i've juz got home...had dinner/movie/bowling/supper with a bunch of frens. the alien cj7 is so freaking cute! every sound tat came from it, makes me giggle. but stephen chow really got to work on the story line! it has been a great day...but...it's been a longgggggg time since i stay out so late...

when i was at MS juz now, i recalled how charsiew and me started dating which eventually led to my darkest period of time.

i asked myself again, can i really forgive myself being so stupid then? can i trust again?

time and time again, some guys have passed me by... but i guess...its really...有缘无份！！！either that...It would probably be...that I kept my emotions to myself due to certain reasons...

i recalled...val once told me to never stop trying...if i never try, i will never know... i know this is very foolish of me... but to me...its like....why bother to ask? since i already know the outcome???

nvm abt the above...it doesn't matter... cos i'm never in sight... :(

Chu2 morning, I've no idea why I woke up so early...

Probably it'z becoz I was too tired from yday's visiting session & I went to bed at 12!!!

Hmm...its the same CNY again, when relatives start to bombard you with nonsensical questions. This year, all wished me to get married soon... I was thinking to myself...with who???

I know I'm picking up again; washed off the past & becoming a happier person. I also need to burn off the fatchunks on me as well.

Knowing all these..somehow...I still cannot pick myself up to trust someone again.

Perhaps I'm just scared...scared that I'll fall again...

just did my PA for 2007 & i scored pretty good marks! Suddenly i wondered...what would have happen if I did not ask for the transfer...

For sure...I will still be as busy as ever & probably being sent to IMH already.

Im so much more happier in this dept; at least I have so much more time for myself now...and i needa gym more often than the past...like 3-4 times a week...which i had been quite consistent for the past few mths. :)

Gambatte, Lindy!!!

dang. think i needa train my patience as well.

i hate it when i'm discussing things & tat person just change topic to talk to others! it's so rude rude rude!

Never in sight...sighz!

looks like my 1st wish for 08 didn't come true eh? :(
but nvm...its only january, hope that things will turn out as per my wishes on 1st jan.

i think i really need to attend some anger management course or some tolerance course...else...i really don't understand why she is such a difficult person to live with.

well...today is not me whom quarrel with her already...but my sis instead. finally my sis tasted some of my anger previously har???

it puzzles me; i can communicate quite well with my dad...but why not her?? argh!

i know it isn't very good or filial...wanting to leave the house! but why must she always push me to the verge of doing so??? sighz.

Feel very depressed over the recent few incidents that I don't feel like talking to anybody. Is there some kind of magic that can cast me far far away? =(

Bus 518's timing is getting quite erratic these days; I have to wait 30mins for the bus??? WTH!!!

I decided to take the MRT instead but I realized...it's like surfing!!! Most of the time, the whole train is packed and I had to stand somewhere without any handle bars, balancing myself & try not to fall!!!

love the shoes but its torturing me!!!! argh!!!
looks like i needa banish it to the cold palace already :(

Spent my last day of 2007 with my bestest friends! A rooftop bbq & countdown session.
Picture to come later cos I really need some sleep now.

My first wish for the 2008 is for your well-being; I wish you will find a purpose in life soon than dwelling in the past. I want you to see how beautiful life can be. I really want you to find happiness.

Spend my 2007 last wkend with JE! Cut hair, shopping, talk nonsense...

I realised I did/had alot of '1st time' thingys for the past 2 mths. Went to tis so n so place for the 1st time, ate the so n so food for the 1st time. Met up with so n so for the 1st time, etc.

I really did spent too much time on work for the past few years har? And neglecting or avoiding alot of things!

But 2008 will be different. I will make things better; tats one of my resolution.

Let's all gambatte!!! =)

it's gonna be 2008 & i have set some resolutions!
1. to clear out whatever has been bothering me.
2. clock up to 80 - 100 dives
3. control my temper better
4. be nicer to my family

other than the above, i was thinking if 2008 will have 'you' involved.
i really wonder...


but i do believe 2008 will be a good year for me! :)

Carebear!!!

Did a quiz...and tats my results. hmm...quite true eh!

	Tenderheart Bear You are thinker, organizer, peacekeeper, and leader all in one. You have a power to command attention and people listen to you. However, you are often so concerned about not hurting others' feelings that you don't tell them what they need to hear and this gets you both into trouble. But you always have loyal friends to help you out.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

AS shared stories with us at 'Happenings' today as my dept's HOD.
He mentioned, "By helping others, you help yourself..."

I should make this as one of my resolution for 2008 too!

i love chocolates!!! hahaha chocolate overd0se tis xmas!
i'll marry the guy whom gimme chocolates!!! heh.

Was at Sasa's place for a xmas potluck party with the rest of my colleagues last evening. The food was terrific!!! (pics up later)

after dinner, half the group was playing wii and the other half was playing boardgames. it has been very longgggg since i last played any boardgames and it was fun!!! we played pictionary!~ haha! most of the time i was the one describing and drawing; vy and marc were the ones doing the guessing.

Back from BB's chalet!

I miss someone!! Dunno if tat someone missed me? LOL. *stupid me*
BUT suan le la...after much consideration...i think i shouldn't pursue on...and it wasn't meant to be...so I'm in the giving up and forgetting stage.
(struggling feeling i noe, but i will try to do it.)

Anyway, was at aloha changi for bbq cum mahjong session...it was supposed to be for SH's ppl but most din't make it except me; so i ended up with all bb's sec schmates.

the barbeque session wasn't very good cos of the rain...our food were either not cooked or already drenched by the rain.

mahjong session was good though...bb's frens were quite a funny bunch. but towards 5-6am...i was already zombied. haha!!

okie, i better go zzz now as i have another party later :)

merry xmas!!!

Enjoying the holiday...

I went for facial/pedicure & I love my new nail color :)

Nothing much today....i went mahjong-ing with dada, louis & jenn. This is my first time playing with them and it was rather fun! Phew! They are quite fast players but I like it! Today's luck was not too bad; I won a little to cover my transport...Hehe!

after thinking...i decided not to reach out to whatever i was trying to reach.
tats to save myself from some hard facts which will lead to painful situations.