ever been in a situation when u are inching out to reach something... but something dropped on your hand...so u retract back again?

i guess i am feeling that recently...and i simply do not know what to do.

love the xmas tree which was made out of teddy bears. can be found at conrad :)

was 'practicing' this new song by Fish Leong, "给未来的自己". kinda love this song...especially the lyrics!

but...i doubt i can be so strong & courageous like the way the song is...

was at woodlands for dinner today at botak jones. i ordered cajun chicken but it was too spicy & huge portion for me(kenna sabo-ed by lui)!



after dinner, we went tigerlady's hse to give her a surprise with her xmas pressies before we head to thomson for prata??? no way!! i'm like too full so i just order drinks. *almost puke in the van*

had a long and good chat with nana, lui & bubble. and what they had said, kept me thinking... was i really isolating myself cos of the past? or what? sighz*

tired tired. completed most of my work but there are still several things to be check with LX2 BUT she has gone for dinner & yet to come back after an hour. i'm almost drained out but i guess i still have to stay and learn things from her. dang. im not really a night cat leh. im solar powered & there's no sunlight to absorb energy from in the night! argh!

The Golden Compass~~

Marc sent me a link to the following...

I’m solitary, clever, fickle, flexible and assertive. Haha!!


Looks quite cool, probably i will go watch the show tis wkend.

Crazy over stars~

Recently I'm so crazy over stars; I bought lotsa accessories with stars designs!
Few pairs of earrings & a pendant from Agnes B...

Now, I think I might want a star tattoo as well!

Unfortunately, Singapore is not a good place for stars glazing...but when i go for my dive trips to Msia...the night sparkles! ting ting! Haha!

this weekend was boring. i had to go back office but both days were wasted trips cos the info wasn't generated yet.

this means the next few days will be very busy for me as i need to finish my reports by 13th! :(

wasn't tat bad after all as i had my colleagues, friends & my sis to accompany me today.
i had breakfast at Kiliney Kopitiam with YH & Sasa.

















lunch with Man fu & Golden May @ waraku...

I preferred the teriyaki chicken while the sashimi & sushi was soso only...

Man fu also gave me a very gd advise: It doesn't matter what had happened but things happen for a GOOD reason. Who knows, whatever comes next might be better? Oh well, how true...but...aiyah...nvm.

















Dinner was at subway with my sis as we went for a show after tat.

















my b0ss gave me a pair of tix to "Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium"
Colorful, magical, inspiring. The moral of the show is...
1) It doesn't how old you are, as long you have really lived your life. (Doubt somebody can understand this)
2) Believe in yourself & Do not give up, you'll never know what magical things you can create.

It’s gonna be a tiring day as I dint have a good night sleep…it was simply too cold and I was like shivering throughout…and crying a little cos I was too angry.

Yesterday was supposed to be happy but it landed up quite bad towards the evening.

Happy as there was a company event and it was very entertaining & yes I bought donuts again!

BAD as I sorta slipped and sprained my ankle last night and I had to pretend nothing happen; bearing the pain while having dinner + a little shopping with my old fren.

I also came to know about why my old fren broke up his ex after 4 to 5 yrs; apparently it was because the girl had been two-timing him!

Be it whether it’s the guy or gal whom is at fault. I think the above had been very common which added on to my general / bad perception about relationships.

Attached? Married? So what? Still can break off, still can divorce.

Yes for sure…I’m not saying that you can’t have friends of the opposite sex when you are attached or married but there is always a line which you should not cross!!! That’s how both can maintain the friendship!!! But once you are over that line, I’m sure ‘accidents’ happen.

Of cos I’m proud & frank to say, I’m a good self-controller or whatever u call it. As long as someone has gf or married, I will always keep a distance. There are things which friends can do…and what lovers can do. I KNOW THE DIFFERENCE VERY CLEARLY.

Anyway, after getting home, my old fren and I decided to go into IRC to see how dead the channel was like after 12 yrs. It ended up about 5 of us, the pioneers of the channel talking nonsense in the channel and talking about the funny past.

What actually pissed me off was someone from forum whom know me and old fren...had played a joke too far. I don’t really understand why he had to pull my name in…to play in this sarcastic post of his. Maybe he’s trying to tell/prove to others that he’s not the most scandalous person? I still find that sometimes some jokes can be forgiven and some cannot. But watever it is...he had gone beyond my tolerance level.

