I'm not a robot...

I'm still human & not made of steel/metal/bronze ok, and not as great as everybody finds me to be. I still feel some sort of frustration & sadness sometimes when I can't get to meet you each day or when some things don't get in my way. But I'll learn that it's not my way, it is God's way - for me to be patient and understanding.

Colossians 1:16
For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him.

My heart says...

All the while, I have not thought much ahead till recent happenings to myself. A big decision which I had made, not only for myself but ‘for whatever the matter’ is too. While I always thought I could do it; when come to the actual situation, I could not. And this was the biggest guilt in my mind...

Having thoughts into the future because of the above (but this has been in my mind even before any of you might have know me). Simplicity - that's all I ever wanted. And if you want to talk about marriage; I want a happy marriage & marriage vows to be exchanged in a church with the one I love and love me. These vows are significant and meaningful that it overwrites anything! I have never thought of wanting a wedding ceremony neither nor to live in a big house. I want no celebration, no decorations, no buffet, etc. Perhaps these were things which someone else might have wished for, but these are certainly not what I want!!!

You also mentioned that you feel it’s only right to provide and had/gonna spent lotsa time trying to build this. Much as I understand your well-planned intentions, but during this process if we had neglected each others’ feelings, causing our feelings to fade or simple cease in time to come. No matter how much money one earns, we can never buy back the time loss and the feelings we had for each other.

Planning is always one thingy, striking a balance is another. I know it’s never easy for anybody to do so, but we just got to try & never give up.

As much as I hope that I can spent more time with you each day and that each weekend will be longer, I know this is not possible. But I still try my very best...

Somewhat my heart has not rested since the day we got together (sounds stupid, if my heart rest, it probably meant that I’m dead). No doubt, I want to shout out loud that I love you, and wanting more in our relationship; I am afraid I might fall badly and never to get up again. There are many fears in my heart and one of them which you already had mentioned, but I know God will give me strength, dispels all fears and always be my pillar.

Perhaps this is one of the reasons which lead me so close to God; there is no other whom I converse so much each day of my daily life.

There is so much that I want to help you with, in every aspect of your life but I know there are limitations to what I could do, except to pray – for patience & strength, for our healing and that we will grow further in this relationship, together with God.

Your horoscope for today.

You may have a hard time relating to people in social situations, Linda. Perhaps you are frustrated by hearing the same shallow conversations over and over again. While you stand there mingling with dozens of different people, all you can think of is how nice it would be if you could just be home alone on your own couch in front of the TV. Your best plan of attack is to simply avoid situations that you know you won't enjoy. There is no sense in torturing yourself.

Hah! The above has gotta be the best to describe my day. But I still went to meet my ex-colleagues + a 4 mth old baby today as they had been complaining that I had vanished.

Time & Chance Happens to them all

When's mine? *Sobz*

Things Happen for a Good Reason.

So many things happened recently; not only to myself, and also to other friends, till I do not know what I should be feeling now but just wanting to pray.

I understand that things happen for a good reason, however such trials of life isn't very fun and can hurt badly. It would be good if I'm made of metal but I'm not. My heart do aches.

And I pray... Please, my dear Lord. Help me! Keep me away from these...

Money No Enough 2

I went to watch 'Money No Enough 2' last night and it's been a long time since I laughed so much. Especially the part when the mother kept asking, "Ah Hui, you have come home ah? Have you eaten?" It was supposed to be a sad scene, but it was the way the question was being asked repeatedly and responded by Ah Hui which kept me laughing till I teared.

Other than this, the show does portray on the lives of Singaporeans these days. I applause Jack Neo's ideas of removing the ERPs gantries & making them into sculptures instead. Hah!

Abbreviations ...

Just got to know some new ppl recently and they tend to use abbreviations in their sms or conversations. Somehow or rather, I've got influence a little so I kept using it aso =X

The list of common ones which you'll see/seen me using would be:
PTL = Praise the Lord (Dun ask me y yday PTL x infinity, tat's a little secret.)
GBU = God Bless You

Others I used (but on GOP only bcos there are a few bo liao/emo/stubborn/attention seeking/very extra/irritating goonz around) <==agreed by two & more. Hahahahaha!:
DL = Dulan
VB = Vomit blood
GBW = Go bang wall

So all of you better get use to it okie? If I come up with new ones, will probably post here again. =P

PTL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

X infinity!!! =)

Trust...

Someone wrote in the forum about trusting your other half.

To be frank, be it my other half or anybody, I will try not to put so much trust on them. Even if I say I do trust KC; how about the people around him/us, whatsoever.

I agree when people say, if you keep hanging out with those 'pls fill in your own blanks', you will somehow get influenced too. An e.g., my colleagues always goes for branded goods, if I keep following them during lunch as they visit boutiques almost everyday, sooner or later, I MIGHT get tempted and fall into this little indulgence with them. And that's why I chose not to join them for lunch that often, else I will just go off after lunch.

