I went for my company's inter-departmental badminton games today. Sheesh! Donno what I was doing sia!!!

Though the win over Carol in singles , Chin and Marya in mixed doubles juz now...I had made quite alot of mistakes!!! My serving was like shit!!! Simply no power and I kept serving to the wrong side of the court!!! Argh I need more practise!!! I need more concentration & mental power!!!

Enuff of grunting!!!! I definitely need more practise and fortunately there's a session with my colleagues on wednesday and probably join Tze Yong on sunday? Hmm....I really hope he don't mind?? :x

This is a little stressful....But I will do my best for the coming games as I hope to help my department score some points? NOnetheless, I should not pout over this anymore...

Practise....practise...practise!

My manager finally initiated a discussion, and last Thursday, I had a ‘state my views’ session with him. Yes, no doubt severe damage to this working relationship had already been done. But I took this discussion seriously and hoping that after voicing out, there will be some peace & justice done. Unfortunately, the feedback I got on the next day was, he still thinks he’s right, the almighty and everybody should obey him. I told myself, “I had expected this situation to either get better or get really worst. Since it was the later and nothing could be done on my part to resolve this issue, I will tolerate; find a job and leave in a month’s time.

After lunch, something happened which really made me blew my top.

Every month end, one of my tasks was to gather all timecards, pass to him for approval & to keep a copy for filing & record purposes. But that day, he had sealed all the timecards before I could do so. Knowing that the envelope contains the timecards, I opened it and what I saw was 2 posts it notes.

1) Please ensure that you subtract 1-day pay from her salary as she took unpaid leave.
2) Linda Yong is NOT entitled to any overtime unless authorize by Mr. Ang or me. Please do not pay her overtime.
3) There were markings on my timecard on 2 days, one at 08:01hrs and another at 08:03hrs.

Yes, I was late, I took unpaid leave, and I am not entitled to any overtime pay. By doing what he did, what is he trying to do or prove? Putting his personal grudges towards me? As a supervisor, does that means he has the right to abuse his authority, come late for work, leave the office for personal reasons during work, taking office supplies for his own use, etc.?

This whole situation, I would say I am at the most losing side. To think that during the ‘state my views’ session, my manager had already emphasize, “ He’s more than a colleague”. He also mentioned that Adrian was a good supervisor in the sense that he could ‘get his job done’ and minimize incidents as compared to the previous supervisor. But does that mean he’s really a good supervisor? Well, for the knowledge and skills portion, he might be the best candidate. As for human relations, what is the explanation of the high turnover rate then? Not only that, why are many new technicians whom have joined the company, are now actively looking for alternatives routes?

Gee. Unfortunately, the reality is that unfair. That’s why, one has to make him or herself so marketable that wherever one may go, he/she will get employed.

I told myself this…

“Linda….Linda…think positively. Would you rather work with such a boss in such organization?
Many things might not be right and fair to you. You have a choice, and that choice is to learn more skills, make yourself so marketable that wherever you go, you will be employed.

I'm very sleepy and very tired from battling with morons at work.

I'm utterly disappointed with my manager, especially in his way of 'managing situations'.Yes, to him, perhaps that's the only thingy he could do. But to me? I feel that I have lost all confidence in working with such a boss.

I am sure that he knows abt the existence of the conflict, yet he chose to keep quiet and stay on one side of the court?

And why did i say so? First of all, it was obvious that my sup is finding fault n making things difficult for me. He had been calling frequently over and to check on what I was doing. But one thingy, my manager did not foresee was though I was listening to my mp3player while doing work, I had adjusted the sound to a low volume. I could hear so clearly, each and every single fiaking word they had said.

Well, I did thought over whether I should be the one intiating the 'discussion' over this issue. But the big question mark appears when I thought of how he bring this issue to my sup?As a friend or as a manager?

Aiyah....................F*CK IT! Why bother? I seriously doubt there will be any improvement!

Gosh! I just break a record? Hahaha! Lowest handphone bill ever for the past 2 years of $83+!
See! I can do it! Now its to keep below the free 300 sms per month and I'll save even more!

Im looking forward for tomorrow as I will be going to JB again with my friends! This time round, we will be going to a mango plantation and I heard that they are very sweet and yet damn cheap! Woohoo!!! I love fruits!!! Hopefully I'll get plenty?!
Gotta sleep now! Hehehehee!