Maybe I sounded serious and worked up…
I do not know what I am feeling now…Am I angry? Or am I just disappointed with what he said? I dunno… but nvm…just forget it.

Sometimes…things happen for a GOOD reason.

bought donutz from donut factory again today!
yummy yum yum~~~ they are the "in thing" now in Singapore and everybody's talking about it!!!











i wasn't able to buy assorted flavors cos the waiting time is 30minz for the new batch of donutz to be out!

but not too bad...5 outta 6 of peanut dark chocolatez! and they taste good =)~~

i was looking at my wanted list (see right)...and i have gotten all of the items...new pc, camera & divecom! Yippee!!

it's time to think of new 'want' things for 2008 =P


its xmas spirits everywhere...i was at paragon and suddenly i heard men singing & playing music! i looked up and that's what i saw...and their carol-ing are good!really made me feel abit of xmassie mood...

wow. I was talking a fren on msn about some jap show...and he says the description seems like it's animal + human incest show! but but but..the picture looks damn cute...so probably i might just watch it ;)

1st time ever,today, a guy whom doesn't know/like diving...talked to me about diving things and also discussed about some sea creatures...*SWEET* unlike others whom just asked...how much i spend on diving, whom i go with, got hanky panky or not. *DUH*

i love diving...cos its so beautiful underwater...and i see things which i don't see on land(of cos la).

oh well.........words cannot describe. u have to experience it for yourself :)

Almost 11 mths since I last blogged.. maybe I should start blogging again?

As usual, I had been very busy with work...

Aiyo...I 'saved' my mom from a fish bone today!

She was talking to me while eating then a fish bone got stuck at her throat. In the end, I had to use 2 fingers down her throat to reach the bone and try to pull it out.

Kinda panicky ah...cos she was rather hot tempered at 1st when i couldn't see it with a torchlight shining down her throat. Tats why have to use my fingers to feel it...

Thank God, I manage to pull the fish bone out. My sis was almost crying out. Talking about that, my sis hate eating fish cos she got choke by a bone before...

I spent my Xmas this year watching 'Bleach'! This anime is just so addictive!!!

Guess my plan for the new computer must be delayed as yday I went to sim lim square to check out...the things I want, is way over my budget. I still have to cater for the payment of my premium and also for my bangkok trip...

Sighz...one more month to wait till I get my next pay!

I attended a company event this morning where my co. donated a big amount to a center to help those terminally ill children. Elizabeth, the little girl whom I'm suppose to give her a x'mas present wasn't around but I had a short chat with her mom. I guess its quite tough on the girl & her parents to have gone through all these and I really hope she will get well soon. Next, i need to think on how I can contribute further...hope that this will make a difference in their life and also mine.

Anyway, my head is spinning now cos I have not been sleeping well lately. But thanks to Fiona for listening to my work woes. I feel abit better and know what to do next...

When people have troubles, they'll come find me. When I have feel troubled, sometimes I don't really know who to talk to. One thing is I don't wanna trouble other people... Another is... I guess I can solve it myself...

Feel very low morale today.

Don't understand why my mom always buy things for my sis. My home pc is spoilt, yet I have to wait till 31 Dec when I get my bonus. Not tat I want her to buy one for me, but I don't understand why she had to say ." pc spoilt? its becos i used it and i spoilt it myself..." But if its for my sis, it will be a different case...

Today they went out shopping, and all I said was..."wah buy new shoes for her". And she have to say, "then wat u want me to do? or u want me to die 1st?"

Suddenly I just felt so angry... I simply can't recall her buying a pair of shoes for me since I was in secondary school??? I still had to buy the simplest one, those with an elastic strap and wear till there are holes???

Sighs... I hope 31 dec will come fast. My pc is dying...I donno how I can survive without my pc, youtube & blogging. And also, i should have gone back to Perlyn's chalet today...

i should feel very relax after my exams...but why do i feel so vex??

Exam is over. But i did badly for it....*Sighz* Now, I'll juz pray that the rubbish i wrote can get me a pass!

Went for a crop session yday and it was fun! Hmm..its where a group of people gather to do their scrapbooking together! There were also the tombolo challenge, where we need to get certain items from the chosen person and use them on our layout. Kinda stress ah...cos we have to complete it in an hour? Haha!

I'm pretty much hooked on to this , youtube and hoping that the diving season opens soon...

Oh ya...youtube had taught me, if u want good stuffs, you got to be patience and wait!!! Haha!