Obstacles’ and also mentioned a quote which Manfu had previously told me before which is ‘Things happens for a good reason’. Immediately, I sms Manfu and started chatting with him instead of listening to the usual sales/marketing updates.

There were some issues which we sms-ed about, and Manfu came over to my desk to talk to me an hour ago. Of all things, he said something which made me cry. Some words so accurately describe my feelings.

It could be my mind which is weak from being sick again or the caused of all the drugs which I'm taking. I dunno. Well, do not worry cos I’m alright.

Fear...

My mind wandered too much today after reading something few days back & after watching a show on the bus last night. Both an almost similar situation.

Is this just a coincidence? Is this a type of fear? Whether it's a yes or no, I must overcome it.

But one thing I must remind myself is on what I personally had said before...which is, “When you keep thinking of those things you cannot control, you'll miss out on the little things which you actually can do."

Note: The above mentioned situation is not about the 'heavily debated topic' among TGOP now on "Abortion or Adoption."

Complains!

I think the following complain comes only from me (that's among my own friends of cos).

I was trying on some dresses just now and there is this dress which I like it so much but I couldn't buy it cos my pair of fr0nts are too big. This has always been the case even when I was much slimmer, and there are some clothes which I couldn't fit into. Now wait, I should be contented with what I have, there are many whom wants it but have to use padded bras to enhance, so in a way, I had saved $$$ on buying those type of lingerie. Ahh! *Dilemma* You just can't get the best of all worlds!~ =X

Anyway, to compensate that I couldn't buy that dress, I went GAP which is also having sales & bought myself a nice green tube top! 30% + 10% Discount, what more do you want! =)

Maybe if I'm free tonight, I will take a picture of it! Cheers!

My EpiLasik Op on 15th May 2008

Now now, I know I have not blog on my EpiLasik Opz & there are many people whom are curious about it. Cos it’s been a week plus, pls let me try my best in recalling on how the whole thingy went about.

It was a fast move on my side. Was just talking about it with some friends & within a few days I have done the opz. Same goes to my parents; I have asked for their approval, the very next day I did it! =X

After taking some pills (can’t remember what it is), I sat on the sofa waiting for my turn; I was trying to feel my pulse to see if I was nervous. Maybe it was because of the pills and that Darling was there, my pulse seemed fine. Well, I wasn’t really afraid about it, but I was glad Darling was with me =)

As expected, it was a long wait before my turn or rather I was the last on the list for the opz that day.

The preparation before the opz was quite a calm one - when I walked into the room, I was greeted by the assistant whom helped me with the robes and disinfection of the eye area. The last I saw with my spectacles was a cross on the wall and this made me felt like praying. I was then asked to sit on another sofa and she played some music... Dr Julian Theng then came out to greet me as well and ask on how I was feeling and cracked some jokes with me before leading me to the surgery room.

On the surgery bed, my eyebrows were then being taped & eyelids being clipped to prevent blinking. However, one of the drops which felt super cold after contacting my eye forced me wanting to blink! The actual opz was more superb, you just have to look at the spaceship and to focus on the green & red lights. The whole process was so fast, you didn't even know you have already gone through it. (Don't mind me, I hate to recall on the machine names. I'll just use similar items/objects to describe it. =P)

The night after the op, I kept tearing, there was no pain, but once I open my eyes, tears just flowed! This frightened me a little as one of my eye seemed to have triple lids and the other being extremely small!

Second day, I was ultra sensitive to light and I just want to hide in a dark corner. *Totally vampired* Worst of all, my attempt to take public transport; though a successful one but I almost got hit by car while crossing the road! =X

Third day onwards, I was already out playing. =D

Not forgetting I have to keep dripping eyedrops (4 types!) every 3 hours and the tear drops as and when I feel dryness in my eye. I sorta got 'scolded' by Darling for rubbing my eyes with my hands & not putting the drops when necessary. Oh ya, the sunglasses too, but I really felt it was rude to wear it while eating with the rest. =(


Don't worry, I now clean my hands before I put my drops, under bright sunlight, I will wear the sunglasses. I've brought enough tissue paper out to wipe my eyes okie? =)

As of today, my vision is still a little blurry, especially when I'm in office, I simply have to sit very close to my monitor screen. Weird isn't it? Heh! But I know it's improving! Yday, after I had dripped one of the eyedropz, for almost 10 secs, the vision became super sharp! And I love it! Haha! I'll just have to wait patiently for it to stabilize then I'll be able to enjoy.

Cheers! Everything is good! But I should have done this earlier in my life =)

P.S.: It's taking too long for me to finish this & I'm getting lazy. So don't mind me for the brief notes on the later part of this post. =D

Bad Day? Mood Swings?

It all started waking up at 4am; I didn't manage to sleep back so my day started early. As I was on medical leave since last Friday due to my EpiLasik op, I wanted to go in office earlier to see what is the damage and the fact that I'm saving $$$, I took the first bus.

Just as what I had expected, my work desk was in a mess with lotsa new requests to be inputted for my may's report. I was already gonna submit my reports for the month, but with all these, I had to pend on it.

With the removal of my bandage lens during lunch, things got worst as my vision became ultra blurrish. I simply cannot do work or rather I did not have the mood to even continue.

I managed to survive till 5.30pm and met up with Aaron for a short discussion and he promised to come up with something on my request. Thanks to him, but I do not know whether it might work till I get there.

Since I was already in town, I continued with my search for my item & hoping I could eat dinner with Darling after his work. But all things crashed when my mom had to call, sorta screaming at me to be home cos she did not bring out her keys again. I did tell her that I won't be back so early, but she kept asking where I was & what time I'll be back in which I do not have an answer! Argh!!! The continuous sms-es and asking of the same questions later on was what that got me really pissed off. Taking a cab didn't really help either as there was a traffic jam.

I do not know why the sudden change of moods, but I was already tearing while on cab. I might have frightened the driver with my tears and bloody eyes. My whole journey was a quiet one and I was trying not to make any sniffing sound.