Ahh...such desires... just one word = sad.

Another thingy is that we meet all sorts of people each day, be it good or evil, this is something we cannot control. Perhaps each of these people are sent down by God to test on your faith...

And only, we, individually can choose either to allow the good to do good or the evil to plant evil in your life. And the only way to guard yourself, is to keep remembering & following on His Word and I can't agree more when Frank wrote on, "Be wise in your dealing with strangers. And remember the Gospel."

The only one whom I can trust 101% now is God. For He is immutable & will always be there for me. He will not succumb to temptations and will always be the only righteous one. He provides and only want the best for me. And I will follow in this path which He has set out for me. =)

Hebrews 13: 8
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Revived game.

It's been couple of months since I last played badminton and I was thinking if I should join ATN's grp at Clementi today despite having to rush back to Tampines for my class. I was supposed to play last Friday but I was kinda sick and wasn't really in the mood to play. What I really miss was the group whom I used to play with early this year, from GOP that is, like with Da Jie, JY & KC of cos, etc. But unfortunately, it's not gonna happen anytime near future.

Thank God, Lilian smsed me yesterday to ask if I wanna join her and a bunch of ppl at a CC near my house. Simply Great! I can play once again and I do not need to travel so far! And guess what? It's sorta free!

Today's session was rather good, I just took a little longer during my warm up session. I'm probably the youngest among all but I had fun playing with all of them!

Anyway, I had to leave early as I had something on early afternoon, and yeah, was being invited to play with them every Sunday morning. Sweet! =)

Friends...

There has been many miscommunications between various friends recently.

And I really hate to be sandwiched in between them. No doubt I want the best on both sides, hoping that they don't bear grudges among with each other, but that's not what is happening.

Perhaps we just need a little patience, understanding & rid off the self-centerness.

But I'll continue to pray - that everything will be fine soon. All of us may not know each other long enough yet, but still, we should all treasure this friendship, staying united (as we used to be)...

Friends by Michael W. Smith

God knows...

I had a dream awhile ago (just before I woke up) & this time round, a dream which I could remember vividly.

I was trying to figure out why this sudden dream; was it related to any of my thoughts before I slept last night?

Then something hit me that God is telling me that He knows; everything that you do/did & everything you say/said. There is no escape from Him and no matter how much you can prove you are right, or things which you had resolved, whether its good or bad. You'll still have to answer to Him.

Aftermath.

And so the D&D ended with a Sony Bravia 46" LCD TV & not that it is of interest to me... Ahh! I was more glad that it was over!

I uploaded some pictures on my friendster if thats of any interest to you (more to come when my colleagues have sent me). And yeah pictures of me with colleagues dressing up as Heroes & Villains - as fictional it can be or simply just desires & fantasy of people wanting such supernatural powers. And no, I wasn't in any heroine outfit or whatsoever, just a simple dress for a simple me. =)

Now if you read the book of Ecclesiastes - King Solomon. The lesson in that chap teaches you whenever your thoughts become earthly and focus on things under the sun, you'll despair.

In simple, when you focus & live life on your desires, your life will be unfulfilled.

Okie okie I will stop here before anybody starts hitting my head.

Anyway, enjoy the pics! Go guess who is the majesty, queen & highness!

Annual D&D - Superheroes!

It's my Annual D&D Day and this year will be on Superheroes! Unfortunately this time round, it will be less exciting/fun as I cannot imagine my team wearing any superheroes outfit =X

I reckon most are going for the prizes & free food only. Did I mention that last year's first prize was a trip to Mauritius + a sum of $$$? Ahh!

Anyway, I hope I have abit of fun tonight despite all the loud shouting n stuffs.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Time & Chance Happen To Them All.

The other day there were many caterpillars hanging on the trees, and I wondered where did all the butterflies gone to. Today I saw a bunch of them circling around my feet playing with me.

The other day I was wondering when will I get to meet the daughter of my favorite president? Today she spoke to me and drove me home; A humble lady whom can cook very well indeed.

=)

I'm so touched.

Thank you, May, for your little belated birthday gift and card.

Thank you, My Lord, for blessing me with such a good friend. =)

Just keep praying...

I'll be fine with Lord Jesus.

Rainy Morning!

I did a very unglam thingy by wearing slippers to work today! It was raining heavily in the east and since there is so much construction going on near my neighborhood. I just can't resist wearing slippers!

This makes me recall those younger days when going to school with the almost painted white school shoes. And during raining days, most of us just wear slippers in order not to dirty them.

Do you remember your mom nagging at you to wash your shoes? To paint them after it drys up? Or you just simply just throw it in the washing machine? Well, I really do know of people whom does this! =P

Happy 4 Months!

Congrats on clinching the deal! God Bless!