I do not understand why I have to come back to this place called 'home' anymore. Issit just a place for me to live and just to sleep in? Well... it does seems like it.

Since primary school days, I was placed at a day-care centre; a place where I go after my classes . During secondary school period, I come back to this place call home, being alone all day. This growing up process had moulded me to be very independant. But does it meant that, I do not need family love just because I am independent? Sadly to say, it does seems like it again.

I never recall a moment where I had relate about what had happened in my life to my family. Whatever I do, seems to revolve only around me, myself and I. Had they realise that during my school days I have gotten first in class or had won many competitions before? Had they also realise that during my work in Keppel, I had made almost half a million revenue for the company in just 3months? I seriously doubt so. And since whatever I do seems so insignificant; after some time, I don't even bother to tell them.

The routine had been the same for so many years; Once I stepped into the house, it would be bathe-> eat-> stay in the room and face my computer. The only ones I could talk to, are people on the internet.

Whenever I eat at Joseph's house, or attend friends' birthday celebrations. My heart cringed when I see their family being around.

I feel so sad... Really I do...Sometimes I just wish I had abit of their love & understanding...

Starting May, I will be doing shift work liao...Go in at 10.30am, and end at 8pm! Quite okie la...at least shiftwork will be rotated among my dept.

Yday went to listen to some shit. But I still believe in what one of my lecturer have taught me, "Identify -> Act On it -> Become!"

MTV ASIA just called me saying that I'm being shortlisted for the Voting contest they had. And if I win the contest, I will get a PAID trip to BKK!!!! WeeeeEEee!!!!! Imagine... BKK!!!! SHOPPING!!! AND the many many ARTISTE!!!!!!! *DRooLz*! Ok ok... I better don't get too excited... I'll probably feel quite sad if I am not the final winner...

I must admit...I din't study last weekend except for digging out my textbook & notes. One of the reason is that I'm lazy, and another is I'm having this terrible headache for 2 days!!! Ya ya...all excuses excuses.

I met up with an old fren last wed for dinner and one thing he reminded me....How many times did we set goals & dreams and din't achieve it cos we had been doing nothing. Sometimes, we already know what the problem is and also know what should be done...but too lazy or lack of motivation to START!!!

I'm having my second cup of coffee today...And since I'm so free at the moment, I better start writing down the things which I should I do tonight in order to prepare for my exam paper next Monday!!

Target set for today: Finish compiling all notes and to highlight the important points!!!

I'm quite free this morning as the system is down for maintenance again.

I MUST get a pair of earring today!!! Lost one of it during my dive in Redang, and I threw the other side on the way back. I better get another pair SOON before the earhole close, else I will have a hard time trying to poke it back...

Isn't it good, to have new things happening in ur life everyday? That's what made it special, isnt it?

Last thurs, while going to work, the bus broke down and we had to wait for the next one that comes along. Actually, I could already smell something burning even before I got on it. I was thinking, will it explode or not? Haha!

Today, 2 little kittens kept following me and a few people while waiting for the bus to arrive...Cute isn't it? But I din't want it to come near my leg!! Anyway, one malay guy later carried one of the kittens elsewhere...but it soon came running back!

Few days back, 'AO' suddenly called me up to ask where 'NO' is, as she owe him a few months of $$$. Sheesh. I thought their affair saga would have ended after 1 year plus, but seems like its not? She actually used his credit card to purchase her laptop???

GOSH!!! I hate to be in such situation...

But thanks to a few friends' advises...I smsed her, " 'AO' is looking for you urgently, pls return his call.Settle ur problem with him. If u need help do let me know." And guess what, 'AO' replied me saying she called him and he will give her another week to settle her debts. And for 'NO', she say she left her handphone in office, hence no reply. But how would she have known that I sms her in which she could reply 'AO' that night?

I realised tat she have changed alot since she stepped into the insurance line. She no longer come out with us and now she tell lies to us. Sighz...

Just finishing watching "Assault on Precinct 13", starring Ethan Hawke & Laurence Fishburne!!! Nice show!!! Action pack!! And I think I will be having sniper dreams tonight again! HAHA!

Last night, I went to the Singapore Night Safari with my family, and it was boring as there's nothing much to see!!!! Anyway, I got the passes thru some balloting thingy from my company and treat this as a family gathering...and its been years since we all go out together!!!