P.S.: Apologies, the come-back after so many days was an angry/sad one. I actually had some writings on papers already and because of my vision I have not type them out. And FYI, this post was done by increasing the font size to about Arial - 20. =X

Two Decisions

I went for the pre-LASIK assessment yesterday & have decided that I will do Epi-Lasik. Gotten my approval from my parents (but I will still do it even if they disapprove), calculated on my budgets, spoke to my boss that I will be able to handle all work before ops. There seem to be nothing that I miss out?

I had hesitated too long since the day I was being introduced to it, which is like in the early 2000s. Back then, I wasn't financially stable as I was still a clubbing princess & that my close friends were discouraging me to do so (even when I type this).

So the question is why do it now?
- Be it permanent contact lens or disposable ones. I can never get a good fit or clear vision.
- Extreme discomfort/redness/dryness after wearing contact lens. I have to bring my spectacles almost all the time!
- Have to go diving with contact lens. Possible to get serious infection or lost of lens. Thus wastage of $$$ & possible not to spot on macro stuffz.
- I love my brown eyes. Do not deny, it's nice, combo-ed with my smile =D

By now, I have received lotsa well wishes from friends, but I was thinking, "What's so scarey about it?" I then thought of the things which really matters to me, and only two came in mind.
- The first thingy when I look at someone is their eyes.
- The warmest thingy I can feel is through someone's smile.

Both does involved one's sight isn't it? *Heh*

Oh well, if all of you kept saying I'm brave. Maybe I am...cos I've decided to do both eyes at the same time. Maybe I am not too...I have not lie on the ops bed. Maybe I would have shivered.

The only thingy which made me question myself was whether I'm able to take care for my love ones when they need me. But I will just hope & pray there won't be any implications after the ops.

As for the second decision, I can't really say much. I knew things were changing for me - I just wasn't sure if it was for the better. Nonetheless, I accepted this challenge and I'm sure GOD has a plan for all of us, we'll just have to wait patiently.

Expectations. Changes.

I spent my Sunday doing house chores such as washing of clothes, repacked my dive gears, tidying my desk and ironing of clothes. As there were quite abit of ironing to do, and there’s nothing much shown on the SG’s channels, I re-watched Jolin’s concert again.

Listening to her, I began to sing along and was amazed I could actually remembered most of the lyrics. Yes, I love listening to her albums and proud to say that she was one of my idols.

I then recalled many people telling me that they prefer her previous image. But has anybody realized it was based on whose expectation or demands which caused her to change? Now it seemed that the change wasn’t what people really have expected har? Nonetheless, her efforts in improving herself should be commendable. For I know she has put in lotsa hard work to enhance herself, in terms of singing, dancing & of cos, her famous G-cup boobs.

The next big question would be: Have you ever sat down to think; have you done/said something to someone, just to meet up with your own expectations or have you been living in other people’s expectation and not of your own? If you have not, maybe you should just take 5minutes to really think about it now. Also, I find everything links to each other, you might wanna think on the changes which you need to make/adapt too; are you able to handle it?

To me, it’s always the famous saying, the least expectations you have, the lesser disappointment you’ll get. But this verse kinda contradictz har? Who doesn't have expectations? Well, at least I know...the expectations I have for myself. =)

I'm alright...

I think the recent medication which I had been taking for the past one week has been making me weird, pulling my moods down a little, so I sounded rather quiet har? Everybody kept saying I seemed weird? But seriously, it could most likely be the caused of the drugs that's making me less livelier?

To all those whom has been very questioning me; I would like to say to all...I really appreciate your concern and I'm really okay!

The cough is pissing the hell outta me as I can't get much sleep either. Furthermore, my busy period has started, so I'm rather occupied with work as well. I am also trying to push myself a little more in order to finish my work before the dateline.

It could also be the lack of family members at home? My Parents are holidaying in Japan and my sister is in Myanmar for her poly attachment. Well, it's not the first time that I'm staying/travel alone. But, I still find something missing when they are not around...

Hey! I'm really alright! I will get back to normal once my engines are all running fine. You can't wait for me to disturb/tease you har? =)

Not feeling well...

My coughing is just gonna get better but the time of the month is here! Now I’m having aches all over & abit of cramp this morning. Please do not let the headaches come too. Argh!~~~

Crystal Jade with SM & JL

Before I forget about it...on 30th April (supposedly to be not free on this day cos it's my sister's bday)... SM, JL & myself went to have Crystal Jade at Toa Payoh central.

The craziest thingy we did, or rather only JL & me, was to eat 6 sets of Xiao Long Bao (Steamed Pork Dumpling)!~!

The receipt!


Can you imagine 2 girls eating 6 sets of it? Yes, though it's only 5 piece per sets but still having 15 each is so mad! Even the waitress had to re-confirm that we will be ordering another 3 sets and this made all of us laughed, including the people sitting near to us!

Felt so pig after that I had to search for sweets to neutralize the taste. It's really a over dosage of p0rk! Must go do some calculation on the distance I have to run to shed this away.

Happy 2 Months! =P

We went for Pasta de Waraku as both of us suddenly had cravings for Spaghetti! My Carbonara was just nice, but I shouldn't have mixed the egg as it sorta covered up the whole sauce taste. Darling didn't really enjoyed his beef spaghetti? He mentioned it was just soso...

The bad thing was, I am still coughing badly, especially when I feel cold so I wasn't really feeling good when I was out & almost tripped on the bus as my mind was in a blank after medication.

