Those 2 finally got on my nerves with their never-ending nonsensical, childish, wanna gain pity behaviors.
These had already wasted a lot of my time & many others' too.
Quality time should have been spent on other things, especially for you & me.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Friday, February 22, 2008
Emo?
xiaohan left for aussie last nite & the few of us went to sent her off.
i'm kinda having mixed feelings cos i barely know her for long but she was one of those whom i talk more in my current dept.
later i went for a round of spinning with aiwei & came to realised how vex she was(from working). being very 'me', i told her to think of work only as $$$ & to try find a passion in life.
why is feb such an emo period? even for me? i don quite understand.
maybe i tried thinking too much wanting to help others, that i forgot abt myself...
i'm kinda having mixed feelings cos i barely know her for long but she was one of those whom i talk more in my current dept.
later i went for a round of spinning with aiwei & came to realised how vex she was(from working). being very 'me', i told her to think of work only as $$$ & to try find a passion in life.
why is feb such an emo period? even for me? i don quite understand.
maybe i tried thinking too much wanting to help others, that i forgot abt myself...
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
My gd fren - Man fu
Manfu caught me smiling on my way to my desk today & was saying that I look happier these days.
Whoever said that colleagues can't be friends? Heh! Manfu is one live example!!!
Initially, he's one of those goonz whom I really detest in the office...but somehow we became good pals whom not only complained about work but also share life experiences with each other.
An hour ago, he called me up to talk nonsense & asked why I kept using the quote "Everything happens for a good reason..." He also asked about the case which I once told him about... and later realized the reason on why I was smiling to myself this morning...he then encouraged me to be braver and with another quote again....and mention he will think of another suitable one for me soon....
"Love is not about finding someone perfect. ~ It's about loving an imperfect person perfectly..."
Sometimes I wonder...It's amazing that such thingys can come from a crappy person like him!!! =)
Whoever said that colleagues can't be friends? Heh! Manfu is one live example!!!
Initially, he's one of those goonz whom I really detest in the office...but somehow we became good pals whom not only complained about work but also share life experiences with each other.
An hour ago, he called me up to talk nonsense & asked why I kept using the quote "Everything happens for a good reason..." He also asked about the case which I once told him about... and later realized the reason on why I was smiling to myself this morning...he then encouraged me to be braver and with another quote again....and mention he will think of another suitable one for me soon....
"Love is not about finding someone perfect. ~ It's about loving an imperfect person perfectly..."
Sometimes I wonder...It's amazing that such thingys can come from a crappy person like him!!! =)
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Hmm...
I needa apologies to K4 for misunderstanding him. I didn't know what he did was so wei da & had done so much damaging to his own repu.
Though he did hint/explained to me several times but everything seemed too real to believe.
I posted somewhere on my blog before..."By helping others, you help yourself..."
Guess at this point of time, it really did...
Yesterday was chaotic, and I sorta cried on my way back but I told myself...all this got to stop.
1. Yes, u earned my respect but I wanna let you know that...we were really wrong about them...the reason was really unexpected and shocking and it made me realised that a coin has two sides and we really need to know the whole situation before we can really judge them. Maybe visually to everybody, they really created chaos, but somehow the friendship between them both is priceless & it really changed my perspective.
2. I hate interpersonal conflicts. Those whom know me by now should know that I would always try to be on a neutral stand but when the conflicts are created with me inside. I do feel very helpless and I feel hurt when even friends doubt me this way. I’m always a believer that communication between both will eventually resolve any problems. (Except for the r/s between me n mom, I guess).
3. Manfu always reminded me, “Everything happens for a good reason...”
That’s why...please see point no. 1 and the following! Hah!!
And yes, AS’s golden words... “By helping others, you help yourself…”
Sorry, if I created anger in you & caused you to be hot headed. If not for the blunt questions I’ve asked...I wouldn’t have known... And probably you would have never known as well...
I just ran through my blog and realised there had been too many incidents resulting me wanting to give up. I tried many times reaching out to you...but to me, it always seems like I never did. And yes, I did felt weak when you pushed me away again n again. But I just kept trying...Or rather, things just happen, and I believe it's for a good reason.
Perhaps, there is already a star out there shining at us & I do hope I’m not the only one trying to reach it. :)
Though he did hint/explained to me several times but everything seemed too real to believe.
I posted somewhere on my blog before..."By helping others, you help yourself..."
Guess at this point of time, it really did...
Yesterday was chaotic, and I sorta cried on my way back but I told myself...all this got to stop.
1. Yes, u earned my respect but I wanna let you know that...we were really wrong about them...the reason was really unexpected and shocking and it made me realised that a coin has two sides and we really need to know the whole situation before we can really judge them. Maybe visually to everybody, they really created chaos, but somehow the friendship between them both is priceless & it really changed my perspective.
2. I hate interpersonal conflicts. Those whom know me by now should know that I would always try to be on a neutral stand but when the conflicts are created with me inside. I do feel very helpless and I feel hurt when even friends doubt me this way. I’m always a believer that communication between both will eventually resolve any problems. (Except for the r/s between me n mom, I guess).
3. Manfu always reminded me, “Everything happens for a good reason...”
That’s why...please see point no. 1 and the following! Hah!!
And yes, AS’s golden words... “By helping others, you help yourself…”
Sorry, if I created anger in you & caused you to be hot headed. If not for the blunt questions I’ve asked...I wouldn’t have known... And probably you would have never known as well...
I just ran through my blog and realised there had been too many incidents resulting me wanting to give up. I tried many times reaching out to you...but to me, it always seems like I never did. And yes, I did felt weak when you pushed me away again n again. But I just kept trying...Or rather, things just happen, and I believe it's for a good reason.
