Suddenly recalled that I have this blog and started reading the posts and found those emotions I've blogged in the past... still kinda hurts me now...
So much has changed over the past 8 years and I am not even sure if I have fully healed.
Got my theological degree. Got in and out of church and currently looking another one now. Met new friends. Lost some. Still single and not sure whether I can trust or love again. Learn new things. Still riding my bike and loving it.
There are many other things that I want to do but I guess somehow God has better plans for me. And I shall be obedient.
As I think back 2008 and 2009, I can't help feeling silly to fall into a relationship that wasn't meant to be. I told many of my friends that I might be happier if I have not gone through those years.
Now that its 2016...the death of a relative, some friends and my beloved pet made me hope and pray that xman will not turn up dead as he will be turning 40 this year (he mentioned that if he did not succeed in anything, he will end his life turning 40). I never understood why he will have such thinking and always thought that I am able to change his thinking. Anyway, I will never know as we have lost contact with one another. I refused to do so and find that there isn't a point to contact one another as I cannot see past us being only friends. It just hurts too much.