The happy & funny thingy was... Darling had figured out what the item was and had removed it already! The clue was quite simple isn't it? =X

It was rather comical when you tried to tell me about it, and I was still acting blur. I somehow knew it when you took them out and left it on the table, you then took out another pair of it and keep shifting around the table. I just couldn't help it but smile and said, you already knew it right. *MUACKZ*

Anyway, the night ended with us having a tub of Haagen Daaz's Ice cream - Midnight Cookies & Belgian Chocolate! Just like the day we started our r/s having Haagen Daaz's Ice cream before the TGOP's porridge buffet outing. *Ya, I know it's fattening & I was coughing*

Maybe we should just have ice cream once every month, especially on this day. =)

My gd fren - Terence

Met my neighbour at the void deck last night & she told me that her son is getting married on 1st June. Not that it really bothers me even though we are staying next to each other, but the fact is we don’t really talk much. The only thing which I could recall of them doing is to tell my mom that my Sec Form teacher came by, and told them I was playing truant. I got walloped badly...in the toilet...with a shoe...my lips cracked... the bruises...AHH!

This has reminded me of Terence & Jacqueline’s wedding on the very same day and I have not prepared anything!

Well, I do have lotsa clothes already, but I just want to get something different, something nice to wear for their wedding.

I was sms-ing Terence this morning and asked about any themes that he has, and he said Marvel Heroes! It sounded kinda fun, but I can’t think of any character which I can fit/suitable for. Of cos, we all know this isn’t any annual D&D, and obviously he was just joking.

Now, Terence is someone whom I have known during Spectrum days. We were then the coolies of the company, working our ass through night & day.
Because of this, the whole gang of us spent a lot of time together having meals, sharing of cabs, and venting/complaining about work. Not forgetting our holiday trips and visiting of my JB ‘bf’ – Ivan.

Please do not be mistaken...There is a particular shop where I frequently go to since I was 16 and the owners have already been working there up till now! So whenever I go over, automatically, Ivan will help me QC the stuffs for he already know what kinda quality I am looking for. This includes some free ones/special prices since I always bring my friends to this place.

Terence has never failed to help me in the past; he has been my ATM aka ‘loan shark with no interest’ without questioning on why I needed that sum of $$$; he has also taught me the importance of saving up and kept bugging me to save up! And yes, he told me in order to marry Jacqueline; he has started saving up since day 1 of being together.

One thingy which he still owes me till now is to be my tour guide in Hong Kong! Oppz! Did I mention, Jacqueline is from Hong Kong? Both of them met each other through friends and embark on their love relationship since 4 years back. Whoever said long distance relationship doesn't work? Theirs is a perfect example. But I would say, it was their effort & commitment to each other which made their relationship last.

Cyclone in Myanmar

I don't like what I saw on the news today.

Myanmar is hit by massive cyclone and I just managed to call my sis at her hotel!

My mom have called the school yesterday & was being told they are fine. But since we have not gotten any calls from my sis at all; we will be worried.

This suddenly made me feel glad that I'm living in Singapore and that we are not affected by natural disasters.

All I can do now is to pray to GOD, to watch over her till she comes back, provide her food to eat and will be brave to face this challenge. Amen.

Sick...

Not very good!! I coughed the night away & couldn't get any sleep at all! Argh!

Believe that is why I had seemed to be cranky yesterday and it probably will get worst today!

Thank you to my dear dajie & xiaomei for your concern, I really appreciate it, but not to worries, I'm not on emo mode. I just didn't get enough sleep, and nothing happened. If I were to be angry, I should be angry at those whom passed the germs to me right? (It was funny when the both of you message the same thingy to me, I had to paste the same reply back to the both of you!)

It's funny too, especially when I made a comment on the 'person I hate - YSL'!
My advisor - MM & Coach Lover - SM immediately turn to fan at me and told me not to be angry! The two of them probably thought I would have gotten high blood pressure when I was saying that liner on YSL. But I really wasn't angry at that point of time! Haha!

Anyway, I couldn't really be bothered with YSL anymore cos 'she is like that'. Hopefully she don't try anything funny again; I wouldn't be nice.

The other thingy...which I couldn't figure out was why a supposedly-twin-plusmanyyears would love to go against me so much....for every word being said, for every action done. This really get on my nerves cos I really treat him as a friend!

The few possible reasons would lead back to the doubt which Darling has. The other would be, he don't quite like my Darling.

If that is true, he ought to control his emotions/feelings! If its the later, I could have understand why! Given for anybody, if you don't really like the other person, you probably wouldn't want/like your friends, your love ones to be any closer or involve in anything related to that person! E.g. Like KPH's case, I know she wouldn't be very happy about it if haRMonica kept talking to me either. No worries on this, I'll always side my family =)

But it is unfair for you to be nasty to me! I hope you can treat the whole situation in a more tactful manner. I also hope you can rid the defensive self of yours. Nobody is against you but you made it so that everybody is against you so you had to be against all? It's really dumb.

Last but not least, I don't wish to lose a friend.

Right or Wrong? Should do or not do!

We were able to discuss on the above sentence again in the early morning. Though we all know, we will appear like those from 'House of the Dead' game & that we will be zombiefied eaters today but the news was just too shocking for some.

Personally, I feel that it does not matter if it right or wrong but I see it as a should do or not do case! It is by choice, your own choice. That says so much about yourself!

To be frank, I have yet to find out on, why me, being like a hobbit lookalike would have/get to know a lot of morons. Even up till yday, I still get quite a number of offers if I want a fling with them. Be it people I have know for many years or some could be just total strangers I met on the streets! NO!!! What has this world become to???

Remembering one C.E. saying the following, another C.E. just had to remind us once again!

"Thou shall not do to others if you do not wan that to befall onto u..."

This also explains why I couldn't fully agree when you asked if we could still be friends if we ever broke up. Cos I know that, given the same scenario like KPH's, I would never be able to accept the fact/able to handle my feelings of not having the rights to be upset. (This won't apply if it's related to cheating)

This puts your reputation as stake too. Yes, I rather have the 'arrogant, fierce & anti-social' first impression engraved in everybody's head, than the 'she is just like that ' saying from all!

Seriously, from younger days till now, 90% of friends whom know me, had this impression. But I don't really care, cos I know, once all of you have know me well, will eventually realized that I'm not like this! :P

Many this or that was mentioned in this very posting.