Though I slept quite abit last weekend, but last night, I just could not fall asleep cos of the warm weather & when I got up to surf the net a little... I had stomach upset and I even vomitted!! The cool day weather today is just great for zzz-ing under the blanky!!! Hehehe! I'm waiting for my hair to dry then I'll head for bed!

I hope tomorrow is gonna be great at work? Nah...it's always boring & crappy! GRrr!!! I'm looking forward for class though! Hmm...was wondering should I get a recorder? I can't catch up with what my lecturer says & aiyo think my writing is quite turtle... Maybe this weekend I will go source for 1 & hopefully it will benefit me by remembering the points better :P

Glad that I stick with my own choice to place the bet and today, for the first time, I won!
Though not really alot, but I will be bringing my family for a steamboat dinner tomorrow. As for the rest of the $$, I would need to return the loan for my school fees to my mom...

Quite happy today also as I finally watched Alien vs Predators. The storyline is quite predictable but overall not bad la... For the next few weeks, there are some movies which I hope would be worth to watch?

Did a little bit of shopping today and visited the library for some books too.
Oh ya!!! I managed to sleep during the afternoon which I had been lacking of for this entire week!!!! Hahaha!!

Enough for today... I'm gona play pinball!!! =P

I had been feeling damn frustrated over the past few days becoz of work. And I spent my friday night pouring my sorrow & anger...

Dinner was at california pizza; with nice food, ambience & of cos the good company of two friends whom previously were my ex-colleagues .

Many stuffs was said and there are a few points I would want to keep in mind is that...

Dont ever put human emotions over work. A company is set up basically to earn money, their bottom line is only the 'Profit & Loss'. In good times, yeah perhaps you will gain something in terms of monetary or watsoever. But during bad times; being loyal, responsible & caring isnt gonna earn you anything!! If you gonna be so emotional/compassionate; my as well work for free to help him 'do better for the business'?

Always think and put yourself first in thoughts before others. This is the only way to survive.

Also...Try out different things while you can. If you do not try, you'll never know...

As what my lecturer said, "Something must happen to make you do something...". And today, after listening to PM Lee Hsien Loong's speech at the National Day Rally 04 ,he 'triggered' me to have a few more items on my 'changes list'.

Here it goes...
Instead of complaining & whine that I have nothing much to do at work(which is true)!
I guess the solution is to plan my time well and by utilizing free time to read more and keeping a lookout for opportunities. Other people might be slacking and simply cant be bothered in what they do, but that doesn't mean I should be the same! I, myself, should be the one whom is responsible for my own future, in terms of work/studies/family!

Also...there is an importance to understand the difference between problems and dilemmas.
Problems are things/issues/matters which can be solved. As for dilemmas....why should we even spend time looking for a solution since the issue is already 'classified' as a dilemma? Instead, we should change our attitudes by being adaptive to the situation. As the saying goes, "Change yourself to suit the environment, not change the environment suit you!

I find that today is another wasted day at work...

Okie....the thing is, I have to do a report every Monday and it will be presented to the client the day after.The usual practise is that, every 2pm, I will need to get data from my supervisor...
For this week, he happened to be on vacation leave; No choice, I have to get the data from my client which I tried calling since 2pm till 5 minutes before my offwork timing, but still, she seems to be either in a meeting; on the phone; etc.

I just have a gut feeling, she's gonna complain to my supervisor, who will in turn, come kaopei to me...Also, she will also start calling me tomorrow, wanting to get the report.

Kinda f up process....But what can I do? Now I'm pondering whether I should talk to my supervisor to get the data to be sent directly instead of going around the world before it reaches me....

I spent my day playing pinball in office. How "wonderful" that can be? Hurhur....

I've got abit of resting to do now.I was on the phone till like 2am this morning? Kinda feeling damn slack now.....perhaps its the weather! HAhaa!

Hmm...got to plan my shopping trip tomorrow already. Need to find some blouse approapriate for dinner next week! Wish myself luck!

It's one of those days, when staying at home is such an enjoyable thingy; Definitely better than being out with people and seeing them practising the "jian fu yin fu jian (sword)".

I've cleared some of my stuffs, and got everything ready for tomorrow so I will not miss the damn bus? Haha...I guess I will be in high spirits as long as I'm away from work. Just cant stand the sight of a certain people; It's like talking to them...really make me gross me out and feel so disgusted.

Aiya! Dont talk about morons already!!!! Have better things to do; enjoying my day at home, chatting, listening to my fav mp3, play games, dvds,etc! Hehehehe!