Perhaps, there is already a star out there shining at us & I do hope I’m not the only one trying to reach it. :)
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Complicated
why things end up so complicated?
i hate complicated things...why can't it be as simple as possible???
probably i need some proper rest??? i had not been thinking right for the past few weeks, haf i?
i hate complicated things...why can't it be as simple as possible???
probably i need some proper rest??? i had not been thinking right for the past few weeks, haf i?
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
everything wasn't right yday...
- JC keeps coming over to nag on her staff (I need to concentrate on my work la...)
- The big stack of papers on my desk
- The mean arse whom keeps coming over to ask for info (though he was very polite yday)
- Him: pushing me away
- Messed up dinner
I never expect all the above to happen except the last one which was supposed to be a good gathering but ended sour.
I guess I really couldn't understand why their r/s turned tat bad since either of them didn't want to tell me what happened. All good intentions later turn into bad intentions especially when a group of us left for somewhere else. I knew it was weird and wasn't right to do so, but I still left...
feeling very remorse and sad...despite my apologies...i didn't get any response *sigh*
- JC keeps coming over to nag on her staff (I need to concentrate on my work la...)
- The big stack of papers on my desk
- The mean arse whom keeps coming over to ask for info (though he was very polite yday)
- Him: pushing me away
- Messed up dinner
I never expect all the above to happen except the last one which was supposed to be a good gathering but ended sour.
I guess I really couldn't understand why their r/s turned tat bad since either of them didn't want to tell me what happened. All good intentions later turn into bad intentions especially when a group of us left for somewhere else. I knew it was weird and wasn't right to do so, but I still left...
feeling very remorse and sad...despite my apologies...i didn't get any response *sigh*
Thursday, February 14, 2008
It's Valentines Day!
many girls would have gone gaga over the flowers they received, but definitely not me!! cos i was never a flower lover, probably i never can appreciate such 'expensive & yet wither easily' stuffz!
while walking to my bus stop today, i thought of the things which i previously received. though i still kept some of the things in my cupboard... i shall not say/dig it out today to feel emo on. the one item which kept refreshing my memory was a popup musical card.
many girls would have gone gaga over the flowers they received, but definitely not me!! cos i was never a flower lover, probably i never can appreciate such 'expensive & yet wither easily' stuffz!
while walking to my bus stop today, i thought of the things which i previously received. though i still kept some of the things in my cupboard... i shall not say/dig it out today to feel emo on. the one item which kept refreshing my memory was a popup musical card.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Saturday, February 09, 2008
i've juz got home...had dinner/movie/bowling/supper with a bunch of frens. the alien cj7 is so freaking cute! every sound tat came from it, makes me giggle. but stephen chow really got to work on the story line! it has been a great day...but...it's been a longgggggg time since i stay out so late...
when i was at MS juz now, i recalled how charsiew and me started dating which eventually led to my darkest period of time.
i asked myself again, can i really forgive myself being so stupid then? can i trust again?
time and time again, some guys have passed me by... but i guess...its really...有缘无份！！！either that...It would probably be...that I kept my emotions to myself due to certain reasons...
i recalled...val once told me to never stop trying...if i never try, i will never know... i know this is very foolish of me... but to me...its like....why bother to ask? since i already know the outcome???
nvm abt the above...it doesn't matter... cos i'm never in sight... :(
when i was at MS juz now, i recalled how charsiew and me started dating which eventually led to my darkest period of time.
i asked myself again, can i really forgive myself being so stupid then? can i trust again?
time and time again, some guys have passed me by... but i guess...its really...有缘无份！！！either that...It would probably be...that I kept my emotions to myself due to certain reasons...
i recalled...val once told me to never stop trying...if i never try, i will never know... i know this is very foolish of me... but to me...its like....why bother to ask? since i already know the outcome???
nvm abt the above...it doesn't matter... cos i'm never in sight... :(
Friday, February 08, 2008
Chu2 morning, I've no idea why I woke up so early...
Probably it'z becoz I was too tired from yday's visiting session & I went to bed at 12!!!
Hmm...its the same CNY again, when relatives start to bombard you with nonsensical questions. This year, all wished me to get married soon... I was thinking to myself...with who???
I know I'm picking up again; washed off the past & becoming a happier person. I also need to burn off the fatchunks on me as well.
Knowing all these..somehow...I still cannot pick myself up to trust someone again.
Perhaps I'm just scared...scared that I'll fall again...
Probably it'z becoz I was too tired from yday's visiting session & I went to bed at 12!!!
Hmm...its the same CNY again, when relatives start to bombard you with nonsensical questions. This year, all wished me to get married soon... I was thinking to myself...with who???
I know I'm picking up again; washed off the past & becoming a happier person. I also need to burn off the fatchunks on me as well.
Knowing all these..somehow...I still cannot pick myself up to trust someone again.
Perhaps I'm just scared...scared that I'll fall again...
Friday, February 01, 2008
just did my PA for 2007 & i scored pretty good marks! Suddenly i wondered...what would have happen if I did not ask for the transfer...
For sure...I will still be as busy as ever & probably being sent to IMH already.
Im so much more happier in this dept; at least I have so much more time for myself now...and i needa gym more often than the past...like 3-4 times a week...which i had been quite consistent for the past few mths. :)
Gambatte, Lindy!!!
For sure...I will still be as busy as ever & probably being sent to IMH already.
Im so much more happier in this dept; at least I have so much more time for myself now...and i needa gym more often than the past...like 3-4 times a week...which i had been quite consistent for the past few mths. :)
Gambatte, Lindy!!!
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