On the bottom line, it's your decision that determines whom you really are.

Cheating...

What’s your say? On cheating? As for mine, I had already expressed my views on this topic several times on my blog. (Go search if you haven’t read it :P)

Paper cannot wrap fire. A guy whom some of us know, happens to be two-timing on his supposedly very-in-love foreign gf.

So will you tell a acquaintance that you actually know about it and give advise? Or choose to be quiet? As for the few of us whom saw/spotted him, we chose to be quiet since he wasn’t really close to us either.

But to my girl friends, please be warned of this fellow. :)

Patience is the key

A night of sadness/anger for many, a night of chaos for those sitting by the roadside, a night of love...

I probably had a little too long a nap awhile ago; I decided to read some stuffs; your writings, right from the start...but after reading a few posts...I wanted to write myself too.

I know I was gonna tell you sometime later this week, to put aside/throw this one item of hers, when I pass you something which I had gotten for you during my recent trip. (I didn't buy it for the sake of giving you something, but becos it's cute! =P)

Yes, I still remembered, the day we announced our relationship to the rest...on the bus...when you took out your own set of that items & was figuring who the owner and later recalled it was her.

This has made me cringed a little, even after few weeks, when you took them out; I admit...I stared to see if hers were still there. For I know, the both of you have broken up long time back, it just made me wondered why you are still keeping it.

Only 1 had seen me struggled over whether I should be telling you about this or not. And even gave ideas on how I should go about doing it. Not only do I have to decide on which crappy methods I should use, I had to deal with the one A.S. woman, whom indirectly because of her supposedly wrongdoings...has brought us together.

Yes, these had formed my frustrations over the past few days, which I would have never wrote/tell/mention on it.

But now, I tell myself, patience is the key...it’s silly & ridiculous having thoughts on why you had keep that item, thoughts on what that A.S. woman is trying to do... for I know I already have you.

And like what I have said, you already stood a position in my heart. That explains why the night before, when you told me those words which I really really hate hearing it from you, I still cried. Now, reading the whole sentence again, I realized I probably missed out on the real meaning of those words.

Despite the flashbacks on my past while we walk on the streets of boat quay, despite us spending lotsa time helping others with their ‘misfortune’...

You just make me feel like loving you more, cherish every little time we have for each other and I do wanna see that our relationship will go to the very end.

I Love You.

Also...

Thank GOD, for your patience on me, for telling me to suppress my anger and not to be bothered over such silly things & for bringing KC to me.


P.S.: I still don't like those words/that sentence...okie? So, please don’t say it! I also remembered you told me that, 'Men don't take hints, so please say out the next time'. But for your sake, I decided to not say out what is that one item in this post. The only clue would be that item/word was being mentioned twice =X

Be smart. But don’t be a smart alec.

Kiang jiu ho, mai gei kiang.

Stop faking it. Stop pretending that you know everything. Stop asking me to do this and that. Stop wasting my time, for you already wasted many peoples’ time. Stop destroying the bond between all of us.

You never fit in as you have sinned badly. Trust and friendship is gain through time & sincerity but you are no where there yet.

You better know your limits of what you can and can not do. I can’t be bothered if you are born Chinese, Ang Moh, Hindu, Japanese, Alienated or Bitchnated.

I'm not anal about this becos I DON'T REALLY LIKE YOU, but your actions made EVERYBODY NOT TO ACCEPT YOU.

Don’t even test my patience. You won’t wanna see the other side of me.

Let this be the first warning.

Too new? No substance?

What’s the point of calling me into a meeting when I can’t say anything? Worst, when I already gave the solution from the start, you had to shun me aside, yet use what I said to conclude the whole discussion? Also, didn’t you even realise that you had created a fool outta yourself by being so stubborn with the requirements? Didn’t they already explain on the product and settled on the case before? Please do your homework/remember what was being discussed in previous meetings. 3 Ka Queen, you really suck big time.

Nonetheless, I’m proud of myself. At least I know I’m still awake despite not having enough sleep. The discussion above used to be one of the products that I have the least confidence handling it of. I guess I have a long way to go in convincing my boss that I’m better. But do I really needa convince her on it? I know I don't need to, in my heart that is, and eventually she will find out.

Sleepy day!

Woke up at 5am to send my sis to the airport! She left for her poly attachment which will last for 2-3 months! Both of us cried a little this morning as this is the first time she goes away on her own. The other 2 classmates whom are going with her are of another race? Erh...I think she’s so gonna miss pork and probably would be lonely. But I'm sure gonna miss 'bullying' her as nobody will help to cover up for me when I go back late and nobody to help me throw the aircon water! HAH!

I couldn’t nap on the bus to work as well. The driver just keeps repeating the same message which nobody really bothers to listen except me. “Ding dong, please move to the back of the bus so as to...etc” The dumbest thing was, since the bus is already packed and nobody is alighting, why does the driver keeps stopping at every stop? Total waste of time!

Just walking around...

As I had an hour to kill before my sis & mom arrived for dinner. I suddenly wanted to write and walked to where 'Popular' bookstore realizing it being closed for renovation!

Tampines Mall had improved quite alot and since the last time I've been there was either just to watch movie or to get daily necessities, I didn't noticed a new wing/new shops!

There is this shop which caught my attention was Artbox; selling cheap stuffs imported from Korea, such as stationery, decorative stuffz and most importantly they have a wide range of writing pads which I could write on! They come in all sorts of designs, classy, cute, simple...whatever you name it, they have it! Well, except sexual ones of cos. Tsk tsk* The simple me definitely took those that has simple prints. For, I love simplicity. =)

Next, I went into 'Precious Thoughts' as they are having some opening sale! The vain side then took over me again. I've bought another mirror! Well, this time round is a mirror to be placed on my desk and the other is a pocket mirror which I had gotten in KL for my daily usage.

New purchase!


The 'evil stepmother' 1! Nice right?
(But I'm not evil one la) Hehe!