Can't believe it. One of my friend is having an affair with....my sup*******?! *Faints*
I thought I was the only one who kinda suspected it....But from other made known information, the whole thingy turned out to be real!!!!!

It's abit saddening and disappointing though...Neither any of us can understand why would she do that? But still, hey, tats her life. If she gonna ruin it by doing all such thingys, it's none of our business isnt it?

As for the guy, he's just another sex driven sick bastard!! Why will I have said that? Seriously speaking, I had always looked up to my previous bosses; Definitely not this time...As for his character wise, there's isnt a need to talk about it already. Work wise, he's far from being a good leader.

I'm lazing at home...nono running to the toilet every few hours.
I'm having serious indigestion problem and felt damn bloated since yday...

I felt kinda sad though, thinking why some couples get together and break off cos of their differences and why they can't just base their love on the the magic relationship word "compromise".

I kinda read an email a few minutes ago...
It's about a lady committing suicide....though its only a few secs before she fell to the ground after jumping off; She saw people on the different floors, having different worries & problems. And thought her own problem was nothing as compared to theirs....

I was then thinking...
Perhaps life isnt that bad despite all the shitty things I recently experience.
Every single person has their own worries/problems/etc.
It is how you handle it...and sum down to a point...
How you live your life is all about the choices you make for yourself.

Sometimes I wonder,"Why do we need to study"?

Felt the struggle and frustration in me recently; I can't go out. Not say I can't la...But felt that I had to stay home to mug for my exams.

My phone kept ringing, eveybody starts calling me out. There are lotsa events during this month of August, and I missed the fireworks festival!!!

Sighz...Guess I should have understood it was gonna be like this, since I sign up for the course. But for what? Cos of Interest? Better future? To gain more knowledge?
Yes yes...To gain something, something has to be sacriface. As for me, "To gain knowledge, I lost freedom".

But is that only freedom lost? No! Knowledge is for us to keep forever.
I hope I'll put this sentence always in my mind...

As for today, I have to try finishing 2 questions. Tonight, I still have a wedding dinner to attend and will be seeing my ex-colleagues! Hope I have fun? And yes, hope that I can see some miserable NDP fireworks from fort canning?

I feel so fed up coming home these days. Yday I had a room full of sand; Today I have a kitchen with bones and eaten grape stems on the floor waiting to be cleared.

I don't come home late for nothing. I can't understand why they can't clear up before going to bed. So instead of coming home to do my school stuffs, I have to clear the stuffs for them? Furthermore, they will scream at the sight of seeing a cockroach or lizard, and yet they are leaving all such things around? ARGH!!

I hate guys whom don’t have initiative. Let’s see what I can add here by tonight.

I kinda felt weird after listening to what my fellow male colleagues had said during lunchtime. As usual, they were talking about girls, niteclubs and their sex life/encounters. Most or rather all of them already have gf and some even married but they are still having their own 'fun' outside at a regular basis??

Working in an all male environment sure gave me an ‘understanding of men's thoughts??
Yes I try not to generalize that all guys are bad just because I know such kind of guys, but when one told me, “Linda, you got to get use to it, as 90% of men talk ,think and behave like us”, I started wondering again…

So what about the rest of the 10%? Taken or had already turned gay? Hmm...tough eh?

Finally, some free time of my own! I’ve just came back after watching the movie ‘Troy’. The story wasn’t too bad, but somehow I do not understand it a little; Battle war, brothership and love? Anyway, I was quite pissed off while watching the movie… Some malay pigs were shaking the chair, talking continuously throughout the whole movie! Don’t they know what’s basic courtesy? This really makes my blood boil, as this isn’t the 1st time that we’ve got so disturbed while watching a movie at the cinema… What has the world become???

Today seems very fulfilling for me. Maybe it's becos of the gym session? Hehe! I've just sign up with this gym at changi-simei opened by NTUC. The people are very friendly to each other... I guess they might be already regulars at that gym, which made the bond among themselves!

Work was fine today... I had some minor problems with the reports here and there, but eventually got it fixed! What really matters was, I had to walk around several times, just to get a few supporting documents. It seems that everybody is avoiding the tank farm, which is the office area I am working at now. Well, its not becos me, but most of my colleague hate to go to the tank farm cos of this so-called person they nicknamed as 'kachua'; which means cockroach. I have yet to find out more about this roach. But he sure is 'william hung' lookalike!

Tats all for today! Hehe!