The two possible reason over this sudden craze for mirrors could be...
Firstly, I do not have a mirror in my room! I have to go to the living room to check on my hair, what I wore, whether the shoes are matching, etc...which can be kinda tiring & messy as sometimes I just can't make up my mind of what to wear out =X

Secondly, it could be because I'm dropping sizes! Yippee!! I've lost weight over the past few months from dieting and exercising! It just feels so good as I can now find clothes more easily than ordering from overseas. But that does not stop me from buying from sprees either. As I still find foreign designs (clothes & bags) more appealing! And maybe its becos I like to be different, unique, one of a kind, whatever you call it. At least, when you walk on the streets, it is unlikely that someone is wearing the same as you do. Following trend, or setting trend. You decide! =P

I think this motivates me more in losing weight...and yes...I was a T-shirt + Jeans person for quite awhile too! Cos I don't see the need to wear so nice when I'm working my ass off at work!!! Nvm about the past, should look forward!

What made me worried a little was that recent travel trips and double sessions per mealtime had made my weight constant! Oh no! This is not good as I needa cut down more! To at least get away from the 'overweight' range and to at least fit onto 1 of Darling's list of criteria...

Ahh no!!! Wrong mindset! It means getting healthier!!! I needa work harder! I know I can! Positive thinking is half the work done! I needa get back to the boring routine/diet again. Will proper write out the plan tmr as I needa sleep early today!!! There is still plenty of housework to do too!

P.S.: I think I will get another mirror/cupboard? As those mirror which I had bought are not of body size!!! =X

A reminder...

Woke up kinda early this morning & began reading threads on an old forum.

What really surprise me was that a C.E. wrote this... "Thou shall not do to others if you do not wan that to befall onto u..."

This is something which I had live upon & will continue to do so :)

Memories on Roti Prata...

Some prata conversation on TGOP made me recall on some past memories.

You have tried to drag me out for that prata outing which I did not go. It was kinda worrying when 3/4 of those whom went for the outing, got diarrhoea after that.

I went to the area few days after and found myself sms-ing you which you said that we should meet up but I just kept diverting the topic.

Later that night, I had a long chat with nana, lui & bubble and… (pls read Dec 15th 07’s post)

As I read through my past dec postings again, I realised that the feeling was already there but I was just too afraid to do anything about it.

So...Fate really plays a big part in one’s life isn’t it? =)

Empty vessels make the most noise!

My mood turned better after meeting Darling last night.

I was really in a foul mood even while walking to the building and almost witnessed an accident at the traffic light junction.

There could have been a bad collision if one of drivers didn’t brake on time and that I might have been affected as well cos I was just 1 or 2 meters away! That sorta woke me up from my frustrations at work and I told myself… I shouldn’t let it affect me. For work = money, what for bother even if those two bitches keep shouting? Just let them shout lo! Empty vessels make the most noise!

After seeing you & listening to the tracks that you were playing, I had calmed down and already not thinking of those bitches. =)

Cranky!

I’ve been feeling kinda cranky ever since I came back from holidays and it’s mainly because of the 2 bitches at work.

I simply have no idea why they had to shout at us (me n another one of my colleague). I see no good reason why they should start shouting around even if they feel stress or whatsoever. These affects my mood totally & made me thought if I had made the correct decision of not taking up the post which was being offered by my boss. :(

Back from Genting

I juz came back from Genting trip with friends and it was fun!!! But I miss YOU!!! Thought I could see you today but you are sick again :(

Just some random pictures which was taken!

Teddy bears from Lovely Lace~~~


Ah har! Ain't this interesting. Front and back of it! *Kinky*!


Fridge cum vending machine? You could really put coins in to earn some $$~!


Attitude!!! Totally showed mine angry attitude back in office!



Had also uploaded some people pics, but it's on my friendster =X

Men - Pornography & Womanizing

I just finished lunch with my female colleagues…and yeah all of them are married & two are pregnant now.

Our lunch talk today was about Men - Pornography & Womanizing. They talked about men watching pornography & on men seeking women on the net for sex.

As for pornography, I guess this is only natural for them to watch it, but to ogle over it...hmm... It all depends on how you look at it…in a way, the couple could learn/spice things up outta it? Anyway, I do have a supply of it from friends (they just send me, I did not ask for it), but I’ve got minimal time to watch it these days. Hah!

As for seeking woman on the net for sex...this kept me wondering why one would want to do so. Outta curiosity? Outta loneliness? Cheap thrill? I seriously have no idea...

This brought us to another topic on womanizing. To reiterate, I have zero tolerance on this and if my man did sleep with another/did something unfaithful to me, I will not allow any chance or forgive him at all, it’s a clean break or a divorce (that is after marriage of cos). But my colleagues said that I was wrong as I do not have any kids now. And women change especially when they have kids; it’s a different story!

But to me, with or without kids, I will still stand on what I said. Perhaps it’s just me…whom grew up quite independently & for what I have gone through, I will survive; I believe that there is simply no reason for one to go astray, even if there is some problems between the couple, the both should try to solve the problem before anything else could happen. Nevertheless, it will still be definite a ‘shift + del’.

I'm missing you...

I will probably be sleeping rather early recently so as to absorb more solar power in the morning =X

Even though my mind's packed with work, the decision to be made by Friday & also being a little frustrated over the highness's saga.

I'm missing you... :(

Back stabbed

I got stabbed hard on my back by Highness. Didn't know she was tat cunning to the extent of doing it while I was away.

Though her acting was good, but all saw/treat it as another show only. Now...many want to boycott her wedding in Sept & even mentioned to give an empty red packet.

I didn't have to say much to my colleagues; only showed them the log on what Highness had chatted with me the other day.

Anyway, I'm not afraid of your nonsensical complains which you had made up.

You'll get what you gave. May God Bless You.

Gloomy? Not so Gloomy Monday?

I think many are having their Monday Blues. As for me...I guess it’s a mixture of both?

1. Saw Mdm. Cheong at 2.60 shop in a very serious discussion on the phone, when I passed by her, I was then caught in to a work situation whereby her negligence might hit with some audit problems on my side.

2. I thought I was going to get a scolding today from my boss, but it turned out not like what I had expected & I’m glad my colleagues had explained/cleared the misunderstanding while I was away.

3. Manfu came to me and complained that he feels like leaving the company. The same reason like what I gave others as well which is to “find a job before leaving”. Well, if he does leave, I guess I will have one less noisy person in the company. Peace? Or less 1 talk-cocker person around? Hmm...

4. Came to know about the passing of TY, whom is one of our company’s head... Though I didn’t deal much with you at work in the past, your smile will always be remembered. Rip.

5. Bubble passed me some birthday cards yesterday for circulation to those sharing presents. This made me thought of a few things...Life is fragile. Please treasure it!

6. Met the daily cleaning auntie at the pantry and she asked why I was so tanned & mentioned I had slimmed down… Suddenly felt a little happy but one thing which did not made my mind rest was the health report which I received yesterday.

Well, everything is fine/normal except that my red blood cell count is more than normal range? And that results in iron deficiency and/or thalassemia trait. The terms sounded alien to me… but I guess I probably will go for another check to make sure everything is okie?

Cheers!
Hoping your day will be fine…

Busy week

Looks like this coming week is gonna be kinda busy for me as I needa complete my report before I go Genting!

On one hand, I know I should not have agreed to go cos of my busy work period. On the other hand, I think it would be really fun to travel all together!

All I can only hope is that there will be no emo sessions during the trip. :X

My body clock is screwed!

I keep waking up at 4plus in the morning for the past few days!!!

It feels good to be back in SG!!! Last 8 days had been enjoyable...though short...the time seemed so long! Being able to see you last night had finally quenched all my missing you days.

Dinner was great too! Let's go back there again...even if its not for the foie gras.
*tsk tsk* :)

I'm finally home!!!

Day 7 - 10th April 08: Woke up at 4am as I couldn't sleep...Partly because my body clock is a little messed up and I'm really missing lots! Though I know I will be seeing you in another day or so but I just kept thinking of you :(

I went for a walk at around 5plus in the morning and the sky was beginning to brighten up. I walked to the furthest end of the resort and found the perfect spot to see sunrise & I sat there thinking of you again.

My last trip to Pulau Redang & current trip in Kapalai seems to be the first time I'm missing someone so badly!

Suddenly I just felt so stupid over crying on the last incident. I know you will not hurt me like that guy did but I just suddenly felt so afraid. And this is a fear I must overcome! Sorry Darling, I really didn't doubt on you... it's just me and sorry if I had made you worried/frightened.

I still can't sleep after 8 plus and there's a thunder storm here again. The rain gotta stop, else my gears will still be wet and it's gonna be heavy! Argh!

We, finally left Kapalai at 1pm & I felt like tearing. I'm gonna miss this place alot. God knows, when I will be back here again? The smiley & helpful staffs, this lovely place, the dives....these will always be remembered.

As we bid each other goodbye(Jon, Ron & Seng are extending their stay) and when the staff came to the jetty area to say goodbye to us...the last 7 days began to flash back and made me smile.

Goodbye Kapalai - Sipadan, till we meet again!

Reached King's Hotel at about 4pm after having a power nap on the van to Tawau.
My roommate later left the hotel room for foot reflexology and I'm in the room writing this, doing my facial and listening to my ipod.

As we gonna celebrate Mary Jane's birthday, we went for seafood which the hotel staff had recommended.

In this little town, it wasn't that boring after all. We shopped and I'm so glad that we were greeted by Chinese! It's good as I do not need to converse so much to someone whom do not know how to speak English anymore...

The whole town was filled with shops, cafes, hotels & many Karaoke lounge. Well, this isn't the same as Top One, but those cubicle types where you needa insert coins for each song. It certainly brought back memories of those old time KTV singing moments.

Seafood dinner was awesome & pretty cheap and they really had alot of varieties! Even the drinks! As there was a downpour again, we stayed at the area taking candid pictures & drinking...We proceeded to a cafe later on where we had Teh Tarik & celebrate Mary Jane's bday with a cake. She looks as if she was gonna teared or something...given for me...I probably would :X

Great Bunch of people!!! Even though I had only know some for them for only 8 days!
We'll meet again for diving...someday....somewhere...God bless all of you!!!

Cheers! Watching Man U vs Roma's match & Carlos Tevez juz headed a goal!

Happy... Gonna see you in a wink! MUacks!

Sipadan - Day 6

I bought the most expensive Japanese bread ever and used tampons for the very 1st time today. Gosh! Lucky we only did 2 dives today else the whole trip I will be followed by sharks? Which is good in a way… =x

I had expected the resort to sell such stuffs, but at such kinda price, you don’t have a choice do you?

I am getting really tanned from this trip & I love it! In fact, I always think that tanned people look cool and sporty than those fair ones! The only thing is I probably looked like a Thai now & dunno if Darling can still recognise me? Talking about being tanned…I’m really burnt now and it hurts so badly that even wearing bra is painful! So, don’t touch me! I’m in pain! I’ll slap whoever hits my back! HAHA!

Dive 1: My 70th Dive! And it feels good to be able to dive freely but I still have lots to learn! Lawrence asked if I would want to join in for Anilao, Philippines. He mentioned it would be enjoying it as it will be lotsa muck diving! But I guessed I needa plan abit first…such as the budget, etc.

Dive 2: Barracuda Point! My last dive for the trip and it probably be the last dive in Sipadan? =( I do not know when I will be coming back since I had already been here consecutively two years. I also had my nickname given by the group being as ‘the Barracuda Babe” & the ‘Force Fins spokesperson”.

Well, I chased after the school of Barracudas again today. Once I saw the Dive Master- George giving signals on the Barracudas, I charged over to see them form the mini swirling tornado before they decided to swim off. The force fins are real good too. Firstly, you could walk with it, weight is light, can fight currents (done that) and you can really go fast with it. Yippee!! So who wanna race with me now? Haha!!

My gears are up for a tanning session now...I hope they will be dried by tomorrow morning as we will be leaving to King’s Hotel in Tawau . I’ve never been there and I hope it’s not too boring!





It’s star gazing night and they are just too beautiful and you don’t get this kinda view in Singapore.

How I wish you are just beside now to see this…

Cheers! Two more days to seeing you…




Day 5 - 8th April 08: I concussed after 5 dives in a day & a few drinks after dinner with the rest and slept like a baby till the sun woke me up the next morning.

Updates on Day 5’s dive will be comes later!

Sipadan - Day 4

Happy 1 month & many more! Sorry, my Darling tat I am not in SG to be with you…and now that you are sick again? :( I promise I will make it up to you ok?

Great dives today…managed to squeeze in 5 dives today but after going through all 5 I’m very tired now...

Will update the dives when I come back to SG.

Needa sleep soon again as going for dawn dive again tmr morning. Please…no more 4 knots current too.

Cheers!

Please get well soon…

Sipadan - Day 3

Sorry, my Darling! For not replying on your messages & picking on your calls as my phone wasn’t with me since I landed! I am safe & sound here, even though I slipped and fell coming out from the bathtub and had a deep cut on my toe… Opps! Just a little gushing of blood outta it & a blue black on my knee, but I’m fine! :X

I woke up at 4 plus smelling the rain and went to bring in all our clothes from the balcony. As my bed was the closest to the balcony & I slept the opposite direction just to have a glimpse of the waters whenever I open my eyes…I could by then, around 5am see lotsa lighting flashing across the sky. It’s beautiful yet scarey at the same time thinking there could be a huge thunder storming coming…

Towards 6am, the windows from the other room were already flapping mad causing the slamming sound against the room structure.

Blessing in disguised.

Firstly, the wind was not blowing into the balcony direction, else my bed and I would have gotten wet!!!

Secondly, my bags were places near a platform in the corner of the room and not near any windows. As my two other roommates were still sleeping, I had to help by closing all windows, locking them tight before I transferred all their bags to a dry area.

Thirdly, Lucky for us, we were supposed to go for dawn dive at 5.30am but it was cancelled due to another group of divers who will be leaving today and that they only allow 20 divers for dawn dive per day! Better luck for the group whom missed it this morning!

By the time, I finished writing the above, the waters had calmed down & the sun was out! Yeah…the sun is up around 6am here, which caused me a fright on the first day as it was so bright, I thought my alarm did not sound and that I missed the first dive! Haha!


People always say… the sunshine comes after the rain? We’ve got the rainbow! Two of them! Breakfast is complete! Haha!

All 4 dives were fantastic as I experience various stuffz today.

First dive was at Barracuda Point – Sipadan, beautiful corals and marine life, fat sharks and huge turtles and a 2.5 knots current! I was panting hard fighting against it and managed to hide under a rock with a school of barracuda passing through! Terrific view!!!

I almost puke on the second dive at South point – Sipadan, but it was rather “fun” being caught in the ‘washing machine current”, all of us were swinging, back and forth and sideways!

Third dive was at Seaventure Oil Rig – Mabul… Macro, macro & more macro! I love it!!! This is one of my longest dives ever, almost an hour bottom time!

Forth dive was a sunset dive at Mandarin valley – Kapalai. Our main motive was to see ‘ porn show’…I meant mating mandarin fishes but the others were just going too fast! I was still at the area searching for the cuties but I noticed my dive maters were already too far from me! They were at least 10meters away? With my force fins, I better chiong to join them in case they think I’m lost! Nevertheless, I still spotted quite a few stuffz by myself and even showed it to them.

I’m beginning to love night dives but I needa purchase an underwater torch for myself. Thanks Ron, for loaning yours to me. Appreciate it!

I needa sleep pretty soon as tomorrow we have to wake up at 4am to go for dawn dive.

Cheers! To see the school of humphead parrotfish tomorrow!!!

Missing you even more today…

Sipadan - Day 2

Whenever I mentioned the word Sipadan, many would give me the ‘where is this place’ look.

Taken the following off a brochure: Sipadan is actually located Southern Asia Sabah, Malaysian Borneo, and five degrees north of the equator in the Sulawesi Sea (Celebes Sea). It is an oceanic island and was formed by living corals growing on top of an extinct undersea volcano, which rises 600m from the seabed.

The place I stay at is Kapalai Island, a sand bar sitting on top of the reef known as the Ligitan reefs, a very extensive stretch bordering the deep and vast Celebes sea. Sipadan - Kapalai dive resort is actually a water village style resort built above the water.

For the amount you pay for this place, there must be good stuffs, isn’t it? Given 3 boat dives to either Sipadan/Mabul/Kapalai each day & unlimited shore dives. The ‘garang’ me want to do as much dives as I can!

But time was rather rushed today, so I did only 4 dives…

The 1st dive, which was the checkout dive, was a little messed up? Can you just imagine 16 divers charging to the same area at the same time? It was rather chaotic as all of us are of different standards. Water visibility wasn’t that fantastic either as not only many hit the sandy bottom, which created sand storm and also the tides were coming in. And so I decided that I would probably go to the back of the group so I can see more & spend more times taking pictures.

2nd dive was good too as it was almost effortless as all of us were just drifting with the flow of current! Nah…I still required lotsa strength in order to fight against the mild currents, wanting to take pics!!!

3rd dive was at Kapalai – mid reef & there were plenty to see…

4th dive was at Kapalai’s House reef, the Mandarin Valley… which I thought, was the best accomplishment so far! I went for a night dive with 4 other gal divers without my instructor! Well, I do keep in mind what Lawrence had taught me and really use the knowledge taught into good use (not that I don’t for my other dives..hehe!) But it’s different! I’ve got to make sure all of us stay within sight, make sure tat they are ok at all times and yet trying to spot stuffs in the dark! Not only that, all the safety stuffs got to come in, all the safety stuffs got to come in…such as beware of dangerous marine life, the duration in the waters, depth, etc. Dang, it's a good training to be a Dive Master isn't it? HAHA!

The funny thing was that I felt cold in the waters and wanted to sneeze. You people would have known that I’m famous for multiple sneezes and sneezing in the waters??? Challenging!!! But nah... I was holding it and using mind power not to sneeze.

P.S: Pictures & more information on the dives come later as I did not bring my camera cable & marine life identification book.

Cheers! We’ll head to dive at Sipadan Island tomorrow! Yippee!

Thinking of you…

Sipadan - Day 1

I guessed I have an opposite from Darling!! Probably it’s because I have more positive ions? Haha! I tend to write more & ideas just run freely in my mind when I am happy! Thus, on the plane…with my notepad packed in my bag, I am using up all puke bags found available near my seat!

Was watching various comedy clips such as Backkom, Mr Bean & Just for laughs. I’m feeling kinda sleeping as I only slept for two hours yday. The sad thingy was my green tea body scrub was being thrown! It’s my mistake as I did not check & remember on the requirements.

Feeling kinda full now as we had Wang Jiao for breakfast. The half boiled eggs are simply irresistible! Now, food is being served on the flight… Chicken noodles! I am feeling too full to eat but I just forced myself on the vege which I do need them for fibre. I love eating bread!! And on flights, I sometimes could requests for quite a lot. But now, I just want to cut down on my intake. Yes, to be healthier & someone with more confidence, to be able to spend more time with you…

Realized I should not be lazy as well & to start reading more news articles/books. For the very first time, I am reading on the soccer section hoping to at least learn a little more on Darling’s team. After reading, I think I should start by remembering players’ names & read up more on the rules of the game. The only time I watched soccer in the past was when I was betting. Well, I was working with all males; so generally, you need to somehow blend in… I won quite a lot though since I always have the luck! But now I have stopped betting; the $$ could be for better use ☺

Looks like we will be at Kapalai earlier than expected since the itinerary was to stay at Seafest Hotel – Semporna before we proceed to Kapalai the next day. We reached Kapalai dive resort around 4pm & pity it was too late for any dives today. Had a briefing session on the resort and a short intro among the group. It’s amazing how 14 individuals from various parts of the world can come to the same place diving together!!!

Our names on the board!



Un-geared and checked in to our room and was being welcomed by the beautiful sunset. There I was whipping out my camera capturing the moment. The only thingy lacking now is YOU being by my side...





We had dinner at 7pm and it was a mass intro session again.
My instructor, Lawrence never allowed us to drink but this trip we are all having rum & coke after dinner. Well, don’t worry…since I can type so much now. I’m not drunk.

Cheers! Will be resting early tonight for diving tomorrow.

Missing you…

I just wanna say...

Felt so much wanting to say the following to my DEAREST DARLING KC aka Sky aka 'muffin'(ya ya the girly nick) aka bak kwa... but juz don't wanna disturb him doing work.

Apologies that I'm unable to accompany you for the next 8 days!!

Please do take care of your health while I'm away...cough must eat pipagao...ulcer must use bonjela leh!!! DRink more water!!!

Don't tire yourself out working/thinking too hard. You needa get enough rest too!!! Oh ya, careful not to fall down the steps at ur office too.

I wished I did not planned this trip way in advanced since last year...I could have proper use the $$$ on many things for us instead.

Do concentrate on your work this following week & may everything flow smoothly.

Sheesh, no idea why I'm beginning to talk like this. But guess it's becos I'm already missing you even b4 I leave for my trip to become your 'toot toot' lookalike...

p.s.: *JEALOUS*!!! waH LAO...how can you go hArm0nica's home so many times but not mine???

Your concern...

Your concern posed to me yday, was something which I already had in mind.

I din't mention to you...But I prayed to God to watch over you and that you'll be able to get the biz deal while I was away diving in Redang.

I might have done some stepz wrongly, but it was based on what I've recalled learning many years ago...

I mentioned to you before on...I was almost baptized but due to certain life/death matterz which happened in my family, this move was being delayed.

Please have patience with me, cos I'm not really a reading/easily decipher words person. Furthermore, my brain needs sun to operate =X

But I still kept the bible in my private drawer which was given to me many years ago. And I do browze through it whenever I have time...

And it looks like we will not be free for any more outings on Fridayz & Sundayz. :)

Smiling. Friends.

It's Singapore Fashon Festival, their slogan is 'Say it with Fashion. Priceless'
But my slogan is...'Say it with a smile. Priceless!!!'

What Ichi said is right...but I wanna tweak it!!!
"Smile & the world smile with you... Cry & you'll cry alone..."

Thanks May, for accompanying me during lunch yday. Though I din't have much appetite to eat, but the few bites on the sandwich was good. You are one friend whom I gained thru SH, and I do appreciate your effort to learn while working under my supervision. A sincere, smiley & chirpy gal whom never fails to crack jokes while I was super stress... And THANKS for sharing with me on your business, I wish you all the best that you will do well in this industry!!! :)

As I wrote on TGOP forum...

Quote:
Friends to me are those whom stay true to you.
even the slightest fault you have, they will tell/let you know so you can kick the habit...
given the worst times, they will stay by you... and during happy times...all will haf a good time/laugh together...

i think the above aso relates to r/s ba...

i'm glad i have a bunch of good frens since sec sch...cos we really been thru lots.
tats why i try my very best to treat all those i know the same way too...hoping to gain more good frens...

Sounded very emo eh?? But hey... Cancerian are emo people!!!

Friendship is something which I do treasure alot.

I'm glad I see the quality in YOU too...especially when you helped Jay!!! You showed patience & guidance to him while others didn't. His problem is something which we really needa help him on...

do remember... "By helping others, you help yourself!!!" :)